Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

okay... so these stuff could be found at my friend's site... decided to post em here to see what you guys think...

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No reason

i don't understand it really
Why are somethings not meant to be
Stuff unexplainable, inexplicable
Why didn't you just say you can't
Keep those promises i waited for so long

When i am on the peak
I just asked to have a bit of space
you just gave up on me
no reason, or any valid explanation
you just left it all like nothing happened

After all the chances i once gave
After all we've been through
After everything i did
It never occured to you
That i thought it was all true

i never realized that it was all just a fairy tale gone bad
if i could rewrite it somehow i would
but i can't bring it all back
why did you left me here
i don't think i'll ever forget what you did

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Crazy In Love


I know that I’ve been stupid all this time
I don’t seem to make up my mind
I tell everyone, that I don’t love you anymore
But deep inside, that’s not what I meant to say

I have been a jerk all along
I got laughed at, jeered and put down
I wrote a lot of letters
But it seems that you never really did care

I have been senseless
It seems as if I didn’t see it all along
I know I might not have any chance
But you’re really the choice of my heart

Maybe I’ve been a daft
I’ve been falling down in love
But I never thought that falling for you
Will make me the most stupid guy in the world

I may have been a moron for loving you
But no, I cannot stop
You are one of the few things I looked forward to everyday
It doesn’t really matter

I know this is absurd
But I’ll never give up on you
I have been falling apart, breaking in pieces
I can never ever stop now

I always would be this foolish
Because it’s loving you that make me like this
I don’t care anymore
All I know is I will always have this feeling for you

So let me say this for the last time
I’m very sorry if you don’t like my idea of loving you
But I was nothing before I met you
You know, I love you

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Just Three Words

You are really slow
I’ve been waiting all this time for you
You never even told me a thing about how you feel
It has been years

Why?
Are you afraid of what I would say?
Afraid of what you might hear?
Maybe if you try, I could give you a chance

Hey! Wake up!
What are you waiting for?
I’m waiting for your words
Just three words

When will you do it?
When will you have the strength to tell everything?
I won’t wait forever
So before I say goodbye, I want to hear you tell me, ‘I love you’

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Spit it out

When I'm around you I just act like myself
I'm true, I don't hide anything
But i still don't understand
why i can't say
The real feelings i've been hiding

I tried to say in letters
but i just can't slip it in your locker
I tried to force it out of my mouth
but i can't croak it out
i tried e-mail, the phone, everything i can't think of

I guess i'm just shy
or afraid you might reject me
i've been hurt far too many times
maybe you weren't meant to know
or maybe its the time i do something

So ok
I'd do it
I'll spit it out
You see, i like you
it may sound silly, but... i really do...

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Virus?

you walk towards her...
mesmerized
stop before... its too late anyway
you're already smitten
bitten
affected
ill!
the 'virus' crawling all over your skin... affecting your thoughts... emotions... flowing through your veins! it slowly crushes you... letting you feel death day by day...
so intoxicating...
yet it feels so good you can't stop loving..
it hurts so well, and it feels so heavenly...
if only you could... reach... her!
then the dream shatters.
you wake up once again...

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Road

Life is a never-ending road
One long highway
you just have to cruise along

not too fast, not too slow
just get under the speed limit

sure, there would be roadblocks
some dead ends too
but you could always find another way out

whenever you swerve in the wrong lane
or take a wrong road that keeps you from where you need to go
God always guides you back to where you should go

sometimes you need to take a long way towards your goal
and some traffic build-up too
but you just need to learn patience

the road you're taking may have bumps and humps
but always remember whatever you do
have fun, and rely on the signs that guide you
until you get to where you should be

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Let You Go

Staring out the moonlight
Sitting on a park bench
Thinking, wondering

its so easy to fall
should've been easier to let go
but not happening
i'm still holding on

I never tried to stop myself
i just went with the flow
and look where it brought me
a never-ending roller coaster ride
full of twist and turns

but i needed to let go
and it hurted like hell
finger by finger, inch by inch
its like being crushed inside and out
emotions mixed
drowning in its sweetness, hotness
burning me in my pain

hurts, yet feels so good at the same time
time to let go
and say goodbye

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Illusions

Life is just an illusion
a seemingly never-ending dream
an alternate universe where i live in
another weird paradox in time
its like wearing a virtual-reality helmet
stuck in its crazy game
interacting with other players

Reach oput to touch the scene
You won't feel anything
like a ghost
walking through the phantoms of the past and future
though you're stuck in the present
bumping into people like you don't exist
like phasing into invisible walls

this illusion sucks
no one sees me

divine wind blew into my face
i stretch out a hand
and He took it
leading me into the light
i just gotta trust Him
everything will be alright

so i guess.. this illusion isn't that bad after all.

