"Self-success" is a repugnant, barbarically asinine notion
Thinking you're going to go out there and "Win" friends and admiration with your "Winning" attitude is an example of ignorant thought on the highest level.
I don't want to hear it anymore, you don't earn anything in this world, you're either given respect and confidence, or you're not. You don't pull out your mother****ing ass. If you take in the first place it's not genuine, so **** it. Might as well assume control of everyone's thoughts and feelings then.
I believed in mind-control, the law of attraction. I believed that there was a pattern inherent in the grand design that was magnificent, grandiose, and purposeful for life and evolution. I was wrong. Now I'm a little more knowledgeable, whatever value that has, and unable to cope with life or excel.
Stop thinking we're headed for anything but Dystopia. Existence as it is for life, is demonstrated to have no purpose, it's chaos. I don't want to exist as an amoral bastard who hogs the life of others, abandoning them to despair, feeding off of the attention they could have, eat or get eaten, and neither should you.
Just note that the superior ones aren't necessarily the ones who inherit the attention that allows one to actualize, neither are the amoral individuals or the ignorant, just like everything else, it's a chaotic selection.
tl;dr - I didn't get my way and now I'm going back to my tent.
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I would pay a small entrance fee to see you give a TED talk.
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BOT, I should have just exclaimed one does not pick his or her own friends/lovers, and left it at that...
__________________ "Compounding these trickster aspects, the Joker ethos is verbally explicated as such by his psychiatrist, who describes his madness as "super-sanity." Where "sanity" previously suggested acquiescence with cultural codes, the addition of "super" implies that this common "sanity" has been replaced by a superior form, in which perception and processing are completely ungoverned and unconstrained"
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You can't choose completely freely, since these relationships are somewhat two way streets, but you can definitely choose to some degree, you can exclude who you don't want as your friend/lovers....
Not so much lovers. Pre-involvement has a way of complicating that matter. It is easy to fall victim to settling when you're my age, however, as the monotony can create severe psychological disturbances that I have faced down. I'm not necessarily speaking of schizophrenia, but something of that severe caliber of mental instability - for me it was more of a dissociation from personality. I don't know if it is possible to be a complete sociopath, but on more than one occasion I had gotten so close to being in a catatonic stupor post-PTSD meltdowns that I couldn't go on.
__________________ "Compounding these trickster aspects, the Joker ethos is verbally explicated as such by his psychiatrist, who describes his madness as "super-sanity." Where "sanity" previously suggested acquiescence with cultural codes, the addition of "super" implies that this common "sanity" has been replaced by a superior form, in which perception and processing are completely ungoverned and unconstrained"
I wanted someone who'd been more exposed to my ups and downs than anyone else. But the preconceived notions of this stranger (who is an actual person that I'm referring to) may be a figment of my imagination. Either way, this person chooses not to have anything to do with me so I don't see why it matters.
__________________ "Compounding these trickster aspects, the Joker ethos is verbally explicated as such by his psychiatrist, who describes his madness as "super-sanity." Where "sanity" previously suggested acquiescence with cultural codes, the addition of "super" implies that this common "sanity" has been replaced by a superior form, in which perception and processing are completely ungoverned and unconstrained"
Dolos is just a bored young f*ck who wants to f*ck, but f*ck can't have his f*cking way with those damned f*cks. So he has stopped giving a f*ck altogether.
When I find love I tend to leech on. I am 21, but my need for companionship is pretty bad...let's just say I have an emptiness. To dissociate from any kind of personality what-so-ever, to be a true sociopath, comes from an inability to handle yourself in life without the anxiety taking you past manic behavior all the way to broaching psychosis - I guess you can say I'm prone to co-dependence.
That's more addressing the first part of your previous response than this one, but I think I've addressed both responses in this post fairly well.
That is a rather droll summation. So droll, in fact, that it falls short. It does not do the same kind of justice as did my opening post.
__________________ "Compounding these trickster aspects, the Joker ethos is verbally explicated as such by his psychiatrist, who describes his madness as "super-sanity." Where "sanity" previously suggested acquiescence with cultural codes, the addition of "super" implies that this common "sanity" has been replaced by a superior form, in which perception and processing are completely ungoverned and unconstrained"
Gender: Unspecified Location: With Cinderella and the 9 Dwarves
But you didn't find love, most definitely not mutual love. What you describe sounds more like infatuation, and a destructive kind at that.
You don't need another person as a saviour, you can achieve what you want out of yourself. And putting your partner on a pedestal and casting them as your angel makes for a very unhealthy relationship. It's not fair to the other person either.
But I ask again, because I feel like you aren't giving a clear answer, and I worry that perhaps you don't know yourself; What is it that you desire? What do you want from a relationship?
__________________ Recently Produced and Distributed Young but High-Ranking Political Figure of Royal Ancestry within the Modern American Town Affectionately Referred To as Bel-Air.
__________________ "Compounding these trickster aspects, the Joker ethos is verbally explicated as such by his psychiatrist, who describes his madness as "super-sanity." Where "sanity" previously suggested acquiescence with cultural codes, the addition of "super" implies that this common "sanity" has been replaced by a superior form, in which perception and processing are completely ungoverned and unconstrained"
Gender: Unspecified Location: With Cinderella and the 9 Dwarves
That woman that would be your partner, would probably require companionship, and love, and support just as you do. Relationships aren't just magical (and one sided) every-problem-in-my-life-is-gone things.
Good but, ah, reread everything I've written in this thread.
My issue is not that with being desired back, it's with not being desired back.
Unless you're speaking of love in an action or platonic sense, which is meaningless to me because you can show love in your deeds with someone you don't even like, or with like complete strangers. I never understood the opposite sex's obsession with pity-love, love-bombing, sympathy affection. It's an infuriating thing to receive their good will when they don't long for you like they would their lover.
I've received a sympathetic, "I love you" but in my idiotic sense of things I mistook it as she literally loved me. Which wouldn't even make sense in the way in which she said it. You see back then I was oblivious to the syntax of the words of others.
To infatuate, to impress, to associate good feelings with your presence, on someone that does the same to you is the very meaning of life.
__________________ "Compounding these trickster aspects, the Joker ethos is verbally explicated as such by his psychiatrist, who describes his madness as "super-sanity." Where "sanity" previously suggested acquiescence with cultural codes, the addition of "super" implies that this common "sanity" has been replaced by a superior form, in which perception and processing are completely ungoverned and unconstrained"
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