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continuing from the discussion that started in the awards

Okay sniper you go first

well, i dont hurt myself, much, and i dont think about it all the time, but it comes up alot

what does...hurting youself or thinking about it?

when I get mad I threaten to kill my self because it makes my mum and dad sad

sniper , I told you...I didnt want to debate who is more psychotic...you definitively made your point there, I give credit for that...
now you were talking like mine illness was a picnic or something which is definitively not!!

suicide is not the answer to anything, the violence is what comes up alot
i rarely do anything to myself, but i have cut myself

raven the only thing that keeps me from killing muself is my daughter Patricia...
otherwise I definitively want this madness to stop

BE I dont think he trying to be more Psychotic he is just stating he is Violent.....all three of us are violent..I mean I get violent idea all the time...I laugh when people get by cars.

Sniper and BE dont cut yourselves!!! please!! and BE never kill your self

i did not mean that, i did not mean that you were fine, and i was messed up, iknow your history, at least what you posted, i didnt mean to say it was nothing, just that my problems were as bad, but went in a different direction. im sorry if it sounded like that

awwww both of you hug and make up

raven you know I do it all the time... it feel so natural for me, which is kinda of sick and scary
I dont feel alot of hatre for others...I feel hatred for me
you dont know how much I hate myself

BE when you say that I want to cry

don't do that that must b very very very sad for them the feel like they fail, it's not good 2 say that

then you just need to live for her. as long as you never forget that, you will not be able to kill yourself. who else can love her like you do?

I gotta go guys but I will be back around 9:00

KK *hugs everybody*

I know sniper




but what really piss me is that I cannot control it...
**** yesterday I saw my girlfriend in my bedroom...I almost cut my veins...
I yell for help soooo loud
I even cry...which I NEVER , NEVER CRY!!!



sometimes I wonder why god decided to punish me

bye raven

you saw her?

suicide is for quitter's tkae life and make the most out of it

both fisscil and mental cna be fixed hsopital mental hospital

some things cant be fixed

but you're right, suicide is the cowards way out, i never intended to kill myself, i only did it to feel the pain

QUITTERS??????????????????????????????





I wont even...

yes true true

sniper, you know my condition right?...well, when she died, that's when things became worst...I saw her in my bedroom, and I could almost smell her and feel her presence in the room ...
sometimes I cant take it

i understand

OMG that must b horrible!

BE, i wouldnt blame you if you took the easy way out, but it would be wrong

the thing is...
that I only see girls... pretty girls most the time...
sometimes they look normal, others they are dead (mutilaled, burnt ans sick sh*t like that)



I ask myself all the time why god is punishing me?



I know what you mean sniper

look BE if u r kiddin' it's not good to joke about this kinda stuff nd well if u r not then u gotta go to a pshyciatrist

find somthing, a symbol, somthing that gives you strength
i have a friend with problems like we have, and i have a silver ring, an old beatup, tarnished ring. but i wore it when almost everything good i can remember happened to me. i gave it to him yesterday. i told him that when he feels weak, he has the strength of us both supporting him, and my luck, and he knows that i dont give up.

frodo_dude... given you an answer will be too long



PLZ!! go to the General Discussion Forum and search for a thread called Schizophrenia (the thread was closed) and read it...it's only 3 pages long

I do not kid about this kind of things

frodo, the point behind this thread is truth, and doctors are not what we ned now

oh taht was u!! and the ppl telling u u should do schock threapy right/??
i think i even posted tehre

ok

I'm gonna go now...
I dont feel to well...
I'm gonna take a bath and try to calm myself...
see ya all

k, bye

bye!

well, anybody else wanna share stories they've heard, or experiences, or just need to spill to people who understand, feel free.

I guess no one is interested then

please dont say that god would never punish anybody!!! he tests you not punishes you please read the story about job ( said as Joeb) its in the bible and it fits how your feeling

raven I dont believe in god...
I know you're very religious and I respect that, but I dont want to give you my opinion on god because I'm afraid you might get offended , and I really dont want to hurt your feelings, or upset you in anyway...

but I do feel like god is punishing me

im mentally ill

define mentally ill

sick

Im both

i started this thread for me & blind enemy to discuss the problems we have, it wasnt a light hearted joke, if you have any real problems, feel free to discuss them.

sorry if i sound like im scolding, this just wasnt a joke

Oh sory the title sounds like a joke

if you read the early posts, you'll find out.

im really to tired too.....

s'ok

Oh o-k thats serious sorry

no prob, you didnt know, you werent dissing us, its cool

my mom was in love w/ & lived w/ a man who was schizophrenic . i understand from that point of view . i know the harshness of the illness & my heart bleeds for those who suffer from it . its easy for me to say tomorow is gonna be another day when for him it was a day to day strugle to live that day . B.E. i admire you for your courage & the will you have to live for your duaghter . you know im here for you .

too bad he's not online now

i know , but we talked this morning . we're friends

ok

Shellie I dont know what to say...
thanks darling , I really value you kind words

I'm here!!!!

speak of you and you return .

hehehehe

Shellie I think you have the power to summon me!

nice having ya back

interesting

hi snipe , how r u ?

im good

u?

im fine i guess .

how bout u be?

what do u mean ?

BE, blind enemy

oh yeah .i guess i had a brain fart .

i do that all the time

ohhhh
I'm here, I'm here!!!!!





so far I'm ok...never fine , but ok

I think I'm gonna post a pic of me in the GDF...
I know I'm ugly, but please dont tease me about it

well, i guess thats as good as i could hope for

i dobt it but ok .

youre not ugly... I AM!

im glad im not the only one who thinks that about themselves .

but I am ugly...
didnt you see my pic?

is it at the end?
cuz im working my way through them

btw, i saw your daughter's pic, she's cute

youre not ugly my friend . youre HOT . how tall r u ?

Thanks sniper



Shellie I'm 6'0''

*gasp* you could be a modal . look i cant even spell cuase your so hot . tall , dark ,georgous . i have another kmc crush .

where is the pic posted, i cant find it

sniper I think it is in 451 page or near it

go to new post , you should see officail members pics . it the last pgs .

saw it

i saw it too , maybe ill go take another peek .

haha

what? you feel wierd cuz we said you're not ugly?
i told you, im the ugly 1

Shellie said I'm hot

yea... i saw

you r . i tell you the truth . not what i think you want to hear .

PM me then Shellie...