i want to cry...

i want to cry,
but i dont know why,
all these feelings inside,
i just cant hide,

all this pain,
the agony,
this is what you did to me,
and all the blame,
is mine,

i wish that i could hide,
from this pain inside,
i have to run away,
because now im gonna pay,

i just want to cry,
and i dont even know why...


sorry spur of the moment type thing... just thought i had to tell someone how i really feel right now.... even if you dont really exist.

*not really here*

nice...kinda spontaneous, not unlike so many manic depressives that live in this here forum.

Originally posted by leana marie
i want to cry,
but i dont know why,
all these feelings inside,
i just cant hide,

all this pain,
the agony,
this is what you did to me,
and all the blame,
is mine,

i wish that i could hide,
from this pain inside,
i have to run away,
because now im gonna pay,

i just want to cry,
and i dont even know why...


sorry spur of the moment type thing... just thought i had to tell someone how i really feel right now.... even if you dont really exist.
I like it... and I'm sorry you're feeling this way girl hug

yeah well i used to write great poetry... but now all my poetry is lamenting the fact that i cant anymore because ive mysteriously lost that skill...

and it wasnt so depressive either...it was so happy back when i was happy...

Originally posted by leana marie
yeah well i used to write great poetry... but now all my poetry is lamenting the fact that i cant anymore because ive mysteriously lost that skill...

and it wasnt so depressive either...it was so happy back when i was happy...
You'll get it back again

yeah...what cold says

Originally posted by leana marie
i want to cry,
but i dont know why,
all these feelings inside,
i just cant hide,

all this pain,
the agony,
this is what you did to me,
and all the blame,
is mine,

i wish that i could hide,
from this pain inside,
i have to run away,
because now im gonna pay,

i just want to cry,
and i dont even know why...


sorry spur of the moment type thing... just thought i had to tell someone how i really feel right now.... even if you dont really exist. its very good i like it

Originally posted by Coldfire
Oh now I'm only Cold to you??? lmao well no, i think you're actually hot!

you had that one coming!

riiiiiiiiiiiight!

Thanks for sharing, Leana... I'm sorry things aren't so great for you right now hug

ok heres a depressive on i never meant for anyone to see... thats why i wrote it in my journal...

i cut myself and watch me bleed,
i think of you and then suceed,
that maybe you were all i need,
but its too late, i watch me bleed,

and as the life drains out of me,
i guess we weren't meant to be,
this must be my destiny,
but that is just reality,


well, that isnt the original... i think the original was better... that one sucked
whatever... anyway... life is just a waste of death... yep...

whoa! someone needs to take some happy pill...seriously life's not so bad!

kinda like eating a cheese sandwich, but once you go baloney you never go back! okay odd metaphor, but you get the gist of it. (i hope)

Originally posted by Coldfire


But that sucks that you feel that way leana hug Feel better soon hun okay reading this and seeing you here is making me feel bad Amber!

oh hey! nice stuff...i'll be sure to stop by later if you get something less....depressing nosweat

Originally posted by Coldfire
It's making you feel bad? How so? not here...no need to air out our own private Idaho!

yeah well np you guys... its ok i dont mind... if you dont post here who will... ok try this one... maybe its not so upsetting...

looking out the window,
at the city in the sky,
its like a painting on my wall,
never changing, ever high,

i wish that i could fly,
to meet the people in that city,
i think that its a pity,
for i shall never walk the streets,
of that city in the sky,

and yet i wander aimlessly,
underneath, hoping to see,
maybe that stairway to heaven,
but i dont think thats for me,

and i shall remain earthbound,
till, the heaven meets the sea,
for thats truly where my heart lies,
upon the ocean wise,
in a dingy, the waves pound.


erm... i just wrote that off the top of my head, kinda putting some of my other poems in there and shaking it up then writing out the results. it didnt really make sense did it? if anyone wants it they can have it...

Originally posted by leana marie
yeah well np you guys... its ok i dont mind... if you dont post here who will... ok try this one... maybe its not so upsetting...

looking out the window,
at the city in the sky,
its like a painting on my wall,
never changing, ever high,

i wish that i could fly,
to meet the people in that city,
i think that its a pity,
for i shall never walk the streets,
of that city in the sky,

and yet i wander aimlessly,
underneath, hoping to see,
maybe that stairway to heaven,
but i dont think thats for me,

and i shall remain earthbound,
till, the heaven meets the sea,
for thats truly where my heart lies,
upon the ocean wise,
in a dingy, the waves pound.


erm... i just wrote that off the top of my head, kinda putting some of my other poems in there and shaking it up then writing out the results. it didnt really make sense did it? if anyone wants it they can have it...
I thought it was kinda cool

thank you coldfire!!! i really loved the first stanza...

