personal philosophy bubble burst

I couldnt give any less poo about what anyone else thinks about me. I look at myself as a passive observer of the world. I thought that as long as I was happy with myself thats all that matters. Im not gonna lie. I think im awesome. Other people dont, but the beuty lies in not caring about other people.
I went out for a smoke before going to bed, but in passing I told myself out of nowhere that it seems like purposeful self deceit so I can save myself the pain of looking at my actual self. I went to bed but this thought stuck with me. While the latter part doesnt bother at all the part about self deceit does.
Of the few people I can have arguments about this sort of thing, each of them will tell you that im outspoken against religion of any kind because its a comfort blanket for the masses. Its self deceit to make life seem like it has meaning or purpose. My view of life can be described as such.
This started gnawing at me and finally it pissed me off enough to get out of bed and vent on the internet.
It seems that my entire view on everything has collapsed. I live in self deceit. I live in a one man religion. Now that i realize this theres no going back but what bothers me is that I can think of any theory about any aspect of anything and this can be applied to it. Its self deceit.
At the risk of sounding melodramatic i feel like im hovering over an abyss because suddenly i cant believe in any theory or way of looking outward.

This brings me to the most important question of the night; why the f does this bother me so much? Ask anyone about their personal philosophy and they're gonna look at you like a crazy man. No one gives the least amount of crap. So why does it work me up enough to post this?
The need people have to believe in god is starting to make more sense, but not in any way that I could ever convert into any religion - i just understand why they want to believe.

Think about any philosopher and any theory. It seems that the main concern is to have the best one. To have a theory that the other philosopher cant debase. The search for truth has become the search for a better theory than your peer. I guess I just had a loss of faith in everything and i wanted to ask how you can still have a reasonably solid view of the world after every philosophical idea has become obsolete for you.

wow. color me completely uninterested in this thread.

carry on.

Well guess what, *****?

You are a kraken!

Originally posted by Acheron
I couldnt give any less poo about what anyone else thinks about me. I look at myself as a passive observer of the world. I thought that as long as I was happy with myself thats all that matters. Im not gonna lie. I think im awesome. Other people dont, but the beuty lies in not caring about other people.
I went out for a smoke before going to bed, but in passing I told myself out of nowhere that it seems like purposeful self deceit so I can save myself the pain of looking at my actual self. I went to bed but this thought stuck with me. While the latter part doesnt bother at all the part about self deceit does.
Of the few people I can have arguments about this sort of thing, each of them will tell you that im outspoken against religion of any kind because its a comfort blanket for the masses. Its self deceit to make life seem like it has meaning or purpose. My view of life can be described as such.
This started gnawing at me and finally it pissed me off enough to get out of bed and vent on the internet.
It seems that my entire view on everything has collapsed. I live in self deceit. I live in a one man religion. Now that i realize this theres no going back but what bothers me is that I can think of any theory about any aspect of anything and this can be applied to it. Its self deceit.
At the risk of sounding melodramatic i feel like im hovering over an abyss because suddenly i cant believe in any theory or way of looking outward.

This brings me to the most important question of the night; why the f does this bother me so much? Ask anyone about their personal philosophy and they're gonna look at you like a crazy man. No one gives the least amount of crap. So why does it work me up enough to post this?
The need people have to believe in god is starting to make more sense, but not in any way that I could ever convert into any religion - i just understand why they want to believe.

Think about any philosopher and any theory. It seems that the main concern is to have the best one. To have a theory that the other philosopher cant debase. The search for truth has become the search for a better theory than your peer. I guess I just had a loss of faith in everything and i wanted to ask how you can still have a reasonably solid view of the world after every philosophical idea has become obsolete for you.

Originally posted by Acheron
I couldnt give any less poo about what anyone else thinks about me. I look at myself as a passive observer of the world. I thought that as long as I was happy with myself thats all that matters. Im not gonna lie. I think im awesome. Other people dont, but the beuty lies in not caring about other people.
I went out for a smoke before going to bed, but in passing I told myself out of nowhere that it seems like purposeful self deceit so I can save myself the pain of looking at my actual self. I went to bed but this thought stuck with me. While the latter part doesnt bother at all the part about self deceit does.
Of the few people I can have arguments about this sort of thing, each of them will tell you that im outspoken against religion of any kind because its a comfort blanket for the masses. Its self deceit to make life seem like it has meaning or purpose. My view of life can be described as such.
This started gnawing at me and finally it pissed me off enough to get out of bed and vent on the internet.
It seems that my entire view on everything has collapsed. I live in self deceit. I live in a one man religion. Now that i realize this theres no going back but what bothers me is that I can think of any theory about any aspect of anything and this can be applied to it. Its self deceit.
At the risk of sounding melodramatic i feel like im hovering over an abyss because suddenly i cant believe in any theory or way of looking outward.

This brings me to the most important question of the night; why the f does this bother me so much? Ask anyone about their personal philosophy and they're gonna look at you like a crazy man. No one gives the least amount of crap. So why does it work me up enough to post this?
The need people have to believe in god is starting to make more sense, but not in any way that I could ever convert into any religion - i just understand why they want to believe.

Think about any philosopher and any theory. It seems that the main concern is to have the best one. To have a theory that the other philosopher cant debase. The search for truth has become the search for a better theory than your peer. I guess I just had a loss of faith in everything and i wanted to ask how you can still have a reasonably solid view of the world after every philosophical idea has become obsolete for you.

Good news: you sound ready for a mindset overhaul.
Decide what you want out of life: what do you want to be doing in 5-10 years? How do you want people to treat you? Forget what others do with their personal philosophies: yours should be a plan for your future.

