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kofmaster
I cant take this anymore
seeing the road infront of me
my past behind in the shadows
why cant i step out and face my fears
or do i have to keep them bottled up inside
silently..

everything that i have ever wanted i have gained
yet lost with one lilttle action of hate
i know im not perfect
i know what people expect of me
how they laugh at the fact that i dont know why i feel this way
im tired
sick
i want to rest but too scared to shut my eyes
when trying to forget all that is lost
i find its right here beside me
its hauting how i cant fight it
how i just give in to what i hate
to what i yearn
to what i fear..

memories always cut the skin so deep
more then what i have done out of my own actions
blood is spilled, it stains the carpet, it bears my hands
why do i stay in the past?
i dont need it anymore...i dont want it...WHY CANT YOU JUST TAKE IT AWAY!!!!!!!????
do i fear what i hate? or do i yearn what i fear?
either way i know one thing
..there are times for tears and fears...this isnt one of them...hauting..is it not?


.......

kofmaster
i feel it slipping..
..please.....
..i dont want to bleed from my heart anymore...
..painful heart...they bleed me as i were roses to them...

...and they silt my throat with its thorns..
where are you?....my bleeding rose...


the white roses of this world are beautiful
red..
the colour of pain..
love..
passion..
will these roses never know true beauty from this colour?
my blood stains and turns the white roses red
for you i would drain myself so every rose would have as much beauty as you
they will be but a bleeding rose
i am but their creator
watch
as i show you the beauty of a bleeding rose
from my painful heart...

bleeding rose...

kofmaster
because of you...i killed myself

You'll never make me stay.. how can someone live here?
this place is so cold...so dark...it gives me such pain..
i wonder why i must suffer such pain...now because of you my fahter...
i welcome pain..i sit in the darkness of an empty room
nothing can be seen or heard but the sound of my dripping blood on the ground..
you see the relfection of the knife...my blood is dripping from the blade..
i bring ths blade close to my mouth....i tast me blood on my lips...its so sweet..
the knife comes down....down to my wrists..i want to end it all...i cut myself...
i scream out in pain as the kife slips from my grip..the wound is too deep
i stand up off the ground...sreaming...i rip my shirt and then...silence....
i look to my wrist's....and i drink my own blood...i feel so helpless...no one cares how i suffer...
this is it...look what you have done to me...
father ...its because of you....that i kill myself

kofmaster
Nightskye

I have nothing left anymore
i just dont see why i do this
but i continue to do so
a girl entered my life long ago
we sheared such love for each other
in a seccond it was all but a memorry

just another memorry to add to my colection
i broke her...broke her life..her heart..her hopes..her love for me
she broke my trust..my love..my heart..
i have no one to blame this time but myself..
i carry it
always..
sometimes i wish to speak to her..tell her the things i still hide from her and everyone.

i told her everything i could..my deepest darkest secrets, no one has ever heard.
she was my hope in life.
still i stay awake hoping she is safe..i know she is
she has a life of her own..happily married.
i stay in the dark just as i always have
alone..just like i want it, cold...dark...nothing to hurt me but myself.

to me she was my light
to her i will always be..

nightskye..

im sorry...you know who you are...and yet...you will never see this.

kofmaster
everyone is so full of FVUCKING BULL SHIT!!!
you tell me lies yet you smile to my face!!!
IM NOT YOUR BLOODY PUPPET!!! I WONT CARE AND BLEED FOR YOU AGAIN!!!!
i will leave it all behind just like everything else, i dont need you..
i dont need anyone..i never have..
its better off to be alone in silence in the grave
then to live in this FVCKED UP WORLD!!!!

running away from pain will get you nowhere..stand still ..face it...die from it...then learn in death. I know i will...

kofmaster
I am silence in the dark night
i am the hauting shiver on your cold skin
i am the crow that follows you
i am the grave of life yet death
i am everything you will come to be
i am the damed to see you happy
i am dead to you and everyone that lays eyes on me
i am known as Sky
i am known as Luke
but in time you will see

Im nobody..just like you..

kofmaster
love is a silent white, it will never be heard
beauty is a bleeding rose, it will never be seen
pain is the rage of your dream..its never enough..and it never is

kofmaster
ill stain my hands with your blood
paint it on the walls to show my guilt
my pride
my honer

blinded by sun damned never to live in it
pale from the dark of the night
eyes so blue known as sky
a soul lost in the fires of hell
controlling my every move
pull the strings tight, let me feel the strain
the pain
i dance for you, you make me crawl on my knees
pull the strings tight...tighter...and tighter..feeling it tear into my flesh
they wont break..my heart will before these strings...
i am your puppet..

i was nothing more but a game to you..
does it show?...

kofmaster
no matter what i do that voice keeps coming back to me
distracts me
it started almost a year ago
the voice faded
but now it seems like its here to stay
months since i shead blood over my own actions
again it drips from the knife
am i crazy? can anyone else hear this voice?
is it just in my head?
or is it just a memory of which that never was?
i dunno...

it wont shut up.....

kofmaster
hate me..call me werid..freak, like i don't mean anything to you, call me loser, say you don't love me, tell me i'm pathetic, your words play in my head day after day. the memory of your voice, they way i told you it was beautiful, and the way you threw it back to my face. The way I loved you since i frist talked to you. Make fun of me, laugh when i cry...when i bleed, it means nothing to you. I mean nothing to you, I ask you why do i still care, why do i still love you? you say because I'm a loser. My guess im the only one that has ever loved you this much before, after everything you have put me through without you realising it, i have never left your side. But still you don't know that I'm even there. my heart is fading, my soul i gave up already. No words spoken to each other, just silence. Nothing but a freak, a loser to you, someone that wastes his time on you. Yet i still do it...

just a freak...just me...sky...luke...

just a loser...right?...

Trickster
Dude! Your poems ****ing rule!

kofmaster
i dont know...i dont ****ing know...
acting like im everything to you
telling me how much i mean to you
I CAN'T TAKE THAT!!!!
ITS TOO MUCH PRESURE ON MY BACK!!!
JUST GO AWAY!!!!!

ill be alright by myself...
you're not me and you NEVER WILL BE!!!!
STOP ACTING LIKE ME!!! STOP STEALING MY LIFE AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM SICK OF YOU AND ALL YOUR BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im only 17 and have a nervious twitch in my eye..too much stress..
17 and cut symbols into my skin..hate to see others happy wondering when the hell that is going to be me.
i stare at people wondering what they are thinking...i know
they are thinkng about me and my family..how is it funny?..how?..HOW THE **** IS IT FUNNY TO YOU!!!!!!!!!!!???????????????

GIVE ME BACK MY PRIDE AND LIFE!!!!!! I WANT IT BACCCCCCCCCK!!!!!!!


JUST!!!

**** YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!





go away......

kofmaster
living in the dark hiding from the light of the day
yearning to see pain in the eyes of others
can you feel that?...oh shit....
seeing my refelction in the broken glass i laugh insain..un human...not human...as if something else.
a demon...a saint...a freak of nature..
punching the glass making my nuckles bleed ...eheh...haha HAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!.....my hands drop to my knees...its hurts....so good..

WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????

im gonna cry..but i wont let anyone see..blood...the colour red...it sooths my soul...you think this is really me?..is it? i dont know anymore....

what am i doing right now?..you dont want to know..

my hands are shaking...

kofmaster
you never did anything for me..
broken wings, broken heart, mind and soul
am i human? or just another freak among you all..
holding a pistol to my head people still walk by me as nothing was wrong.
this world is sick..and i am no better....



bang...im dead..

Stealth Agent
i only read the 1st one but i liked it alot

Your poems speak the truth...awsome.

If you don't mind can I post a sample of mine and see if it's as good as yours?

I got a bratty twin-brother, he bugs me everyday
This mornin' my own step-mother gave my last slice of dignity away
My dad he acts like, like he's the boss, of youuuuuuuuu
Oh it's true
I'm the saddest kid, the saddest kid to ever walk this earth

I wish I had a car
I wish I were eighteen
I wish I had a dollar for everybody who treats me mean
I'm the saddest kid, the saddest kid to ever walk this earth.

