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I decided that I'd start writing poetry again. But first! some of my old poems.

I try to stop them
I really do
In this case
They don't
Because these tears are for you

I don't want to cry
Not for you
I don't want to love you
But I still do
And that's why these tears fall

I want to try
To become more brave
I don't want to cry
I hope to save
Myself from drowning in my own tears

I cry you a river
And maybe more
Yet it's still no different
No different from before

I don't want to cry
Not for you
I don't want to love you
But I still do

I try to stop them
I really do
In this case
I can't
Because these tears are for you

Confession of Confused Soul



I can't love
I can't see the light
I've forgotten
I've forgotten...

I can't see you
I can't feel you
I've forgotten the light of the sun
I've forgotten the sound of songs

Your caress, is it your caress?
Your kiss, do I feel your lips?
I've forgotten
I've forgotten how your kisses felt...

I don't know what to say
I don't understand what to do
I don't know
I don't understand
I don't understand anything...

I'm trapped here
I feel trapped in this world
I'm trapped in gray, sad world
I'm trapped in myself

What can I do?
What can I see?
What can I believe?
Will I ever...

Each day passes with a new light on the world,
Changing this childish little girl,
Into the women I've become,
My hearts been broken,
By someone who only saw me as something to see,
But I am stronger,
I will live each day as my own,
Not some one else,
Mine,
One day I will share it,
But not now,
The light of each day changes,
It changes people,
It changes friends,
But above all each new bring new life,
And new hope

Signed,
Ashley

I didn't try to love you, but the feeling was so strong.

I try to forget you but I can't carry on.

You hold me close like I was your own, but I know I'm not alone.

I know there is no room for me in your heart, but I'll continue to be with you just like I was from the start.

I know I can't break the bond, but I know I have the strength to try to carry on.

I know I love you, and you have no room for me, but I will still love you no matter what happens to me.

This one still make me cry

Would You

No matter how hard I try
To be happy for you
I still cry myself to sleep every night
And I wonder why
You choose her over me
And yet you seem happy
Would you even care
If I died here, tonight
Would you even cry
If I were to die
Right here, tonight
In front of your eyes
Would you at least burry me
Or not even bother
Would you care
And see your mistake
Would you cry
And dump her
Would you burry me
By the my favorite blossom tree
If I were to die
Would you.....

Will you ever?

I don't think you will
ever fully understand
how you've touched my life
and made me who I am.

I don't think you could ever know
just how truly special you are
that even on the darkest nights
you are my brightest star.

I don't think you will ever fully comprehend
how you've made my dreams come true
or how you've opened my heart
to love and the wonders it can do.

You've allowed me to experience
something very hard to find
unconditional love that exists
in my body, soul, and mind.

I don't think you could ever feel
all the love I have to give
and I'm sure you'll never realize
you've been my will to live.

You are an amazing person
and without you I don't know where id be.
Having you in my life
completes and fulfills every part of me.

As I Turn Away....

As I stand here

Your eyes tear

Wishing me to hear

Word so sincere

But I turn away

While you cry in dismay

Gods, I wish to stay

But the dreams will have their way

You scream words of love

But this is not what I wish to speak of

For I am mourning dove

Not someone I am proud of

Taking one last look at your face

And I leave without a trace

Yearning to fell your warm embrace

Knowing that I will soon be replaced.

A Cry For Help
I cannot find peace here,
I need to be free,
I want to go back,
But there's no chance to flee.

I wish I could love him,
But there isn't a chance,
There isn't a way,
We'd have a happy romance.

My friends live their lives,
I try to live my own,
But every time I get lost,
It just chills me to the bone.

Please help me,
I really need to find,
Something in my life,
I can call mine.

I am insecure.
I've spent my life being battered by others,
taking their criticisms and pretending it doesn't hurt.
They think it's fun,
that I'm just their punchbag,
just there to be abused and mistreated.
Outside I show no pain,
just a smile and I let them get on with it.
It's easier that way.
My confidence is bruised and my self-worth is nothing.
Sometimes I feel like nothing,
non-existant,
a not-human.
This is an existance, not a life.
Each night I pray I die in my sleep.
Each morning I hope they kill me today.

A person with no heart or soul

the walls i built around myself are crumbling
the barriers that block my heart are breaking down
ive given up hope
ive given up on happiness
because i have never felt their presences
with no protection around me now
their hurtful words tear me down
im nothing but pieces now
being blown away in the wind
the wind i used to feel on my face
that would make me feel free
but now it scatters the pieces of my broken heart and soul
i will never be a whole person again
just a person with no heart or soul
an outline of the person i used to be
they see what they have done to me
i expected tears of guilt to stream down there face
but instead i hear laughter
laughter at my weakness

Another one of my favs


A Picture
I'm gonna draw a picture,
a picture with a twist

Instead I'll use a razor blade,
and draw it on my wrist

And as i draw this picture,
a flowing fountain will appear

And as this fountain flows,
My troubles will disappear

You Changed My World
At times the days seemed so long,
i thought I'd never make it through.
then suddenly out of a dream i met someone like you.
I had locked up all my feelings, and I'd thrown away the key...until your heart spoke a thousand words, I knew were meant to be.
When times turned rough and lonely, and despair fell upon my face, you comforted me and kept me safe in that loving special place.

