As I get "older" I definitely notice changes in how I define myself.
Do you define yourself by your education, your job, your aspirations? Or by your family, your friends, your physical environment? Or perhaps by your inner thoughts and dreams; your deepest hopes and alternately, your deepest fears?
When someone asks you "who are you?" how do you find yourself answering?
Well let me see....
Mentally a staunch defender of traditions and heritage. Open minded but a little to stubborn at the same time. Way to prone to tell my opinion whether its liked or not. Very proud of who I am and where I come from.
Work hard and play harder. Hold family values and true friendship highly. I like to take time to notice the simpler things in life as well. Love the outdoors and spend a lot of time there.
Physically...Big. I'm 6'8" and weigh around 300 pounds. Wear size 18 shoes Hence the nickname ..Bigfoot. Bigger is better baby Real easygoing type person overall. Career wise, Federal Bureau of Prisons. I take my job very seriously. Theirs only one way to do your job and thats the right way
In your career, do you ever feel a "there but for the grace of god" moment when you interact with the inmates? Or do you feel completely different, seperate, even a little above them?
Do you ever come across inmates who you feel don't belong there, or is it easy to see that if they broke the law, they are where they belong?
I'm going to be terribly cliche and say that I don't find the need to define myself.
What I am one day changes the next, so why expect something from yourself that changes daily.
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So you don't find that even among the natural changes and variations in life, there is something in you, or about you, that remains constant? There's no sense of "this is me?"
Good questions. At times I have felt like I really understand why an inmate did what he did. You really have to separate yourselves from inmates in a way. They are always looking for a way to manipulate you. They have 24/7 to figure a way out. Developing any kind of relationship other than a simple rapport is a very bad idea. I never feel above the inmates. I do however treat every inmate fairly and equally regardless of crime ect. I do make it plain that I'm the boss though and disrespect will not be tolerated. Being this way makes the job simpler and easier on you. I have indeed came across an inmate or two that I felt didn't deserve to be there and thought that if I were in his position I would have done the same thing.
Unless you define yourself by such things as you're nationality, or your gender for example, things that you're born into and can't change easily or at all, then I honestly don't believe you're ever the same today as you were yesterday.
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you know that i could use somebody,
you know that i could use somebody,
someone like you. .myspace.
One thing that defines me in a way I forgot to mention. I am definitely known as a man of my word. This is one characteristic people use to describe me.
I am a soul and a mind, full to the brim with thoughts, stripped of all meaning except self. I am what I' ve experienced so far.
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I am not driven by people’ s praise and I am not slowed down by people’ s criticism.
You only live once. But if you live it right, once is enough.
Make poverty history.
Stop aids, keep the promise.
Without a doubt my job is an integral part of my identity since I spend so much of my life at it. Doesn't define me. I refuse to think about work when not at work. A duality.
I used to more closely ally my identity to that of the conglomeration of my friends. As time passes, this is beginning to lessen. I guess my identity is drifting closer to a family mindset than my former party lifestyle. I'm more a source of help, strength and support to a close knit group now than just a source of companionship for a large group.
None of these tell who I am. I'm not even sure who I am. It's a symptom of modern life. People are so consumed with schedule, moving from here to there, that there is no time for reflection of this sort. Who's got the time? It's important, but seemingly ancillary nowadays.
I define myself by my skill on the battlefield. When I am standing against an army of a few hundred and my army is behind me out of my line of sight and I charge into battle leading my army like an english mastiff being walked by a 100 lb woman, and I wade through the enemy swinging my sword with a rythem that must have come from the gods dodging shot after shot, dealing death with every step, not stopping until an arrow strikes me dead because no melee weapon can touch me, that's how and when I define myself. The only thing purer then battle is the scent of your women during the victory celebration that night, and having the hunger and ability to take her then and there, in front of many a drunken unlooker.
No, because that would your personal opinion. In order to define me you have to known me since childbirth and everything I've done till this day very day. Not even friends or relatives could even define me. I think it applies to everyone. Some people might point charateristics (sp?) of myself but couldn't possibly define who I'am ..
But I appreciate you trying.
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"Because I wanted to hurt you in the worst way I could. I know what that gutter-**** means to you, even if you deny it to yourself!"
For me it is more of a sum of everything that I am and do from my job to my friends and family. It will always change depending on new experiences and things that I learn and as I grow older and experience more of what life offers.
What you are never changes. Who you are never stops changing.
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"If your life is such that you're placing all your hopes in a politician, then may I humbly suggest you get yourself a crate of superlager and a cardboard box and stop wasting everyone's time''