Originally posted by leana marie
thank you coldfire!!! i really loved the first stanza...
You're welcome And you can call me Amber

and hey! you can call me Julian...but never, and i mean never call me late for dinner!!

I'm Kerry, if we're all introducing ourselves. And I also thought that last piece was good, Leana. The rhythm was effective too.

Originally posted by leana marie
yeah well np you guys... its ok i dont mind... if you dont post here who will... ok try this one... maybe its not so upsetting...

looking out the window,
at the city in the sky,
its like a painting on my wall,
never changing, ever high,

i wish that i could fly,
to meet the people in that city,
i think that its a pity,
for i shall never walk the streets,
of that city in the sky,

and yet i wander aimlessly,
underneath, hoping to see,
maybe that stairway to heaven,
but i dont think thats for me,

and i shall remain earthbound,
till, the heaven meets the sea,
for thats truly where my heart lies,
upon the ocean wise,
in a dingy, the waves pound.


erm... i just wrote that off the top of my head, kinda putting some of my other poems in there and shaking it up then writing out the results. it didnt really make sense did it? if anyone wants it they can have it...

hmm... cool. Leana, eh? I am Sir William. *bows* a pleasure. Perhaps you may come fly with me some days.

Originally posted by Syren
I'm Kerry, if we're all introducing ourselves. And I also thought that last piece was good, Leana. The rhythm was effective too.
I didn't know that Nice to meet you Kerry


lol I started a little trend here haha

hahah yeah, you did...

Originally posted by DreamingWarrior
hahah yeah, you did...

so lea, any new stuff?

In the land of the Rabbit King, (dedicated to... justjakk i think?)


In the land of the Rabbit King,
Has there ever been such a thing?,
He has eyes of molten red,
And a brain made out of lead,
He cares naught, for what he ought,
And his eyes smell the lies,
of the peasant lot.

In the land of the Rabbit King,
All the birds fly on a wing,
The taxes cost an arm and a leg,
So they must to with a leg and a peg,
Unable to fly, they walk on by,
They tried to fight, a hopeless plight,
It cost them many an egg,

In the land of the Rabbit King,
What do songs cost to sing?
The bard wrote a song,
That was far too long,
A sign they saw, said twas against the law,
The King was mad, he became quite glad,
When he ordered off with his tongue.


weeeeeellllllll..... that one was supposed to be that stupid, really!

That last one was hilarious. XD Very good job on these.

Originally posted by inthesilence
That last one was hilarious. XD Very good job on these.

wow thank you so much!!

Originally posted by leana marie
In the land of the Rabbit King, (dedicated to... justjakk i think?)


In the land of the Rabbit King,
Has there ever been such a thing?,
He has eyes of molten red,
And a brain made out of lead,
He cares naught, for what he ought,
And his eyes smell the lies,
of the peasant lot.

In the land of the Rabbit King,
All the birds fly on a wing,
The taxes cost an arm and a leg,
So they must to with a leg and a peg,
Unable to fly, they walk on by,
They tried to fight, a hopeless plight,
It cost them many an egg,

In the land of the Rabbit King,
What do songs cost to sing?
The bard wrote a song,
That was far too long,
A sign they saw, said twas against the law,
The King was mad, he became quite glad,
When he ordered off with his tongue.


weeeeeellllllll..... that one was supposed to be that stupid, really!


I wait for nothing and nothing comes and sorrows all i find.
With a foothold on my happiness, now im really in a bind.
The foul stinch of death rolls in and the vultures start to fly.
I take my last breath of fresh air and slowly start to die.
I see a bright light coming in and all who came befor me
who tried to make me into a person they wanted me to be.
They yell out mean obsinities and slander to my face.
I scream for a release from this dreadful gastly place.
I wake up from this nightmare and slowly start to blush.
Reach behind me on the toilet and quickly turn the flush.
Go away bad obsinities and deaths terrible smell.
Go away terrible nothingness that had me in this spell.
I wipe and spray and I have to admit it really does sound silly.
But i'll never again eat a cicken sandwich with side of black hole chili.

Thank you

i wasnt trying to insult you thats just the imagenings you gave me, the way you act and talk... i dont know!!! leave me alone....

Originally posted by leana marie
In the land of the Rabbit King, (dedicated to... justjakk i think?)


In the land of the Rabbit King,
Has there ever been such a thing?,
He has eyes of molten red,
And a brain made out of lead,
He cares naught, for what he ought,
And his eyes smell the lies,
of the peasant lot.