Trickster
Kof, keep writing. If I wasn't afraid of criticism, I'd post my poems.

kofmaster
you want to know why i push everyone away?..
i gave my love away to a girl that didnt want it anyway.
another beating trying to hide, another death on my shoulders..
months go by so fast..ive grown up..but still act like a kid, a scared lil kid..
a child afraid to cry..afraid to love...scared to trust anyone...
17..still scared...slowly eating me away.
a wound unhealing..yet i have no reason to feel it any longer.
is it because i want to feel this wound?..or because i know no better?
traped inside, locked behind this mask of laughs and smiles
this isnt me...

you want to know me?...so do i...
do i wear a mask?..or am i the mask?

just paint your face in shadows to hide away the fear, cry tears of a crow and never laugh again..never smile...

be dead to the world and to yourself.

the mask stays put....

kofmaster
i get called sweet..romantic..cute..how is that me?..coz i care?..yet when i get it thrown back to my face i am the loser?..to give my life to someone i love, to tell secrets and tell her everything that has meaning to me..after everything i did for you..when i frist met you ..u were no better than me..wanted to die..you asked me if i would miss you if you died.....now you are so diffrent..no better then the ones that mock me and kick me when im down because it gives you a laugh to see me cry in my pain..if you read this you will say "pfft whatever"..if i showed up on your door step it would be diffrent..i would say things to you i never have...yell at you...scarem at you...pin you up against that wall so you WILL HEAR EVERY ****ING WORD I HAVE TO SPEAK!!!! YOU WILL LISTEN!!!!!!!.....YOU WHERE JUST LIKE ME!!! WANTING TO DIE!!!!!!!....

and now you are so cold..and you think because you are beautiful you have a right to do this to me...I CANT TAKE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS BRINGING ME TO MY END!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


IM ****ING BLEEDING RIGHT NOOOOOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kofmaster
is this what it takes?!!!!..
you see im falling apart...
theres no more feeling..
the only thing that is real i have never felt
left alone in darkness when you just stood infront of me..
help..me...

COME ON!!!!!!!!!! FORSAKE ME!!!!!!! BREAK ME!!!!!!!!!...oyu keep me up all night....you dont feel the pain.....YOU DONT EVEN FEEL THE PAIN!!!!..my life is not was it was before...i must be insane...

i'll understand one day..but right now...i dont know a ****ing thing worth living for..these are words that i have never said before...and they stay unsaid.

kofmaster
I shatterd her heart, decissions to hide
i thought of you every night
but now thats over
never want to say what you mean to me
i dont know what i want to say to you
emontions inside, yet i find them hidden
you care for me you say, so much, if i left, you dont know what you would do.
this is not where i blong..
u want me to be happy..not to hurt myself for you..
its my fault but you tell me not to carry it..

i just waste away...i remember the same dream...i remember when i falled for you.

i dont want to hurt you ever again..but it tears me in two keeping things unsaid...the voices in my head dont help either.
you speak to me like a human..u call me by my name..
pain in me so deep it gets the best of me
here i stand alone, i feel these wounds..
there you stand by my side, i only ask why...

do you love me?...or is this all just to see another side of me?..

FoamyFan
Fallen
_____________________________________
Pushed away by all of my fear
Growing inside for all of these years
Memorys of what my life used to be
Flash like lightning in front of me
Confusion growing more and more
I feel sanity has been
Thrown out the door.

kofmaster
they tell me to go back to school
get a better education
think about my future
i rather die from the cuts i do to myself
my time spent there only made me more sick
u want me to go back there? why? to put me though that all again?
im not you are you so ****ING BLIND!!!!!!!
I'M GONNA DRESS AND LISTEN TO THE ****ING MUSIC THAT I WANT TO B!TCH!!!! **** YOU IF YOU DONT LIKE ME WEARING MAKE UP!!!! YOU THINK I CARE?!!!! I RATHER PAINT MY FACE IN SHADOWS THEN FORCE A FAKE SMILE!!!!!

at least its the truth...

kofmaster
freak, its what you call me
freak, because i listen to gothic rock
freak, because i play with fire
freak, because i wear dark clothing
freak, because i hang out with gothics
freak, because i am gothic myself
freak, because i wear make up
freak, because i cut myself
freak, because i am alone


well guess what

get the **** over it.

kofmaster
you can show all your emotion and secrets in the night
the music in the light
i cant control my life inside
two glances isn't enough
take another look before you judge me
love is in danger and it is gonna die
i am a victom to your smile
tell me why you treat my feelings like a toy
my hearts disapointed, i will love you forever
but this can be never
i dont want to believe in love anymore
ill keep you to remember so deep in my heart
but you're killing my love

kofmaster
"gothic freak"
you pooint me out from the rest just like u always did
always been known as a freak, now i dress like this to show it on the out side that you are right...
and you know what..i like it..dark from the inside, why not show it on the out side? im tired of hiding it in, do what you will, this time..its my time to be who i am, and not like everyone else...

kofmaster
all this pain from inside give it to me
makes me who i am
always this is haunting me
i cant get it out of my head
i cant take anymore
its brining me to my knees for safty
im more then just a mistery
i think about things all the time, past, future
who i am and what i want from life
but in the end i want one thing
death
so simple
but i cant ****ing have it...can i?...CAN I!!!???
when flashes from the past are running through my head i have no where to hide
i just get lost in my memories again, when can they rest?
feelings and emotions better hidden and kept secret

kofmaster
i say what is needed to be said, no matter who i hurt
weather its myself or a family member
better said then kept inside silent..eating you away slowly
killing your heart..mind...
ripping your flesh just so you can yell out in pain
the feeling is like nothing i know..
its thrilling...yet sick...
i give myself wounds...
sometimes words..said or unsaid...hurt more then broken flesh

kofmaster
the scars run deep in my cold dead body
deeper then i can ever cut to bleed..
u make the wounds resurface...
i have spent so many nights learning how to forget
but in thoughs nights i just remember...
it makes me wonder if i will ever see the end of this
should i try something new?
or contiue to do what i always do?
write random words on paper to see what happens
what is wrote..
are they memories? feelings? past? future? or just bullshit?..
silence can be your friend...
i used to know the sound of peace...
and now all i feel is coldness
you know you stay on my mind as do other things...
now im wondering if things will ever be the same
i cant go back to my school...it hurts too much...and

im scared of it......

..and of.....myself...

kofmaster
I'll be your sun you be mine
tell me whats going on ?
this is the time
dancing, get up I'll show you the other side
I can't believe this you and I
Light up this fire i want to see what you show me tonight
you are the nights of fire
come and take me now
show me, or do you want me to lead you?
when we are moving together I know that you are the one
I need to love you every way i can
i just cant hide away..

kofmaster
this isnt the frist time that I have felt this way
my problem is when i look into the mirror and see what i have become
i am done with this...
I'm doing everything I thought was right
but my reflection changes
glass shatters just like my heart
i used to believe a painful heart is a bleeding rose
no more will the rose bleed as dead pettels fall
i have lost all i have believed in
no more painful heart...no more bleeding rose
just me and my lonly thoughts
the pettles turn black while the blood drys..
the heart shatters and is never seen again..
and me?...
i stay behind...just like always...

kofmaster
is anybody listening? can you hear me when i yell?
i see a girl in the distance but im miles away
because im here im always wrong
wrong to write, wrong to cry, wrong to bleed
i run towards her just to touch her face
brush the pettles of a rose down her soft cheek, but i can never reach her.
i sit alone singing my song to the sky
i need somebody's help so im givng up myself
i dont want this pain to kill me alone
the girl walks down the street tonight
she gets in another fight
she cries with her mother and father
i stand outside my hand shaking as i touch the window
i want to know her pain just to let mine go
let me see if i can make her happy how she has made me
this world is crying for that i love you so much more...

kofmaster
in the mirror

i just want to make this right...
a year ago a boy saw his brother die...
bang...a laugh...a voice silent..then a cry of pain from hearing his heart shatter..
blood on his top...his tears of fear and pain dropping onto his brothers face...
lips tremberling and a soul dieing as his brother goes with it..
he stands alone born a now man...cold to the world and everyone around him...
trust no one...love never...NEVER!!!.....he cries this very moment..body cold and scard from cuts...
he wants to hear the voice of his brother just once more....not in pain..but in laughter...
he wants to be a better lil brother then he was...he wants to tell him hes sorry..