You don't realize what you have and what you've done for me, but the way you've managed to steal my heart is what has set me free.
You've given me a feeling that no one else could ever change.
Your love has touched a place in me I've always found so strange.
Its as if you were cut right out of a spell cast upon my heart, because the crazy thing about it is,
I've loved you from the start.

No one in this whole wide world could touch the feelings that we share, to the seconds that I spend with you, nothing can compare...
You've opened my eyes and touched my heart just enough to let me live. You've changed my world with magic and the kindness that you give. My heart was broken, and i thought love was so far away, but you came into my life and showed me it would be okay...

Like crystal clear blue waters or a magical sunset, that moment speaks a thousand words to which no price can be met. I wish i could just stop time and spend the whole night in your eyes, for when I'm with you there's a feeling even i cannot describe... Although my heart holds painful memories that will never be erased, you touch me with a love so strong it hides that lonely place...

Heartbreak, loss, and misery were all i ever knew, until someone showed me happiness and that someone was you. Your gentle words and loving arms lift me up when i am down, and Baby, with all you've done for me, you've turned my world around. Your love is so consistent like the waves that break on shore, and with every day my love for you still grows, more and more.

When broken dreams still fill my days and nothings going right,
you reassure me with your smile and give ma back my sight. You sweep a spell across my heart, like a breeze across the sea, and you fill my world with beautiful dreams and feelings meant to be. The way you live, the way you love, and even so much more, with every smile that you give, you're all i could ask for...

You are in every breath i take and in every tear i cry, you're in every star i wish upon up in my lonely sky. Every day with you is heaven, like an angel from above, a million magic moments sent, to give you all my love. You are living proof that prayers and dreams really do come true, and i thank GOD for that special day he blessed my heart with you.

I could speak of a thousand promises or even bet my very soul, the rest of my life I'll be touched with a feeling no one can control... Fate, destiny, or magic may be the reason that we met, but all i know is the days with you i never will forget.
Until the day i found you i never knew a love so true,
but from today until eternity,
I swear I'll be loving you!

My absolute favorite (and darkest) one.

No Longer Pure..

Against the darkest background,
Fiery red eyes lit the night.
Her body starts to tremble,
Overtaken by her fright.

A scratching noise so loud,
Scrapes at the paving stone.
Whispered words of hatred,
Reminds her she is all alone.

Clench her eyes tightly shut,
She gasps desperately for air.
And slowly as her eyes open,
She screams at the nightmare.

Blood red eyes stare at her,
Skin peeling off each second.
Boney fingers long and black,
To him they did beckon.

The clean air she once breathed,
Had turned so poisoned cold.
Eyelids fighting to stay awake,
To the devil her soul was sold.

And with his black red mouth,
He placed it to her lips.
Sucking out her pure soul,
Placing a nightmare kiss.

Black bone fingers sliding down,
Tracing her every curve.
She had become his evening meal,
To him she had been served.

Hands flitting across her thighs,
Then scraping across her ribs.
And as he ripped away the skin,
Blood drew from blood pen nibs.

In the dark of the evening night,
He left her on the floor.
Telling the cold dead body,
What she had had been so pure..

WOW! OMG!! DAMN!!

You are really good SS. I'm glad that you started writing again. Why did you stop in the first place? lol

So did you miss me? I missed you... lots.

Yeah I missed you.

I stopped because I got busy.

Busy? As in life?

Work

Oh. I cant stop writing. I even write in my dreams sometimes.

For my sister,

You Meant So Much


You meant so much to all of us
You were special and that's no lie
You brightened up the darkest day
And the cloudiest sky

Your smile alone warmed hearts
Your laugh was like music to hear
I would give absolutely anything
To have you well and standing near

Not a second passes
When you're not on our minds
Your love we will never forget
The hurt will ease in time

Many tears I have seen and cried
They have all poured out like rain
I know that you are happy now
And no longer in any pain.

see I told you it would be good!!

thanks

Life Is A Prison


Life is a prison,
Oh God let me out.
No one to listen,
To hear when you shout.

Climb the walls of insanity,
Ride the waves of despair.
If you fall it don't matter,
There's no one to care.

Used to wish for a window,
To see birds, trees and sky,
But you're better without one -
Stops you aiming too high.

Watching freedom is painful,
For those locked away.
Seeing joy, love and happiness,
Another price that you pay.

Strong is good, weak is bad.
Be it false, be it true.
Your mind makes the choice,
And enforces it too.

