Originally posted by Shakyamunison
Life is not fair, is the simple answer to the karma question.I agree, you have external factors, but you choose to respond to those factors. You always have a choice. The cost maybe too high for you to pay, but that again is a choice that you make.
Speaking of choosing to step into and out of the Ten Worlds, I just realized something Shaky...
I was in the Ninth World at one point in my life...after I escaped the realm of Hell (my personal Hell), I was in a point at Bodhisattva
Don't ask me how I know, I just DO
It was better than Heaven, the 6th world.....It was the beginning of my senior year of High School, I was at a level of mentality where I realized that all people who aim to hurt me are lost, and that I should look above that.
I loved myself, was absolutely happy with who I was, what I do, and realized that I do not need the constant approval of people to keep me content. I was myself, i was happy with that, and that's all that mattered.
On top of that, I thought to care more for others. The happiness and guidance of others mattered more to me.
I felt more mature at this point than at any other point in my life, I was at such peace with myself and with my world...
I felt i had nothing to complain about, and all I wanted was for people to reach the kind of peace I accomplished....
But then I fell in Love....
I felt Heaven so intense, I did not want to leave it.
Only to have my heart broken, and experience Hell and Hunger for two years....that sense of Heaven was SO addicting, I refused to let it go...
I kept trying to contact the guy I fell for, demanded an answer as to why he had betrayed and abandoned me...why he had denied me in front of his freinds and family...why he lied to me....
He never answered, he cut me out of his life as if i never existed, and i felt Hell for two years....
I think I have been trapped in the 6 lower worlds ever since...
It's painful, but objectively, I find it absolutely amazing that a Broken Heart can destroy your world....