Words I'd scream
Words found in anger
Words that cut so deep
Words I wish I could say
My minds replays over and over
As hours pass and days go by
still courage I have not found
Words that speak behind blurred eyes
Words you have yet to hear
Words written in tears
Words that preclude unbroken silence
My mind replays over and over
still courage I have not found
Words that will hurt you
Words that can never be taken back
Words that will not fade
Words I need to you to know
My replays over and over
As hours pass and days go by
Still courage I never found
Sitting here pretending
My fears cannot be escaped
Looking past the mask
Nothing can be seen
Painted with lies
I lost my truth
All that I thought I was
Faded when you opened yourself
Your heart on display
I betrayed you
Believing in my lies
You gave your love to me
I toyed with your emotions
Manipulated you like a puppet
Never once did I think of consequence
The sound of smiles in your voice
I no longer hear
The beauty in your eyes
I no longer see
Sitting here pretending
My fears cannot be escaped
Looking past the mask
Nothing can be seen
Painted with lies I lost my truth
All that I thought I was fades
When I open myself to you
My heart on display
I betray myself
By believing in my lies
The ticks of a clock
They continually torture me
Each second grows longer than the last
I feel time slowing
Prolonging the suffering I endure
Wallowing in my pathetic state
I feel myself falling deeper
Drowning in my exaggerations
I scream out in frustration
Hurry up in there!
I gotta pee really bad!!