In the land of the Rabbit King,
All the birds fly on a wing,
The taxes cost an arm and a leg,
So they must to with a leg and a peg,
Unable to fly, they walk on by,
They tried to fight, a hopeless plight,
It cost them many an egg,

In the land of the Rabbit King,
What do songs cost to sing?
The bard wrote a song,
That was far too long,
A sign they saw, said twas against the law,
The King was mad, he became quite glad,
When he ordered off with his tongue.


weeeeeellllllll..... that one was supposed to be that stupid, really!

Originally posted by leana marie
i wasnt trying to insult you thats just the imagenings you gave me, the way you act and talk... i dont know!!! leave me alone.... lol.....im picking at ya hun.......up gave me a poem, i gave you one of my early ones.......no anger meant in it.....promice

your poems are really good.....even if you are feeling that way...(sorry bout that).......but yeah they r good....i like that last one....very depressive tho

why?!

noe one gets me
just let me die in peace...

Originally posted by leana marie
why?!

noe one gets me
just let me die in peace...

no peace in death hon. just more bs... and then you can't do anything about it. live, and force life to like you. (force yourself to have happy days too.)

im not a real poet,
but who did i deceive?
the wind wont spread my evil breath,
what thought would you receive?
i tell all feeble lies,
no truth to my tall tales,
nothing left, no concept even,
spoken by the gales,

the tears of the sky,
wash away all reason,
feed the changing season,
spread by whispered lies,

frozen winters heart,
tears become ice,
lost scattered, broken apart,
the wind says its goodbyes,


confused yet? well i sure as hell am! what the heck am i saying? oh wait this poem is telling me...kay well, i just thought id give a little bit, still dont understand what im saying... good to be back...

has anyone else noticed how i dont have a stable rhyme scheme? w/e

Originally posted by leana marie
im not a real poet,
but who did i deceive?
the wind wont spread my evil breath,
what thought would you receive?
i tell all feeble lies,
no truth to my tall tales,
nothing left, no concept even,
spoken by the gales,

the tears of the sky,
wash away all reason,
feed the changing season,
spread by whispered lies,

frozen winters heart,
tears become ice,
lost scattered, broken apart,
the wind says its goodbyes,


confused yet? well i sure as hell am! what the heck am i saying? oh wait this poem is telling me...kay well, i just thought id give a little bit, still dont understand what im saying... good to be back...

has anyone else noticed how i dont have a stable rhyme scheme? w/e
That's the beauty of poetry... you don't need one particular rhyme scheme... you can play with them and experiment

my Fear (stupid sappy, sappiness)

I sit in darkness, ignorance,
In a cage with bars of steel sorrow,
A cracked lock, heart shaped,
Wrapped in chains of unknown tomorrow,

No light glimmers beyond the cage,
I am nowhere known to me,
blinded by sadness, binded by fear,
Is this really where i want to be?

A jewel falls upon a link,
Shimmering with a radiant light,
A warmth flows down my cold skin,
An end to my eternal night,

For so long I've held back these tears,
And with a new freedom they flow,
Melt away these chains of torment,
Finally I am free to let go,

Alas, but these are just my dreams,
Never shall I truly be free,
A pained, hidden, darkend soul,
That is all I'll ever be.


the first ending was my hope, the second ending, is my truth.

I thought it was good!

^^^^^^^^^^now that is a poem, take note^^^^^^^^^^

BY leana marie

thank you ^.^

Originally posted by DEV1L
^^^^^^^^^^now that is a poem, take note^^^^^^^^^^

BY leana marie
lol indeed

due to my recent o.d. of emo sh*t, ive decided to quit poetry till my work starts to lighten up, and become less compulsivly crappy... thank you for your time..

i will follow you to the ends of the earth,
by your will alone do i breathe,
but you shall be gone one day,
though never shall i stray,
from loving you eternally,

though it causes me pain,
to leave this life i live,
i will still with you go,
to you my soul i give,
to where you travel, i dont know,

old places gone in snow,
new places come in sand,
though i go with you,
i regret to leave this land,
from warmth to cold,

my memories gone hazy,
my wish to go home strong,
i can never leave you,
for i've stayed with you so long,
and yet you go,

i've always let your wishes come true,
but you ignore my only plea,
why must you be this way?
i see now that i must flea,
this love for you is dying,

as the wind blows the sand,
of this cold desert land,
i will find my way back,
forever i will roam,
untill my heart is home.


im sad, i cant help it. im sorry, but its true. would someone mind analyzing my poem? im not quite sure what it means...

