koko692
so as u guys know, valentines was just a few days ago... A year ago, I started to fall in love with a girl. she's very kind and always smiles at me... she made my days and soon I realized how important she is in my life. I soon made a promise to confess to her in the next valentines (which is this year). A few days ago, I bought some chocolate and wrote a whole page of letter telling her how much I love her... I was nervous because I thought there's a chance for me to fail. The following day which is the Valentines, I told her to meet me during lunch. I talked to her one on one and I told her I liked her. (it was the first time I confessed in person) from the start to the end, she kept on smiling at me. After telling her how much I loved her, I handed her the Valentines chocolate and card... After that I told myself that I messed up... It wasn't completely smooth like what I expected. I told myself over and over again that I will not win her heart so I could be ready for her answer... It was the night of Valentines, I went home and checked my facebook. She msg-ed me and told me that she would prefer us to stay as friends. She didn't tell me the exact reason though. Even though I was prepared for this, I still couldn't bare the pain... I felt that my heart was dying from agony... It was like a blade stabbed into it... I was so down that I couldn't even talk to any one... The girl had a boyfriend before. He was a complete *******. He totally ripped her heart and in my opinion, I believed that it was that ******* who created this "dark age" for her. She told me and her friends that she will never fall in love again and that she would focus on school... Yet I still told her that I love her.... Everything seems so messed up. I couldn't cheer up.... I loved her so much for a year and all I got was a refusal. That girl meant a lot to me... I really hoped to love her with all my heart and try to comfort her from the past.... Even though she told me that I am her best friend, I still suffered from depression. I just wanted to let her know that I love her forever and I am willing to wait for the day she recovers.... I hope to be beside her and protect her.... She'll always be the most beautiful girl in my eyes...