he loves him...
this boy still lives....a painfilled life that kills him more each and every day....

i know him because i see him...

in the mirror.....

drunk_nazgul
AW LUKE!
I love your poems... come talk to me...

kofmaster
in time i never thought that i would stop dreaming about you
stop being without you
but you always told me to stop thinking about you
stop caring about you
yet i found a way to stop talking about you
stop crying about you
her only goal was just to take control
and i couldnt believe it i couldnt tell her no
she says shes attached to me
worries when things go wrong
when i drop out of school
but i know her game
and shes gonna get played the same
and everyone told me to stop bleeding over you
stop cutting over you
when i told myself to stop praying about you
to stop hoping about you
my heart told me to stop beating for you
to stop hurting over you
but what did my heart say?
it said i was the man that got away

kofmaster
you picked the wrong kid..
im not the one ment for this life
feeling so helpless lost under the pain

why me out of all people?
was i bad? did i do something wrong? am i cursed?....
i cant even look into your eyes anymore

I cant feel you here...
were you disapointed in me? or did i make you proud?
i dont want to be like you..never

im diffrent...
so leave it that way...
just let my memories consume me...

...help?....

kofmaster
silent tears fall from my eyes singing violently into the night
was i a bad kid?
did i do something wrong?
WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME?!!!
FRIST MY BROTHER!!! MY PARENTS!!!!! NOW ME?!!!!!
i dont want to die....not from this...
for once im scared of myself...what is happening to me...
inside my body...
cancer...

will i die?...god?...answer me....

FOR ONCE ANSWER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Syren
Kof, there's a forum for poetry and prose now babes, would you rather this thread was in there? big grin

kofmaster
no

but thanks for the thought

kofmaster
replacing this pain with something more
a heart..something with life
walls closing in slowly finding it hard to breath
lost inside my thoughts and doubts
pretending i dont feel this pain makes it so much eaiser to fake
but im coming to the point when all i want to do is break
wish i could find a way to disapear
its plain to see that you want me to fall
come take it all
come on, you've got the go..you got me dead bang
tear me apart...bring it on, im ready
dont hold back..
will you give it to me?
theres no turning back now, open up your hate and prove it to me

darkness is the gift that has been given to me...

curse it..

kofmaster
now how do u feel when in this nightmear? will here it is, feel it and die!!!
why dont you just f*ck off and DIE!!!? why cant you just leave me here and DIE!???
I DONT NEED THIS SHIT !!!
YOU STUPID PATHETIC STUCK UP F*CKING B!TCH!!!!
HERE I COME ARE YOU READY?!!! COZ YOUR IN THIS NIGHTMEAR HERE IT COMES, YOUR IN IT DIE!!!!

drunk_nazgul
I know those as songs... good songs.

kofmaster
nails like glass
skin white as the dead
eyes so alive they make me sick inside
a fear of myself that hauts me and my soul
a yearning to know of peace
a longing to know why i do this
voices talking, in my head..or is it just me?
me and my thoughts alone together..
the thought of that scares me...
so many thoughts..so many questions..
will i ever have my answers?
or be killed by my own actions?

*sparks lighter*....will see..

kofmaster
what i ever do to you that was so bad?
get away from me
dont you know i was voted person most likely to f*ck up?
im yearning to tell you how i feel
the things i hide as you pass me by
today is the time to take a chance
not sure what i should start to say
what does everybody want form me?
take your time before im gone
because i am alone
i cant keep falling down anymore
tears all cried out
theres nothing to wipe away..

kofmaster
a silent never to be said
a secret never to be told
one crow sadness
a gathering of crows..a murder
do you know how to fight? or just to die?

kofmaster
I had writers block for the longest time..a necklace..another trinket to wear, yet another burdon to carry on my shoulders as i write. I sit here, it wraped around my neck, choking my happyness...my life in my body..silent, no more laughs..no more smiles..shhh..a whisper, a blink and my world changes. a necklace that killed my life in secconds, but gave my love and life back for writing, i wear it for punishment, to pay for my mistakes, words said needed to be taken back, actions done that need to be erased. gentle touch to the necklace..will this be my muse? or is my mask finaly broken..broken so i can be free as i once was so long ago, but traped at the same time, free to do as i please and yearn through my words and lyrics, but traped in my own soul and heart to know that these words are to be damned to hell just as i shall be for my mistakes in life.

if i am to be guilty, if i am to confess, if i am to be punished...

this necklace i wear with no shame...gives me that. a symbol it carries..but a symbol broken..a heart, but in depth lays more, a soul..freedom..joy..happiness..all broken down the center.

just as i have been for the longest time

just...

broken...

-Funky Punk-
ur really good at writin i wish i was that good!

Jury
luke... yer really serious with doz stuff!!!

wink keep dat up! gambit2

un4givnexistace
hi kofmaster, i really relate to you on all your words......i really wanna meet you, or at leaast talk to you. pleasee, if you have aim please im me at "tina blondell 37" thank you

un4givnexistace
" Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind dont matter, and those who matter dont mind." smile

kofmaster
have you ever danced with the devil in the pale moon light?
above the moon wanting to be the sun
tearing the knife down my chest i play...
burned by the fire of my memorise i let out a scream of hope
..i used to think....

bleeding rose is a painful heart, it will never be seen
love is a silent white, it will never be heard
beauty is a tear of blood, it will never be shead
pain is like the rage of your dream...
it is never enough....
im tired...its enough.... ITS F**KING ENOUGH!!!!!!...over a year...my face still carries the paint of shadows...i wake...i look in the mirror and hate what i see..i paint my face in shadows, i am born a new man..diffrent from before and from everyone else...i like it....but sicknes me i have to make up a person just to be happy...i cant just be myself when it is that i hate...cry, scream, die..and die all over again...i will be this way for a long...long time...

its the way i want to live....or die...we will find out one day

perhaps...today

kofmaster
all the popular kids, i got one thing to say F**K YOU!!!! ALL OF YOU!!! I DONT CARE IF I DONT KNOW YOU!!! YOUR ALL THE SAME!!! EVERY LAST ONE OF YOU!!!

it starts off as a joke..that i can take..then u turn it into a game for your own pleasure, frist my brother..then my father...my sister...and me...are u not happy? u distroyed me..my life...MY FAMILY!!!! U KILLED IT!!! AND ME!!!! but dont worry...ill get my revenge...i always do...

and father...your next...

*sparks lighter*..its a shame...i almost feel sorry for them...pfft..lies

kofmaster
marked a crow, now and forever, another day..another week...another death......why...WHY?..F*CKING WHY!!!!!!! MUST I CARY ANOTHER DEATH ON MY SHOULDERS!!! IM A F*CKING KID!!! I CARY TWO DEATHS AND NOW ANOTHER?!!!!!....im a kid.....let me live my life as a normal child would....im no man.....u ask y i am this way...because all my life all i have ever known is pain..beatings...death and the shadows...smile? me?...never...

drunk_nazgul
I hate it when people hurt and I can't do anything about it.

kofmaster
Originally posted by drunk_nazgul
I hate it when people hurt and I can't do anything about it.

victums arnt we all

drunk_nazgul
What's that s'posed to mean?
Do you hate me now?

kofmaster
believe what you want to

drunk_nazgul
gahhh...

kofmaster
some say time changes
i believe it stands still
im still the same...im still scared, tired, cold, alone, angry..
all the things i have seen in my life never seem to leave me alone
they are always there in the corner of my eye
stabing me in the heart just to tell me im still alive
friends come..and go..
can i make it through?
here i am again writing on a screen, people reading my words they can never understand
i dont know when ill change
i just hope..soon........

please....

kofmaster
this goes out to anyone who reads it, if i give u advise its this...