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It's not me.. It's you

How would i know
how would i be certain of how i feel
how would i know when to stop hoping
i was trying to reach you
wasn't it obvious?
you're so ignorant
so oblivious
why did you let the chance go...
or was it because i'm not good enough...
was it something i might've said or done?
why?! i'm good enough!
Answer me!

You don't know how much it hurted...
and it still hurts..
I was drowning in it...
I was being choked...
I felt... and feel... like i'm a toy...
left alone... thrown away...
i gather my thoughts...
maybe i should just change my mind..

But you took a piece of my heart with you...!
Give it back!
you don't own it anymore!

Was i too slow?
I'm still asking why!
after all this time..
i can't take this!
i feel like a puzzle with a missing piece...

Leave me alone!
I'm pushing all my thoughts
Associated with you away...

I guess you weren't the one...
I guess you weren't good enough...

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there. all my poems.

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HIS force be with you.

Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

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HIS force be with you.

Gender: Male
Location: The South

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Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

wrote all of those in the past few months... or years.. i don't actually remember..

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HIS force be with you.

Gender: Male
Location: The South

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Gender: Female
Location: United States

Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

thanks..

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HIS force be with you.

Gender: Female
Location: United States

Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

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HIS force be with you.

Gender: Male
Location: On my way to the Cage

Account Restricted

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Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

thank you so much.

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HIS force be with you.

Gender: Female
Location: May or may not be somewhere else.

I kinda forgot this thread of mine..

here are the stuff I forgot to post that i made since the last time i posted..

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Crashing Reality

I want my reality back!
I want to go
And curl-up in the corners of my mind
live through my dreams
day by day trapped in my imagination
where i would know the twist and turns
eventhough sometimes i won't be sure
it would kill me to think
that i would be forever trapped
in this stupid reality
no was to escape the present
i want to be in my own perfect world

i want to escape this awful reality
i want to stay in my imagination
where i would never be disappointed
where i could live my life as someone important
where i could have my own adventure
limitless and risky
where i could recover from anything
life throws at me
where i could reach for my dreams
not afraid to fall down

shatter this reality
i choose my own world


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A Sailor's Farewell

Captain, land ho!
As we bid farewell
The ship dock at port
Lest everyone dwell

We went o'er the edge and o'er again
And sailed to the land of the dead
Sunrise sets at the flash of green
As we arose 'un was filled with dread

We pillaged and plundered
And got hold of the loot
And when dividing the booty
We offer a boot

We stayed on the course
And sail we did well
Until Fiddler's Green mate
Reach you not in hell

Sing lots of shanties
Drink lots of rum
Follow the captain
Or be blown to kingdom come

Follow the code
Or kiss the Gunner's Daughter
Shoot yourself and die
Or go and keelhaul 'er

Take what you can
Give nothing back
Run out of ammunition
Use an hardtack

Bested every beastie
Ran off the first sight
They think we got it off easy
And yet full of fright

Hoist the colours
Haul it up high
And sail the seas
Fair winds and good bye

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poem for grandparents day, for church... I volunteered.. And lolo is filipino for grandpa, lola is for grandma, and mano po, as will be described, is a filipino tradition, a way of showing respect to elders.. anyway, here... what do you guys think?


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Thank You!


I still remember when I was younger
The way you stroke my hair
The way you always spoil me
No matter how much mom says not to
Your over-protectiveness
That every time I get hurt
You’ll scold my guardian
And take me into your arms

Those comforting kisses
Those warm hugs
Until now I could still feel them
And every time I go to your house
You always greet me with the same smile
The familiar hugs and kisses
I take your hand and I lean down
And press my forehead to it
“Mano po Lola, Lolo”
And I see you smile
Those gifts you manage to get me
Somehow you always get me just what I need

You’ve done a lot for me
And I’m so grateful for everything
You’ve always been there
No matter how far our ages may be
And even though you don’t understand me quite a lot

I love you Lolo, I love you Lola!
You will always be in my heart
And although I don’t have your pictures in my wallet
Your faces will always be vivid in my memories
And as we celebrate the day just for you
I just want to say, Thank you!

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What Hurts the Most

I see you everyday
Talking to her
Forced to watch

Sometimes even I'm the bridge
Trying to get you closer to her
Giving advice, comforting pain

Even exchanging playful banter
talking crazily and all that
You don't get it don't you

You're so clueless
And I'm good at hiding
Too much mixed messages

I can't tell you what it is
I know you won't understand
There she is you want

So elusive
But I could see she likes you
Although no so-called promises

And as you both break my heart
I say I hate you, not her
Why should I be the one with this!

Madeningly unhelpful
Excess baggage
Too much dilemma

If you must know
What hurts the most
Let me make it clear

You're so close
I could touch you
And yet I can't

So far
Can't hold you in my arms
It's hard to walk away

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there..

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HIS force be with you.