Inside of each and every one of us is what is known as Buddhahood. You can call it what you want; names don't matter. This part of you is the part that sees beyond the self deceit. I suggest you listen to this quiet voice (another name for it), because it knows the direction you need to go.

Originally posted by Shakyamunison
Inside of each and every one of us is what is known as Buddhahood. You can call it what you want; names don't matter. This part of you is the part that sees beyond the self deceit. I suggest you listen to this quiet voice (another name for it), because it knows the direction you need to go.

Originally posted by Fëanor
that's a load of malarkey. inside of us is a little boy trying to understand the world and his place in it. or a girl if you're a woman.

You have to look deeper. There is a place inside of you that knows what you need to do to survive, it is also known as instinct.

Originally posted by Acheron
I couldnt give any less poo about what anyone else thinks about me. I look at myself as a passive observer of the world. I thought that as long as I was happy with myself thats all that matters. Im not gonna lie. I think im awesome. Other people dont, but the beuty lies in not caring about other people.
I went out for a smoke before going to bed, but in passing I told myself out of nowhere that it seems like purposeful self deceit so I can save myself the pain of looking at my actual self. I went to bed but this thought stuck with me. While the latter part doesnt bother at all the part about self deceit does.
Of the few people I can have arguments about this sort of thing, each of them will tell you that im outspoken against religion of any kind because its a comfort blanket for the masses. Its self deceit to make life seem like it has meaning or purpose. My view of life can be described as such.
This started gnawing at me and finally it pissed me off enough to get out of bed and vent on the internet.
It seems that my entire view on everything has collapsed. I live in self deceit. I live in a one man religion. Now that i realize this theres no going back but what bothers me is that I can think of any theory about any aspect of anything and this can be applied to it. Its self deceit.
At the risk of sounding melodramatic i feel like im hovering over an abyss because suddenly i cant believe in any theory or way of looking outward.

This brings me to the most important question of the night; why the f does this bother me so much? Ask anyone about their personal philosophy and they're gonna look at you like a crazy man. No one gives the least amount of crap. So why does it work me up enough to post this?
The need people have to believe in god is starting to make more sense, but not in any way that I could ever convert into any religion - i just understand why they want to believe.

Think about any philosopher and any theory. It seems that the main concern is to have the best one. To have a theory that the other philosopher cant debase. The search for truth has become the search for a better theory than your peer. I guess I just had a loss of faith in everything and i wanted to ask how you can still have a reasonably solid view of the world after every philosophical idea has become obsolete for you.

So... from a philosophy that states, "I do not care about the views and opinions others have of me and my views and opinions" comes the problem that you want someone to care about your views and opinions, even though you don't care about their view and opinion?

In other words, "I do not want or accept their stance as to me, but I need them to have it"?

I would suggest altering your personal philosophy, it sounds like it is what is killing your "spirit"

Originally posted by Regret
So... from a philosophy that states, "I do not care about the views and opinions others have of me and my views and opinions" comes the problem that you want someone to care about your views and opinions, even though you don't care about their view and opinion?

In other words, "I do not want or accept their stance as to me, but I need them to have it"?

I would suggest altering your personal philosophy, it sounds like it is what is killing your "spirit"

Good point. 👆 We often create our own hell.

Originally posted by Shakyamunison
Good point. 👆 We often create our own hell.

Originally posted by Shakyamunison
Good point. 👆 We often create our own hell.

Thanks 😉 I agree, I am at times unsure if there is a hell outside our personally designed limitations. Even with my religious view, I consider that this concept may fit its teachings.

Originally posted by Acheron
I couldnt give any less poo about what anyone else thinks about me. I look at myself as a passive observer of the world. I thought that as long as I was happy with myself thats all that matters. Im not gonna lie. I think im awesome. Other people dont, but the beuty lies in not caring about other people.
I went out for a smoke before going to bed, but in passing I told myself out of nowhere that it seems like purposeful self deceit so I can save myself the pain of looking at my actual self. I went to bed but this thought stuck with me. While the latter part doesnt bother at all the part about self deceit does.
Of the few people I can have arguments about this sort of thing, each of them will tell you that im outspoken against religion of any kind because its a comfort blanket for the masses. Its self deceit to make life seem like it has meaning or purpose. My view of life can be described as such.
This started gnawing at me and finally it pissed me off enough to get out of bed and vent on the internet.
It seems that my entire view on everything has collapsed. I live in self deceit. I live in a one man religion. Now that i realize this theres no going back but what bothers me is that I can think of any theory about any aspect of anything and this can be applied to it. Its self deceit.
At the risk of sounding melodramatic i feel like im hovering over an abyss because suddenly i cant believe in any theory or way of looking outward.

This brings me to the most important question of the night; why the f does this bother me so much? Ask anyone about their personal philosophy and they're gonna look at you like a crazy man. No one gives the least amount of crap. So why does it work me up enough to post this?
The need people have to believe in god is starting to make more sense, but not in any way that I could ever convert into any religion - i just understand why they want to believe.

Think about any philosopher and any theory. It seems that the main concern is to have the best one. To have a theory that the other philosopher cant debase. The search for truth has become the search for a better theory than your peer. I guess I just had a loss of faith in everything and i wanted to ask how you can still have a reasonably solid view of the world after every philosophical idea has become obsolete for you.

I think those situations reveals the need for a change, and we should try to learn something new from these moments. Many people would just try to ignore these things, so they don´t need to see their own crap.