Cell walls built by society,
With rules to adhere.
If you breach the acceptable,
You had better beware.

Hide the pain, carry on,
Routine is the key.
Don't let on that you're not,
What you're pretending to be.

Lock it all up inside you,
How badly that bodes.
Look out for that one day,
When it all just explodes.

Leaving naught but a shell,
Base functionality too.
But killing all else,
That was uniquely you.

So how do you grow,
With a timebomb inside?
Or how to defuse it,
Without destroying its ride?

You can't.

omg you have brought Mar-i-oOo =)` to tears.

Things will get better sweetie. Trust me (even if it's hard).

I know

Things always get better

i'm sorry....i never knew that beneath all that hotness was an actual living breathing and feeling person deeply emotional....

i'm guilty of not looking past the veneer....truly awesome words you have

He Calls To Me


He calls to me across the miles
Night winds carry his whispers
They float on the breeze and through my windows
Falling gently upon my ears
- Hush -
I hear him now.

He calls to me from the heavens
Glittering stars cannot compare to the sparkle of his eyes
When he looks at me, I am consumed by the fire
I see him now.

He calls to me through my dreams
Dancing together in the shadows of my sleep
Where we laugh and love once again
I am in his arms
I feel him now.

He calls to me
Every moment of every day
Distance couldn't keep us apart
When destiny drew us together
I'll hold him for eternity
As long as he keeps calling.

Originally posted by SimpleSeduction
He Calls To Me


He calls to me across the miles
Night winds carry his whispers
They float on the breeze and through my windows
Falling gently upon my ears
- Hush -
I hear him now.

He calls to me from the heavens
Glittering stars cannot compare to the sparkle of his eyes
When he looks at me, I am consumed by the fire
I see him now.

He calls to me through my dreams
Dancing together in the shadows of my sleep
Where we laugh and love once again
I am in his arms
I feel him now.

He calls to me
Every moment of every day
Distance couldn't keep us apart
When destiny drew us together
I'll hold him for eternity
As long as he keeps calling.
wow this is beautiful. truly beautiful.

Thanks,
It's my first love poem I've written in quite a while

Your muse is quite the lucky one

cry It's so good to see you back Ash, to read your work again... I missed you hug

I missed you too hug

btw LOVE your sig and avvy

What Do They Know


I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song.
I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track.
I saw him just today and his smile is still the same.
He looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.
I wonder if he remembers me, It hasn't been that long.
He may have forgotten me, but I still sing his song.

Originally posted by SimpleSeduction
What Do They Know


I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song.
I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track.
I saw him just today and his smile is still the same.
He looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.
I wonder if he remembers me, It hasn't been that long.
He may have forgotten me, but I still sing his song. cry that was beautiful...

Originally posted by SimpleSeduction
What Do They Know


I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song.
I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track.
I saw him just today and his smile is still the same.
He looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.
I wonder if he remembers me, It hasn't been that long.
He may have forgotten me, but I still sing his song.
sweetie I will give you happy memories to write about

YO PROMISA!!

Thanks

Originally posted by SimpleSeduction
What Do They Know


I face the world with a smile, no one knows what is hid inside.
They see only happiness, they cant see the tears I've cried.
When I am alone I hurt, because here I do it well.
In front of all the watchful eyes my heaven turns to hell.
The judge and jury awaits me, everyone has a say.
In a life that hangs suspended for yet another day.
Who are they to judge if what I have done is right or wrong?
In the end I gave him up, but inside still sing his song.
I don't know how to find the strength I thought I had.
If only I could play tough it wouldn't be so bad.
They say that life goes on and someday I'll smile again.
But, how do they know my pain without being where I've been?
I've traveled so far from home, and can't find my way back.
Somewhere along the way I must have jumped the track.
I saw him just today and his smile is still the same.
He looked at me so sweetly, but never spoke my name.
I wonder if he remembers me, It hasn't been that long.
He may have forgotten me, but I still sing his song.

That's gorgeous Ash

ilike thesepoems...But i really dontlike the person who wrote them

Yea I dislike her, but it's her fault.

They are good...very sad and full of pain....screaming to be understood! I liked them...you should write more from the place you are at in this stage of your life...can see you growing as you read through the stages.....i love writting too! have lots not posted...might think about it...one day...#smileszzzzzzz*

those are really good

Thanks everyone! I haven't really written anything in a looong time. I'll have to get back on it!

I guess it doesn't really matter since you haven't posted anything on here in over 3 years.

But I just find it a little odd...I saw a poem in Poetry Personified titled "No Longer Pure"

Gorgeous poem.

Then I got on your poetry thread, BEAUTIFUL poetry.

Funny thing though...I'm almost positive I've seen several of these on a poetry message board by several different people...So either you took their work...or they took yours

PS...Kind of weird you had my Screenname. I didn't know we could change our usernames

Wow... amazing...

Very good stuff here

Nice stuff!