ever had something so strong over ur shoulders? that it hurts everyone around u and tears u in two to keep it hidden? u have to put on a fake smile..a mask even, of shadows so everyone believes ur ok, and then to have it bottled up..so tight..it hurts, u find someone u can trust, do u let them in or keep lieing to their face?....never let it out..if it hurts so bad u cut urself for punishment...deal with it...let no one know..because...

u let it out...u lose more then what u ever had before

im back to the begining again...



bring it on....

kofmaster
is it ok to be myself....finaly recovered the moon is bright looking up to a neon sky, a part of me takes over its been too long, since ive tryed to die...

kofmaster
here i am, sitting here in my room alone, picking this same old guitar again, wondering when its gonna start again, but i know that when u look at me, you f*cking girls just make fun of me, these scars are not what makes me mad, just the fact that i've been bad

ooooooohhh when you talk about me behind your back
they say im the kid with the anarchy scar
i don't know what i want in life
or how the f*ck i just got so far...

with ear pearcings and chains, they say i could never get a real job, but thats ok, hey, my life its a f*cked up life, im pissed off at everyone

I SAID!

they say im the kid with the anarchy scar
i dont know what i want in life
or how the f*ck i just got so far

im just the kid with the anarchy scar, (its just a f*cked up life, yeah)
what the hell do i want in life? (its so hard yeah)
just tell me...how did I get..(so far..)

kofmaster
do u know how cold death is? colder then the touch from when ur clamy hand removes itself from a gravestone to a lost loved one...can you bear it?

i cant...

untreasured
umm i have a poem..its not really good but im going to put it down

She grabs a knife and heads for the door
Wanting to kill the one she adores
Tears on her face of anger and confustion
She has to do this its the soulution
He walks in the door with that look on his face the look of depression the look of discrace
The soft steps she takes wont be her last
She swings the knife so swiftly and fast
She stands there trying to remember the plan
As he trys to grab for her hand
As he starts to breath this last breathe and
She leans down beside him and whispers
This is your death

untreasured
why are yours so good its not fair!

kofmaster
because ive been doing this for a while cherie

kofmaster
i don't know wrong from right
here i am
sitting down agian
typing the same old words again
im sick of it
its just..bad writing, i know what to do...so why dont i do it?
is it coz ive ran out of words to say?
all my feelings are out on the open on this stupid screen?
i dont know much at all.
Tonight...ill drop the kinfe for the frist time...
im on my knees, why wont u just listen?!..im sorry...but this...

isn't right..

Lydia
WOW!!! eek! they are amazing luke (haha i read all of them they were that good) you shouldn't be writing these for everyone to see some one might decide to steal them...

kofmaster
steal? steal what..its just bad writing, ever since bleeding rose its like all my life has been wasted, chasing shadows into the deepest of nights, where did i come from? from the coldness of deaths hands to the mighty heat of satan himself, all posiblities, although recent events have given me doubt.

you got one chance to get it right, dont f*ck up like i did..its the wrong answer

kofmaster
a fake scar, a fake picture is worth a hundred words, get counting...1...2....3....wouldnt u agree? 4...5....6....

you do the math...i'll still be here

kofmaster
For all the things that you have forever told me
i cant face you right now
bleed into the darkness sky and touch the kiss of passion
my lips passing over hers
a light has come over me
its the worst kind
for the last night that i die i will say this
im never going home
should i tell her everything?
could i?

ive got nothing left inside
this is the last stand and for now i cry into the pathetic life i have made
is this what i am always here for?
do i make sense to you?
if so
tell me coz i haven't a f*cking clue anymore

kofmaster
killing my love

your going to distory my love
i'll give u directions to distory my heart
you give me nothing but your lies
tell me, tell me why you treat my feelings like a toy?

baby love me, love me, love me, love is but a story, the most important thing to keep

but your killing my love
and it will distory me
but your killing my love
my hearts dissapointed
i'll love you forever, but this can be never, ill keep you here so deep in my heart
but your killing my love
and it will distory me
but your killing my love
my hearts dissapointed
i'll love you forever but this can be never, I dont wonna believe in love anymore.

tell me, tell me why you think that love is not a joy?
ill keep your face remembered so deep in my heart

your killing my love...
killing my love, killing my love, killing my love

but your just, killing my love and it will distory me
killing my love
my hearts dissapointed
i'll love you forever but this can be never, I dont wonna believe in love anymore.

baby, love me, love me, love me, love is but a story the most important thing to keep.

but your killing my love
and it will distory me
but your killing my love
my hearts dissapointed
i'll love you forever, but this can be never, ill keep you here so deep in my heart
but your killing my love
and it will distory me
but your killing my love
my hearts dissapointed
i'll love you forever but this can be never, I dont wonna believe in love anymore.

killing my love..

kofmaster
love is a danger

I dont wonna hurt you, but i need to talk
to talk about our love
i dont wonna hurt you, but i need to walk
walk away, walk far away from you

and I, you know I like to fight, to give our love another chance
a bit of romance
I'll kill my heart for you

love is a danger
it is gonna die
love is a saviour
i got to survive
love is a danger i want to live my life with you, a life forever

I dont wonna stay, but i dont wonna go
you got to help me now
tell me if u need me or baby tell me no
got to know, got to make up my own mind

and I, you know I like to fight, to give our love another chance
a bit of romance
I'll kill my heart for you

love is a danger
it is gonna die
love is a saviour
i got to survive
love is a danger i want to live my life with you, a life forever
love is a danger
it is gonna die
love is a saviour
i got to survive
love is a danger i want to live my life with you, a life forever..

love is a danger it is gonna die...
love is a saviour it got to survive...

danger...danger..danger...

I dont wonna hurt you, but i need to talk
to talk about our love
i dont wonna hurt you, but i need to walk
walk away, walk far away from you

and I, you know I like to fight, to give our love another chance
a bit of romance
I'll kill my heart for you
love is a danger
it is gonna die
love is a saviour
i got to survive
love is a danger i want to live my life with you, a life forever

danger...

kofmaster
another year gone by so fast
i feel like im wasting my life away
i know what im searching for
i dont know how long its gonna take
sometimes i feel like going down and giving up
somehow i dont
ive been in the shadows for my time and its getting cold
people say im becoming more and more heartless with every morning i wake
sometimes i feel like i should go and play with what i have become
a freak?..a fighter coming out of the darkness ? to have his frist glips of light.
im not much a poet it seems, pain poems? love poems? in the end its all just bullshit, so thats how u attact life, harshfull words and actions hurting everyone thats ever tryed to help you, ur wasting ur time, u complain about not having someone, not being able to undo what has been done, so why try..why bother, tired of wearing black, tired of wearing dark eyemake up, tired of having black hair

tired of my life of which i made it.

ill make the frist stand tonight...

kofmaster
i never saw this coming..not from you...
NOT FROM YOU OUT OF ALL F*CKING PEOPLE!!!!!!!
I CANT DEAL WITH THIS!!!!!
everytime i try to make a change
EVERY F*CKING TIME I TRY TO MAKE A DIFFRENCE IT GETS THROW BACK TO MY SHATTERED HEART!!!!
DO I MEAN NOTHING AT ALL?!!!!??
I used to think i was strong...
how wrong was i no?...
i talk about making a change, sick of this dark life
i try...i try so...SO F*CKING HARD~!!!!!!!!!
its destorying me...my heart..my life..
i mean nothing....nothing at all

and the wrost part, i dunno what i should do now..
I JUST CAN'T F*CKING LET GO!!!!!!!!!

GIRL!!!!! YOU WONT BE LAUGHING WHEN IM NOT AROUND!!!!!!!

ARRRRRRRRRRRRRHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

kofmaster
i will try to keep to myself
but how, can i try? should i even tell you what you mean to me?
i dont understand
so here i am again
afraid to tell you that i dont know you like i did
i dont know where im going in my life im not so sure
ill keep you here in my heart
why was she not looking at me?
turning away pretending im not here
all i want to do is tell her everything
hold her in my arms
a kiss of love and passion
a night to remember in the rain
was i ever enough? was i the right man? am i ur perfect love?
or was i just there for the moment.

i can't sleep at night
how do you?..

Vampy
Is it ok if I post my poem here? It's not that great, just a collection of thoughts. I would really appreciate any advice or comments you could give me on it...