Originally posted by leana marie
due to my recent o.d. of emo sh*t, ive decided to quit poetry till my work starts to lighten up, and become less compulsivly crappy... thank you for your time..
awww
Originally posted by leana marie
i will follow you to the ends of the earth,
by your will alone do i breathe,
but you shall be gone one day,
though never shall i stray,
from loving you eternally,

though it causes me pain,
to leave this life i live,
i will still with you go,
to you my soul i give,
to where you travel, i dont know,

old places gone in snow,
new places come in sand,
though i go with you,
i regret to leave this land,
from warmth to cold,

my memories gone hazy,
my wish to go home strong,
i can never leave you,
for i've stayed with you so long,
and yet you go,

i've always let your wishes come true,
but you ignore my only plea,
why must you be this way?
i see now that i must flea,
this love for you is dying,

as the wind blows the sand,
of this cold desert land,
i will find my way back,
forever i will roam,
untill my heart is home.


im sad, i cant help it. im sorry, but its true. would someone mind analyzing my poem? im not quite sure what it means...
that's no good hug I don't really know what it means... almost sounds like the person loves a person, and will love them forever, but they don't love them back... (I only use "the person" cuz I don't know if it's from your point of view or not lol)

ok lets try this.


take a walk along the sandy beach,
and tell me all that you see,
i want to know what it looks like now,
and remember the way it used to be,

when the sun was bright in the sky,
the sand was so white and clean,
when the waves were clear and blue,
and the seabirds were never so mean,

the sky is dark, and darker each day,
the sand is filled with cigarette butts,
the waves are slowed by flotsam and jetsam,
the seabirds are ever in a putts,

but thats how ive always known it,
for me its never been any other way,
i come down to clean it up,
but its just dirtier everyday,


. its not done yet, but i have to go now, and i dont want to just leave it, k bye.

Wow - I love that last one, it feels very much like just growing older..... its very sweet and I can totally relate to it

i get on the bus,
kindly say hello to the driver,
then take my seat in the middle,
no one is on the bus but me and the driver,
then more people come,
they go to the back, or stay in the front,
when they pass by, i can feel the wind,
its still in the middle of the bus,
no one is near me,
they all sit at the front or the back,
no one sits beside me,
im all alone in the middle of the bus.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
i get on the bus,
kindly say hello to the driver,
then take my seat in the middle,
no one is on the bus but me and the driver,
then more people come,
they go to the back, or stay in the front,
when they pass by, i can feel the wind,
its still in the middle of the bus,
no one is near me,
they all sit at the front or the back,
no one sits beside me,
im all alone in the middle of the bus. solitude is felt by all.....i love this poem, but it seems so lonely..........

sometimes, i just feel so lonely.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
sometimes, i just feel so lonely. even the smallest candle can overpower the darkest room.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
i get on the bus,
kindly say hello to the driver,
then take my seat in the middle,
no one is on the bus but me and the driver,
then more people come,
they go to the back, or stay in the front,
when they pass by, i can feel the wind,
its still in the middle of the bus,
no one is near me,
they all sit at the front or the back,
no one sits beside me,
im all alone in the middle of the bus.
Your poems are very good. I really like this one, it has something about it I can relate to.

Originally posted by justjakk
even the smallest candle can overpower the darkest room.
Exactly so!

i need a candle


justjack, talking to you has made me realize how alone i am...

in every single class i have each day, im the only one who sits at my table, im the only one, that nobody talks to....

here is a picture of me... the only picture i have... its a bad picture.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
i need a candle


justjack, talking to you has made me realize how alone i am...

in every single class i have each day, im the only one who sits at my table, im the only one, that nobody talks to.... omfg..... *smak!* you are not alone, WE are here with you, though we're far away, we're goofing around every day! LOL!!!! so look, yeah, most of us may not be too NEAR you, but ya aint alone. no one is. points to back it up:
1: God (even if ya dont believe ) is always near.
2: The spirits of the planet (even if ya dont believe ) are always around you.
3: The spirits of your pals are close to you.
4: There is always SOMEONE who loves you. Always... Hell, even SADDAM is loved by somebody... somewhere....

hug so feel less alone, ok? (I know it aint easy, been there myself, but I know you can make it through.)

your poetry is absolutly amazing, i can relate to it so much i love it

Your poems are wonderful.

eh, heh heh heh, no

i should take a poetry course,

They really are.

You don't need to take a poetry course. No one does. When you write poetry, you're writing what you're feeling. Your deepest emotions are coming out on paper. You can't teach that.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
here is a picture of me... the only picture i have... its a bad picture. do you ever notice how beautyful you are?

and if that is your worst, your best must be angelic...

thank you you guys.

i cant feel good right now, everyone laughed at me and i dont know why. no one even noticed when i started to cry... cry

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
thank you you guys.

i cant feel good right now, everyone laughed at me and i dont know why. no one even noticed when i started to cry... cry we could only wish to be near you to give you hugs and tell you its gonna be ok........

