I suggest you buy some of the best weed you can get and try this again... A warning though when i done this I was just going to the toilet and I looked in the mirror, I found it very traumatic it was like this different person staring back at me, I really don't know how to explain it and yes I started crying like a baby 🙁 . I dunno what happened tbh, drugs will mess with your brain kids.
What do i see...
I see a man.
A man full of rage , hatred , distrust , paranoia and arrogance.
I see the face of an angry god, able to wreak terror and destroy as easy as it is to crush a mere paper cup. A man capable of the darkest deeds known to mankind , a soulless evil creature.
Yet i also see a fragile man , a soft fleshy husk with a sad clown smile on his face, realising life is but a brief sequence of events. He realizes their is no light within this pitch black storm. No cloud with a silver lining. Yet remains with a slight grin throughout it all.
In essence i see myself.
Originally posted by debbiejoSame here^.I think this is question we will never truely find an answer for.
This is cool...I know what you are saying.....I've often done the same...It's like a shell...like it's not really real....and really it's not in the sense that it's not eternal...it is a shell...what's real is the essence of your spirit..IMO....Cool realization......And I thought I was the only one who had bizarre thoughts like that.
Re: Who are you; What are you?
Originally posted by KPrince
What are you?
Who are you based on?
Are who you are and what you are related?
Are they dependent on one another?
If not why?
I am a human being looking for purpose.
If I understand the question correctly, I am a being based on carbon compositions...
No, because who I am is a perception, what I am is a fact...
Nope. My idea of who I am is not dependant of what I am. However, they are dependant on one another for function. I guess that kind of makes them same....but yet they're different....at least I get it...
In short, what I am trying to say is, the brain is composed of two central mind sets: the "creative" and the "logical". These two sets, when in harmony, allow you to perceive the world and it's anomalies without a flawed conception. But these two halves of a whole are usually unaligned and off center. This causes the user to think in different forms or ideas about themselves or the world around them. For example, at times I show an uncanny ability to be extremely cold and rash in some situations, but maybe a few seconds later I'll be very caring and compassionate that I would sooner harm myself than the subject.
What I guess you are experiencing is the logical side kicking in. Yes I said logical because you are beginning to look at yourself for who/what you truly are, and not what you perceive (creativity) to be. This then makes you realize that, in fact, your body (the shell) is the reality. When you separate the two (creativity and logic) you feel the incompleteness of the two halves. Of course all of this is clearly theoretical and the coalition of opinions of mine. None of these are dogmas or laws, so you can take them as you see fit...
Originally posted by StrangeDays
Actually, a really cool meditation to try is;
get a candle (at night) put it on the floor in front of a mirror. Sit on the floor cross-legged and stare at your reflection.
It is fun and you can see all sorts of things.
But in the end, I found anyway, my image disappeared and there was no me. It was very cool!!!
and I swear I am not a vampire 😉
You should look up Neurotheology. There's the theory that meditation, prayer, and certain spatial awareness situations can shut off a portion of your brain that messes with your awareness and consciousness, effectively giving you out of body experiences, or messing with your senses.
What I am and who I am are completely different entities. One can not look at me and see who I am, and anyone who thinks that they can needs a CT scan. I hate being judged by what I am because the judgement passed is never correct. Just because I could whoop your ass doesn't mean that I will.
Who I am has not shaped what I am, but, rather, it is the other way around. Sad to say it, but what I am seems to have shaped who I am. I wish that I could become outwardly the person that I am inside, but I can't. I've lived this way for too long; I'm taking baby steps towards who I want to be, but the steps are hardly noticeable. I'm trying to make who I am have an impact on what I am, but what I am does not seem to change. If you gave me a video tape of my life, I would cringe. I am not happy with what I am or the way I act. Hopefully I can change all of this with time.
I do not what to know fully who I am. I get scared and become empty every time I move towards doing so. I do not like being frightened, and I have scarce few friends as it is; I don't need to scare potential ones away by not caring.
Originally posted by AOR
For example, at times I show an uncanny ability to be extremely cold and rash in some situations, but maybe a few seconds later I'll be very caring and compassionate that I would sooner harm myself than the subject.