Like a spider caught
In the broken wings of butterflies
Am I your sick act
Caught on film?
Or am I this scab
That never heals?
To stay or would I stay away?
They say that
If you love someone
You've got to set them free
Then what if they come
Back to us do we make
Them bleed?
To stay or would you stay away
From me...

kofmaster
ur sig, victims arent we all? ahhh so u like the crow no?

Vampy
I love the crow. It's one of my favourite movies.

kofmaster
go figure

Vampy
Anyway, what do you think of my poem? I'm looking for opinions on my writing

kofmaster
i dont judge peoples writing because how can i, what does it matter what i think when it should only matter what u think, u want tips or help go to skool or a libary, i write what i know and witness, to me it doesnt matter weather u love, hate or and displeased with my writing. its my words not theirs

just like urs are not mine

Vampy
yea, i know. i was just wondering what sort of image in portrays for others, how it is read through different eyes.

kofmaster
then find someone elses eyes mon ami

Vampy
Alright, I would have really appreciated your view on it but i suppose that won't happen. Anyway, keep up the good writing

kofmaster
this isnt a poem..i just gotta say somethings

Nightskye...me luke, its been 2 years since i met you Casey, your not here anymore, u dont talk to me on msn, i cant call you or txt you, ur married...i dunno if ur ever gonna see this or not

i grew up..strange no?..me...ur lil koffie turning 18 this friday
you made me a promise to save me from this life i lived when i turned 18..i havent heard from you, we spoke once..once in months, i forgot you. my brithday coming brought this up, i dunno if u even remember me or give me another thought, i still have every email, picture, txt u have ever sent me, i dont love you anymore..i told you everything i opend up and let you in.

i was broken up inside, i led a dark life, changed my image.

2 years and your still not here in my door way..i dont expect you to be.
i dont expect anything of you, u played me, i was foolish, i saw everything but i still brought all ur words of love.

im not happy, still hurting and i dunno how long for

i have questions i know i will never get the answers

why i write this? to be honnest i really dont know, is there a point to this? no not really, why would u people care what i write?

im writing this not so you know i still hate you Casey
just to let you know im not a kid anymore, im not koffie..im not nightskye...im not skye.

but i still am.....your muse

im sorry you died...im even more sorry you came back.
but somewhere along the line...i died too..

and i still do

your muse

Nightskye...

kofmaster
Im just lost again..
i think you know it too
through out all of this pain and confusion
i hope u can see that your the one i want
i want to be there with you through it all
through the fights, passion, love and lust
you can't tell me that this aint real
because its all ive got to hold on

lonly nights again
you've got me watching your eyes
could you ever look at me and smile?
will things ever go my way?
pretty faces but i could only see you
i dont want to change the way i am
i just want you to be here with me..

let me hold you..because right now im so cold
im lonley...i need not someone..i need you to hold me at say everythings gonna be alright..when i finaly get my chance..would you kiss me?..

i can't change the way i feel..
i want to tell you..
but first...could u look at me?...
just..


......kiss me.....

kofmaster
from the core of the bottom in my heart darkness lays still growing, silently like a plague, falling back to memories of the past once again waiting untill the sun touches my skin for the first time. when i look into my eyes theres nothing there to see..im still here but im not me...but something else..shaking in the corner of my room...feeling things i havent felt before, i know pain..i know emotion..i know love, but this...i havent felt. im pushing people away...ive cried tears of blood in my life, tears like a crow, and smiled insain, dark and wild like the shadows.

no matter what you see, no matter what you know, its so hard to be left all alone...theres nothing left behind this time, im asking why!!!??? god knows i cant go on crying!!!! it hurts to much i just need to live!!!...i gotta find another place to breath, standing still here i just cant take the words in my head...

kofmaster
I GET THE F*CKING POINT!!!!
lost and broken...
my soul is bleeding while i try to make it seem ok
a smile on the out side
scars beneath my skin
u were the one to help me heal them shut
but im open
and im bleeding
this time i need someone to help me dew them up
i didnt want this to go this way
i only wanted to spend my life with you
jump into heaven now before its too late
there it goes again
just like life
murder

so tell me what i did that was so bad
ive been walking...the rain wont let me be
so im diffrent...so im dark...so my life is painful
because of that..i guess thats what i get
i get to be alone
just me...hah..no one else...

me alone bleeding...

someone hear me?....please....

kofmaster
so you come along, i push you away
so what?
im the bad guy?
maybe i am
maybe im not
this time around im done, i dont give a f*ck whos wrong or right
nobody seems to be listing
dont try to understand me
just do the things I F*CKING SAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!!!!!!
im not like any other guy ull ever met
cant deal with that?
then dont start talking to me
u want love
i want my life back
i cant have it
then neither can you

grow up...

kofmaster
no matter how hard you cry i cant hear you
i cant come running to your side
stop ur crying
dry ur tears and start with the person infront of the mirror
i did
its your trun
i dont want this to end
i dont want to be the bad guy
i dont know why i do this'
but i do, its bad enough
i once wanted to reach up into heaven to thankgod for my perfect angel
you say no ones perfect
then i guess ur not my angel of light like i thought u were
i guess im not your dark angel either
no ones perfect? angels are

some angel i turned out to be

kofmaster
what is it..?
something isn't right
should i fight this?
accept it?
play along?


i pull away...
somethings wrong
but i dunno what..
it doesnt feel right...not now
am i not ready for this?
should i let it be?

am i just the kid crying for so much more?
whats the matter with me.
something so right...but i pull away..over and over..
"are you afriad of affection?"
am i?..

i don't understand...
just sitting here spining my ring around my finger
just..sitting...thinking...
all my dreams..hopes
just dont matter to me anymore
i was lost but i found my way

does anyone really know whats happening?
does anyone really care?
im not so diffrent from anyone else
darkness is the colour i feel inside
ashamed of it? me?
why hide apart of me..

I wont..

drunk_nazgul
*edit*

drunk_nazgul
Originally posted by kofmaster
this isnt a poem..i just gotta say somethings

Nightskye...me luke, its been 2 years since i met you Casey, your not here anymore, u dont talk to me on msn, i cant call you or txt you, ur married...i dunno if ur ever gonna see this or not

i grew up..strange no?..me...ur lil koffie turning 18 this friday
you made me a promise to save me from this life i lived when i turned 18..i havent heard from you, we spoke once..once in months, i forgot you. my brithday coming brought this up, i dunno if u even remember me or give me another thought, i still have every email, picture, txt u have ever sent me, i dont love you anymore..i told you everything i opend up and let you in.

i was broken up inside, i led a dark life, changed my image.

2 years and your still not here in my door way..i dont expect you to be.
i dont expect anything of you, u played me, i was foolish, i saw everything but i still brought all ur words of love.

im not happy, still hurting and i dunno how long for

i have questions i know i will never get the answers

why i write this? to be honnest i really dont know, is there a point to this? no not really, why would u people care what i write?

im writing this not so you know i still hate you Casey
just to let you know im not a kid anymore, im not koffie..im not nightskye...im not skye.

but i still am.....your muse

im sorry you died...im even more sorry you came back.
but somewhere along the line...i died too..

and i still do

your muse

Nightskye...

oh, look... seems as if you know how I felt about you. you ****ed me up and it came back to you. That makes me smile

kofmaster
Originally posted by drunk_nazgul
oh, look... seems as if you know how I felt about you. you ****ed me up and it came back to you. That makes me smile

you dont know shit laughing laughing

kofmaster
she smiles
she finds it funny that the sun light
shining yellow
when she leaves you
you want to follow her anywhere
dresses to tango
but you can't help but stare

shes a hot one
true love senorita

you know shes got the attitude
she'll tease you or please you
you feeling good? or burn you like i knew she would


true love senorita

kofmaster
you can show your emotions and secret side in the night
dont stop the music
not yet
dancing with the rythm
move in advance and take my hand
closer to your eyes
i cant control my life inside
two glances just isnt enough
dance with pain
dance with anger
dance with love
dont stop
dancing is free
its a saviour
its a release
a passion

if you havent danced yet what the f*ck did you come for?
could it be that you wonna be more like me?