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
thank you you guys.

i cant feel good right now, everyone laughed at me and i dont know why. no one even noticed when i started to cry... cry

hug

Originally posted by justjakk
we could only wish to be near you to give you hugs and tell you its gonna be ok........
yes


So here's my long-distance hug for you LM sweetie! hug

cry thank you.

i love haiku!!!


the stars shine above,
mountain peaks shimmer with snow,
I stand, far below.

i wrote this one for a class project, and then perfected it!!! i really love it!

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
i love haiku!!!


the stars shine above,
mountain peaks shimmer with snow,
I stand, far below.

i wrote this one for a class project, and then perfected it!!! i really love it!
ooooo tis very good indeed!

A cold wind stirs up flakes of snow,
you were there, how did you know?
the wind is stronger here, up high,
todays the day im going to die.

im sorry that i leave you behind,
i seriously thought you wouldnt mind,
i never thought you lived for me,
but at least know that you made me happy,

on the way up here we had fun,
after many sad days a happy one,
thank you for this memory,
you made me forget, you set me free,

carried by the wind now,
flying though i never knew how,
im sorry that you had to see,
but your the one who set me free.


im so depressed.... what is this world doing to me? im not going to kill myself though until ive been happy at least once...

unless theres no hope left....

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
A cold wind stirs up flakes of snow,
you were there, how did you know?
the wind is stronger here, up high,
todays the day im going to die.

im sorry that i leave you behind,
i seriously thought you wouldnt mind,
i never thought you lived for me,
but at least know that you made me happy,

on the way up here we had fun,
after many sad days a happy one,
thank you for this memory,
you made me forget, you set me free,

carried by the wind now,
flying though i never knew how,
im sorry that you had to see,
but your the one who set me free.


im so depressed.... what is this world doing to me? im not going to kill myself though until ive been happy at least once...

unless theres no hope left....
awww I hate to see you like this sweetie hug If you ever need someone to talk to I'm here, alright?

this ones better...

the stars in the sky hang gracefully
staring down at you with eternal eyes
never judging who you could be
they know their place in the skies

shining brightly for so long
as though they know all is right
but they dont even know whats wrong
for them its all just night

and though the moon begins to set
the sky lightens with sunrise
the stars are not gone yet
they are always there, with their eternal eyes.

goodnight stars, goodnight
you make everything all right.


yes and though you may not have noticed, im not so happy right now... but i had to write a poem for english class, so here it is.

as it turns out i also have to write a sonnet, so im just going to rewrite this one into one. i will also post that one here if you want.

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
this ones better...

the stars in the sky hang gracefully
staring down at you with eternal eyes
never judging who you could be
they know their place in the skies

shining brightly for so long
as though they know all is right
but they dont even know whats wrong
for them its all just night

and though the moon begins to set
the sky lightens with sunrise
the stars are not gone yet
they are always there, with their eternal eyes.

goodnight stars, goodnight
you make everything all right.


yes and though you may not have noticed, im not so happy right now... but i had to write a poem for english class, so here it is.

as it turns out i also have to write a sonnet, so im just going to rewrite this one into one. i will also post that one here if you want.
It's great hun hug I see that you aren't very happy I hope you start feeling happier soon.

Well I'd sure like to hear it

i can stand the pain of a broken bone,
but not a broken heart,
because this being all alone,
is tearing me apart,

so when i look into your eyes,
and see such honest love,
it lifts me up into the skies,
im soaring like a dove.


uhh... i like this guy, and i think he might like me too... so i wrote this poem, course its kinda just fantasy... oh well....

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
i can stand the pain of a broken bone,
but not a broken heart,
because this being all alone,
is tearing me apart,

so when i look into your eyes,
and see such honest love,
it lifts me up into the skies,
im soaring like a dove.


uhh... i like this guy, and i think he might like me too... so i wrote this poem, course its kinda just fantasy... oh well.... all you can do is tell him. thats the only way you will know for sure. the worst thing he could do is not reciprocate.

but i cant tell him... thats the thing, its hard for me to show emotion of any kind, because im so afraid of what other people think, i just keep it all inside....

Originally posted by Lovely Murder
but i cant tell him... thats the thing, its hard for me to show emotion of any kind, because im so afraid of what other people think, i just keep it all inside....
aww hug I know what you mean though... I was like that myself... still am as a matter of fact. But if you don't talk to him and ask, then you'll never know, and you'll regret it for a long time