dream on..

drunk_nazgul
Originally posted by kofmaster
you dont know shit laughing laughing

why do you always try to defend yourself when you know nobody cares?

kofmaster
Originally posted by drunk_nazgul
why do you always try to defend yourself when you know nobody cares?

why dont u do what it says is ur status and die roll eyes (sarcastic) get out of my thread savvy?

kofmaster
i hope i somehow get to you
i dunno where my soul is
did i lose it or give it away?
is this real or pretend?
in the end either way its all i got
so im gonna hold on and on...

while watching your eyes
im watching just to see you looking back at me
i dunno where my home is
i dunno where my heart is
i dunno where my family is
i dunno where my trust is
i dunno where my words come from

you cant tell me how to feel
always sitting here thinking back
back to a time when memories seem hurtful
lost? confused? angry? sad?
there are many dark things in this world
human and creatures alike

im just simply one of them

dont hold it against me..

kofmaster
anything you want from me
everything you want from me
i gave you.
dont talk to me about death
why would i want to hear it?
haven't i had it enough yet?
my world changed long ago

you think u can change it back?

you
u act like u know so much
compared to me what do u really know?
u judge me saying u know me
u know how i act?
how i think?
think again kid...i aint like any other guy u'll know

so im different...
doesnt mean its good
the difference...me...

the difference between life and death...

you have no idea..

kofmaster
im not who i make out to be
u see me
dark..
black clothing, black hair, cold eyes...
dark eyeliner painting my face in shadows..
cold skin..pale, hands always cold like the grave of ur lost loved one
ever been scared?...ever been scared every waking minute?..
i have..

what am i..two different people, one soul..
two faces
the one i show..the one everyone knows me as.
then me, no one knows..under all the make up..all the pain and darkness
theres just a teenager wanting to know what i do next.

should i get up?

or just lay down and die?..

who am i?..im nobody, just like you.

kofmaster
no matter how hard we try
people can take their shots
break our dreams and hopes in two
all our sins are simple
and in my heart i dont know light anymore

religion, trying to find their way into heaven
did i miss something? fall down the stairway?
once people are gone why do we cry?
no matter how hard we shead our tears they cant hear us
im mortal, a human teenage boy
i know pain
i know fear
i know many things

i know the past doesnt repeat itself
but i know the past makes me the man i am today
did i ever make you proud?
while u sit in the next room to me..do u know im here..?
if i droped dead would u come to my grave?
did u go to your first sons?.......no...then why mine?..

was i a good son?...did i make the right choice?
my faith is dead and cold like its never been before
should i call?
SHOULD I EVER F*CKING COUNT ON YOU!!!!???
SHOULD I GIVE UP!!!!!!??
i try so....so mother f*cking hard to understand you...

once again with my back against the wall
i dont know you like i did
in this f*cked up life im not so sure about anything anymore

but i still try to understand...ive wanted to let go for so long..

take ur empty words, all your lies and broken promises
all the time uve watched over me did u ever really look?
im doing everything i should have!!!

i knew i would f*ck up somewhere along the line..
but i will never...

never be...
just
like
you....

kofmaster
do I make you cry?...
do i bring you anger?..frustration?..pain?...and sorrow?
u said you loved me..
i said im sorry
every night I look at the sky
call a name and wonder why...
a name never heard, a name silent and unknown
even to me..
do you love me?..
fear me?..
are you scared?..is it my fault?
do you look at me as i were a human being?
or something else?..
something out of a shattered window in a dark ally..
memories stay in our lives its true
but memories can be forgotten
can i just for once be nothing more but a shattered window to you?
nothing more than a guy u walk past on the street that you wouldnt even take another look at..

did i ever make you cry?..cry from my hurtfilled words, my agression..
i get told i shut people out
no one gets in, no one gets hurt
seems logical doesnt it?...

then why doesnt it work...

you figure it out...

kofmaster
ive learnt lessons in my life
mostly the hard way
either through failure
or through blood burses and tears
kids...teenagers are so predictable today
you think high skool is so hard
ive been there...and i know how turly mean people can be
look at me..i'll admit i to can be one to kick someone down
but who doesnt
i dont hide anything, people asume i do
i just show all thats needed to be shown
from that people make up what they want
believe what they want and think they see

high skool aint so hard..so dont make it out to be
"my life is ruined"
u sure?..then make a new one, i did

i had to

xtheusedxbillyx
they are REALLY good! keep writing ur awesome

bloody_tears
you are realli awsum at writin these poems...

keep writin!!

kofmaster
My pain poems (your release?)

blood on the sheets
blood on the kinfe
i dont know darkness within my light

blood on the kinfe
blood on the sheets
are my pain poems your release?

i dunno why
i sit and cry
come on mother f*cker tell me I'm gonna die!!!

shes a girl
call me crazy but I think i love her
i dont know what to do
i cant
just hold you in my arms and cry
coz shes so far away

will i be ur release into the night?
can my words take u higher than any god?

blood on the sheets
blood on the kinfe
i dont know darkness within my light

blood on the kinfe
blood on the sheets
are my pain poems your release?

i dunno why
i sit and cry
come on mother f*cker tell me I'm gonna die!!!

hold me like you are alone
touch me i feel so cold
burning my soul and feeding...

MY HEART!!!!!!

kofmaster
before i cry..

love me like the kiss of the surpent sun
i am the warth of dark
and nightmears in the waking eye
let me paint you this picture
scard and alone
burning my heart killing my blood

are u scared of the dark?
when all fears came alive and consumed me
take me to heaven for the first time tonight
do i belong there?
will u let me in?
the blood on my hands is the honer
not the shame

wont let go
blazing in my eyes
i stand still in time
come on and show me
my love


gods will kneel before i cry..

kofmaster
im time
i hope i can show u how to die
just like i did
darkness or light?
doesnt matter
in each there must be the other
we all wear masks
hide behind doors

cover my bed grave with rose pettles
lets ur blood drain its self from ur wrist
let it leek into my tomb
bleed into me, its makes me feel real
i will raise from the dead once again
even if ur love will be the death of me

summer kills off winter with a passion
darkness reborned me the very same
angles with sorrow, they witness me from heavens door
flowers blooming with poision
a simple kiss could kill them off
brushing the pettles over my lips slowly
droping it as they turn to black

pettles of black so dark and misunderstood
hiding behined a rose door to be safe
one look could change the way we see the world

u may stop to smell the roses..
i stop to slit my throat with its throns..

bleed me as i were nothing more than a rose to you

kofmaster
people have feelings..or did u forget that?
so im human and because of that im the bad guy?
its happend before
but this time it f*cking hurts
i admit that I loved you, my heat was yours
to prove me wrong u did this
i was killing my lonieliness with you
i would kiss her good night..but she doesnt seem to like that anymore.
i wanted to be chained with you together...
disapear in the light forever..forget that
watch me fade away into the darkness of loneiliness again...

kofmaster
let me lead u in the dark
home to me where i grew up
let me show u this painful shatterd soul
paint a picture from my drained lungs
no more breath within me
ill be the frozen heart to hurt you
ill be the nightmear to make u cry..
let me weep you this poem as heavens gates close
scard and alone...
waiting for your kiss to take me back home

one i've never known...

kofmaster
your true side of love took away all that matters
wots left of the remains?
killing me slowing in a unmarked grave
made to cry together
sheading tears of blood as we cry
two hearts, disapear in the power of death at once
in the warmth from your arms around me i feel safe
when will i feel that again?
just for you to hold me i would die
kill my pain coz i cant hold it anymore
what am i to you?
was i the light in ur darkness?
or the darkness in ur light?..
i hope she crys tonight..just like i have
like a raven in the night with posion tears burning my cheek.
fears that haunt me in ur smile..
so beautiful but hurtfull now..
ill learn how to die soon enough

Captain REX
I'm debating if I should move this to Poetry or keep it here...

Keep up the good work, Kof!

kofmaster
a final kiss yet its the frist
could i kill this pain off with you?
i dont want to feel the way that i do
just to feel as though there was soemthing i missed
tears of a life falling into dark light
i may come off cold..heartless
but even the most darkest of things cry..
kissing ur lips as they slip away like torne pettles..
dance with me in the winter night
and tell me ...tell me am i still so cold?..

bloody_tears
Originally posted by kofmaster
My pain poems (your release?)

that is such a awsum poem
i luv it

how did u get so good at writin poems??

kofmaster
Originally posted by bloody_tears
Originally posted by kofmaster
My pain poems (your release?)

that is such a awsum poem
i luv it

how did u get so good at writin poems??

i dont know i just write

bloody_tears
well ur realli awsum at it

how long u been writin for???

kofmaster
um....im not sure, bout just over 2 years?

bloody_tears
ok kewlz

i wish i culd write like you
i write poems n stuff
my friends think they are really deep and stuff
n dey think they are really good

but i dont kno if i suld put them in here

so yer

kofmaster
did nobody tell you, that you make my heart feel full with your eyes so deep like pools a raindrops, just give it time, your heart will be with mine, and now taht we are here, we're taking our time, who knows where we will be from 100 years form now, we could be out of here, did nobody tell you that in every single line of my lyrics u can be my courage and love, lust with passion.

did nobody tell you?

did I even?...

kofmaster
another corps, just lay it down in front of me
in this world death is too much for me to take again
sometimes i still cry out like a kid
my only brother died
still my sister crys
is that a crime?
some things in this world seem simple
others, dark and evil
i would give anything to go back and set things right
i would fight
bleed..do anything...i just want to make this right
anything to realise my dreams
make them come true
maybe...just once

kofmaster
dont change
woteva you do..you might turn around and hurt someone
just like you
if you stay..ill stay with you
we could turn this round with all we've been through
start thinking it over
its just another ordanary day
dont change wot you cant undo..

i've reached my limits..its time u found urs...

kofmaster
its just anohter game
show me ur hand its time to play your cards
colder then the queen of hearts
these spades will burn in fury
time pases as the cards set alight
im sitting here with the desire to

burn these ace of spades
you should just let them burn
watch them fade into darkness
with my soul
ace of spades

cut all your bullshit
just keep on moving
i will always repersent my rolay flush
u think u got what it takes ?
show me ur hand
this dearler seurves a killer play

girl in time...
you will see..
this dearler wins, its not your game mon ami

burn these ace of spades
you should just let them burn
watch them fade into darkness
with my soul
ace of spades

this time around, im the gambit
the monster, feeling reblisouse
take me on, no way u can beat me
ill slap u around like you were my mon cherie

no matter how many dearlers in this game
theres only one like me.

burn these ace of spades mother f*cker...

kofmaster
someones laughing, they must have cought a glimps of you
passing notes in the hallway, did you think i wouldnt notice
that it was about me and and how werid i am
i could be just like you
the same old person but in your shoes

if you could be just half the person i am
my life would be complete
the same old person but in my shoes
you may take another look
next time

its suicidal, you gotta know we're out there
and no one seems to really care
you pass me off like another friend
but nothing speical
i could leave this loaded gun in my hand
but you say no, no, no...

if you could be just half the person i am
my life would be complete
the same old person but in my shoes
you may take another look
next time, yeah, just the next time around

ill be looking diffrent already
come stand next to me
now wont you tell me
wots on your mind..
i wish, i wish..i wish

just take another look at me
next time around
yeah..yeah.....

jack_off_jill
My god. How could you? You took more than half of that poem from 'Driver's Side' by Zed. That's just terrible. And it's not even a good poem...

kofmaster
Originally posted by jack_off_jill
My god. How could you? You took more than half of that poem from 'Driver's Side' by Zed. That's just terrible. And it's not even a good poem...

roll eyes (sarcastic) well dont u feel stupid, its called a tribute, ever heard of them before? theres only so many words u can use with out them being used before, ive done it with plenty other songs, u know its things fans do if the lyrics mean something to them roll eyes (sarcastic) think about it before u go nuts, if ur so affended, tell the band messed other wise get out of my thread

jack_off_jill
If you're going to do a tribute you have to state it otherwise it's called playgerism...which is illegal. Mind you, you sound like you're smart with your amazing spelling ability...so I'm sure you already knew that

kofmaster
Originally posted by jack_off_jill
If you're going to do a tribute you have to state it otherwise it's called playgerism...which is illegal. Mind you, you sound like you're smart so you must now that...

roll eyes (sarcastic) oh yeah and im totally writing this shit on kmc for cash, sooo illegal

u may as well say whenever i use the line "im bout to break" im playgerismin it from linkin park roll eyes (sarcastic) its words on a screen, nothing more nothing less as i have always said. so dont cry over spilt milk

kofmaster
her heart is weeping, the happiness is not killin off the pain
just lay here in my arms
things will change just give it time
hold me tight and take my breath away
she trys so hard, but her hearts turns to stone
stop crying
eyes so full of feelings shouldnt weep
tears of blood are worth more than purls
its my turn to show up on stage
pull the curtain up and witness me standing there
strings under the skin of my flesh
a evil grin
a look of pain and death
but a smile non the less
girl, pull my strings
ur my DJ make me dance to your beat

my blood wont be wasted on this DJ..her musics like none other
let me be ur puppet
i wonna dance with you...even if it rips my strings out
...let me kiss you..cut these strings and make me real.
i want to feel free.

kofmaster
everything i did
was for you
so why is it that you cant see
how much u mean to me..
should i have known from the start?
the longer i wait
the hader it gets
missing you every day
sleepless without you every night..

i wish i could touch you...so bad...baby..
my heart is ur puppet..and u make it sink
dont let it fall too soon
just keep it alive with your touch..
there are prices to pay
in passion
in love
in lust
in blood
in pain
ive payed my dues
come on..
alright..
wishing i could thank you in a diffrent kind of way
but this time around
im taking no more shit
its your turn to pay ur debts!

kofmaster
im still standing here waiting for you
im dead when ur not around
i need to hold onto truth
i just cant fade away
im sick of waiting
im not gonna be just like every other puppet
ive got no place to go
ive got no home to rest at
I MADE IT ON MY OWN!!!!!
I WONT LET YOU CONTROL ME OR MY LIFE!!!
YOU THINK U KNOW IT ALL?!!!
I'VE WAITED TOO LONG AND TOO HARD TO LET MY LIFE SLIP AGIAN BECAUSE OF YOU!!!!!
2 years...2 F*CKING YEARS TO GET WHERE I AM!!!!
2 years of events,,,2 years of scars and wounds...2 years not enough...2 years far too much..2 yars of pain, tourture, blood, love and lust..

and because of this im the crazy one?
I GAVE EVERYTHING I HAD LEFT IN ME TO GET WHERE I AM!!!!
U WILL F*CKING REMEMBER ME!!!!

kofmaster
i came from the dark im bringing my pain with me
nothing u can say can change who the f*ck i am
my souls the badest
lost in the struggle, its hard
im only myself
i dont ask for much
f*ck if that, not even a hug
i make it on my own, i dont need anyone within these walls
get the F*CK OUT!! THIS IS MY WORLD YOU MOTHER F*CKERS!!!
YOU THINK U KNOW ALL THIS SHIT AND HOW DARK DARKNESS REALLY IS!!??
WHO THE F*CK U KIDDING KID!!?? F*CK UR MUMMY AND DADDY WAS ALWAYS THERE!! THEY STILL ARE
ill be here...when ur ready
ill f*cking bleed ur troubles away...
c*nts...

kofmaster
death is only the begining
lets go..
im coming back, i dont know how, i dont care how
im boming back..
the passion, revenge...eternity
my bodys been bleeding for years
lets see if a soul can truly
and honestly
shead a tear of blood from its crow eyes

kofmaster
when sorrows come they come not single spites but in battalions, ive allies in heaven, ive comaders in hell, should i pull the trigger now? or have u one final wish ? no? bang, ur dead.

everyones finished

kofmaster
cause you know i dont belong living in ur preciose memories
i dont want to let go
i dont want to shut my eyes
i dont know..
people pass me, i want to go home...
fighting through the croud to find peace..
if i were to fall
would u pass me by?
step on me...
if i were to go all that way for you again
just to see you...hold you..like i once did
would you let me? would you remember me?..
days go by and sleepless nights still i dream of you
i hate you
but its you that showed me everything
whispers from lips..feeling at my worse, they make me feel no pain.
i think of days where i can live my life without you
but one way or another ur always around..
do u stil have me in ur life? somehow?
my necklace?..my photos?..my words of love?
i still have yours..
and i don't know f*cking why...
green eyes deeper then any garden of beauty u could ever see.
i still see them..even when i awake..
i think this angles about bleed its last dark feather..
sky eyes turning over to grey light..
my voice...long gone

kofmaster
she was my life
she made it feel like heaven was here on earth
my heart is weeping, tears of blood never to be catched
when she kisses me she kills herself a kiss at a time
have u ever felt a kiss of stone..of darkness..
i never thought i would be so alone
my kiss killed her while right in my arms
i wont let her go...
i can hear her breathing..still..

kofmaster
nothing but words, words can be so deep so can actions, but to show someone how much u really care its wot u do with these words and actions..me?..im just nobody...just words on a screen..
so im nothing...just like my words..u can love them, hate them, feel for them even maybe understand them.
but think again about me..
these are my words..my life..do wot u want with the knowledge, just dont try to understand me...
ive seen things change in my life, me inperticular, watchin my refletion in the mirror changing into something ive become, maybe another person, someone i created? another side of me? cant replace the screaming face, wishing sometimes how to die, others how to live, love, life, and hope, seeing it in u sometimes helps me understand wot its like, to be the real me

i'm more then just this skye i've created..i do have a heart..hurting so bad...

kofmaster
i said lay down and die
or ill make you
love is red like blood
bleeding on the floor making love to the one u would die for
i keep everything u ever said to me locked deep in memories
ull never make me change
give me a reason to believe why i am the person ive become
making me ill with every sickning breath
taking a pistol to my head
its shaking in my hands
you wonna know the diffrence between you and me
i did pull the trigger...

kofmaster
this isnt a pome, this isnt lyrics, this time, im just writing.
have u ever been so scared to open a door, to leave ur house because u know someone out there wants you dead, killed, murdered. have u ever been more scared when u found out that person was you, and u didnt even know it. threatning notes left on ur front door for you, by you, and u dont remeber a thing, to you, its as though its another person. That is exactually, what i mean. two person, two personalities inside you, one u know, the other unkown to you untill its too late and you wonder why, why all this has happend.

everyone has two sides to each other. I just found mine in a note of blood, my name is Luke.

I wont be this skye person in my head anylonger.

my pain poems, lyrics, words of love, pain and life, have finaly finshesd

this was my life, enjoy it? touched by it? it doesnt matter. Im closing the cover tonight.

cye skye....

drunk_nazgul
^ I liked it. Whatever it was.

River Wild
Actually they're all good! Youre very talented, thanks for sharing!

phonefactory
wow.. But seems like once you were hurt, and now you bring it in your entire life., But its okei, so you can totally release the hurt inside you. with the help of your poems.

darkangel6969
hi my name is alex i luv wat uve writen im the same i want 2 die just like u but uve probably hear all that before....and so hav i........i hope u dont mide but im going 2 put 1 of my poems up here and i hope that ppl who come here 2 read ur poem read 1 of mine 2......

Today is the day the world ends. many ppl in this world ready 4 death. knowing their fate, they are prepared. the days that hav been wasted they regret. pain is the hour of the day. waiting is just a wast of time 4 them. getting old and gray.....living is a wast of death and death is a wast of living.......they stand 2gether as they c the dark hand of death approch. in the end it is dark.....

kofmaster
Originally posted by darkangel6969
hi my name is alex i luv wat uve writen im the same i want 2 die just like u but uve probably hear all that before....and so hav i........i hope u dont mide but im going 2 put 1 of my poems up here and i hope that ppl who come here 2 read ur poem read 1 of mine 2......

Today is the day the world ends. many ppl in this world ready 4 death. knowing their fate, they are prepared. the days that hav been wasted they regret. pain is the hour of the day. waiting is just a wast of time 4 them. getting old and gray.....living is a wast of death and death is a wast of living.......they stand 2gether as they c the dark hand of death approch. in the end it is dark.....

for one, what makes you think i want to die, my words are dark yes, so, learn from them read them do what u will with them. life is a gift, even if dark, i entend to learn in it.

i dont write anymore.

kofmaster
i said i dont write anymore..i dont, somehow, i cant, not like i used to, i guess u could say its a good thing, i dunno why im doing this, but i miss it, the pain in the words, i cant bring that back in my writing. and i hate it..was it the lies that made me hate myself, but give me the gift to write like i once did. typing to no one but myself. if i close my eyes for one last time will i lose it forever?, was it the lack of sleep that caused my bloodshot eyes? what was it that hit me and made me want to write here everynight, was it the people i knew, was it something that happend that day? if so, why cant i do it anymore....i want that darkness back....come back.....

grip me close in the winter sound
take a walk with me down the dark allyway and find my sinfuly pleasures thumping like my rotting heart
call the reaper my time is coming
there is no desterney
take a ride on the wings of the night in darkness delight
im a posind lie
ive seen what ive become and what i was
sleepless nights without that darkness
come back...come back...
i was ment for this, i was put here for that reason, give it back, come back, i miss you....you took it away when i didnt want it...now i live to taste it again...please.....

make me that dark hearted person again....

kofmaster
throns around my wrists again
i found it
"ive found you finaly" says the cold voice of a fimular face
hes back
he chose me!!! IM FOR THIS!!!
a rivers beauty in your eyes drowning your cold cheeks
turn my back to you in the cold
i would never let you cry for me
but you do
sorrow for me, or falling for me
someone rasised in black can't love
a selfsh person am i?
WHAT ABOUT YOU!!! ALL YOU SAY IS FOR ME TO BE HAPPY!!! AND WHAT DO I WANT>!!!! LOOK AT ME!!!! the throns have found their way back to me, do you remember, they slit my throat with its throns and drained me on the white roses to taint them red.

the bleeding rose is back from its creators painful heart.
it cant die, soemthing thats sinful and cold will always be
if i go others will carry on. MY ROSE WILL BE SET AND CONTINUE TO BLEED!!!!

carry it through my veins, wrap around me tighter and bloom up my arm, hold me down to the ground with your roots like you once did, poisn me with your beauty, taste the rarety of its blood as the pettles fall over my lips, breathing heavily in touture and relife.

tighen the thorns around my body, be my straight jacket and never let me feel anything else. the hauntingness alone without you i cant bear. never bleed ur last drop, always be on my arm.

my painful heart once again calls upon the bleeding rose from within.

my creation.............its been far too long.....

Aureck Pon
if its ok heres my latest
as depression sets
i try not to stay
afraid of myself
trying to run away
from the pain
every single day
why must I hide
from my own damn life
why cant it be
just a little bright
i want to see daylight
but its like
my whole entire life
is just always night
its always filled with fright
and i always fear
that more depression is near
and now i think its here
i try to make it better
but it only gets worse
this is just the first
of the pain it will bring me
why's that nothing for me can be happy
now everything seems so crappy
why does it always get the best of me
why is everything so depressing

did you guys like it?

kofmaster
i carry these fears on my shoulders
you could never be so thoughtless
and the tears run from you
let me lay you to sleep in my heartfiled coffen
do you know how to feel?
girl you make me feel so heartless
feel the breath upon your cheek
cold as the darkest stone in the palm of my hand
sunlight can not touch me
open the coffen from my heart slowly
..be gentle....
dont shudder in my cold
so my arms lay around you as you wish as jelosy plays its part inside your heart
a touch form my lips to your ear in whisper
let me raise you in the blackest of nights..

kofmaster
i dont break hearts i dont' feel
you break yours urself
dont blame me
not a word just utter silence
you have no idea
a confusing person or so i seem
play a huge part in your life
"hearts take time to heal" you tell me this
really? let me know the next time i break yours
coz i certainly didnt this time around
so im the only guy whos touched you on some level
if you dont touch it, you sure as hell cant break it
so dont blame me.
dont blame me

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