The clock is ticking.
The pain is kicking.
I look down , i made a mistake.
It is to late to take back what i did.
Foolish i was what have i done.
I take a look around to see who is left with me.
No one is here,I'm all alone.
I cuddle close to hide my self.
To see that it's almost here.
The child i was barring is about to come here.
I should of never had sex.
I should of known better.
He would leave.
My parents would not agree.
I was kicked out abandoned you can say.
I'm only still young.
My life is a mess.
I can't go a day without crying, i can't take this any longer.
So take the baby.
And leave me to rest.
I can't live like this.
I can't be a mess.
Forever you said.
It hit me harder then anything.
The tears it brought , the feeling that filled me.
I looked up to you as if you where the best thing in the world.
The moments we has shared.
The Passion we had felt was bacily felt unreal.
I couldn't think how love had felt till you walked through the door.
Into my life , and took my hand into yours.
You speak words so smooth so sweetly.
But the truth be hind them is shattering.
How you lie so perfect, you seem so amazing.
How i can't get enough of you, how your touch makes me shiver.
I guess forever meant only for a little while.
I guess i was wrong on the definition of forever.
Forever you said.
What a perfect lie to be together.
Betrayal she whispered.
This couldn't be.
It hurt so much it was killing her inside.
Everything they where everything they had done.
All the love shattered, all the pain coming.
He stood so tall she wanted him back.
Best friends with a knife in her back.
She felt the air chocking her to death.
He kept his eyes locked straight a head.
Moments passed before he spoke agen
'I'm sorry i had to tell him'
With anger and rage the words spilled out.
He stood there in shock as she let it all out.
'How could you do this to me i ****ing love you'
The pain was killing them he had already made a mess.
She wanted it to be fake,she wished it wasn't real.
Her stomach was killing her ,and her head felt detached.
They stood there in silence, with a hurt face that showed alot.
The shadows covered them, the wind pushing through them.
He told her the truth knowing it was killing her more.
But the pain he had he couldn't hold in any more.
It was better to tell her right here then later.
After he was done he walked with her.
They turned there backs and gave each other that glance.
Knowing this friend ship was done, knowing they couldn't go back.
Lovers at first then friends at last.
They tryed to keep it together.
But it couldn't last.
They both walked back to back more away.
She glanced back with tears in his eyes.
He didn't look back he kept walking
As if he wasn't hurt.
^Long i know,lost a best friend,that i had dated and loved so long, had to let it out.I know this probably isn't as good as the others,but i put my pain and my heart into it.
If i could i would take it back.
I feel so weak ,so broken i made a mistake.
My heads spinning my stomach is aching .
My skin feels numb i can't see straight.
I didn't know i would disappoint you.
I didn't know i could hurt you.
I've been sober now but tonight I'm being riped right open.
So pass me the bottle ill drink to the pain.
Cheers to the pain and cheers to no hope.
If i could i would fall to pieces just to show you.
Everything i am and nothing that you want.
I'm only so young i don't know wrong from right.
Mommy open the door I'm freezing out here.
I can see you and daddy talking and your crying out your pain.
Please I'm your little girl i cant make it out here alone.
I love you i'm just a little kid.
So please let me back in.
Yea anouther one i wrote.I gave up achohal because of writing this,and the story behind it,i got kicked out for drinking when i was younger.Pretty much sucked.
Well i have alot of time now,because i broke my ankle and my foot,so I'm going to be writing more.
I don't know whats the point of loving you.
I don't know why you have that vibe you give off.
I don't know why you draw me in with your charm.
How you got me under your spell.
Where you can brake me .Where you can destroy me.
Then i relies it's because you love me.
Short, i might work on this later ,i have no clue , tell me what you think (:
I never wanted to say good bye
I never wanted to be the one who walked away.
This want my intentions, i swear.
I just can't hold back these tears.
You pushed me to this point .
I can't back up anymore.
If you could just see whats going on.
Maybe you would understand a little more.
I only speak the truth
I can not tell a lie.
Girl i fell head over heels for you.
I know we arnt togather right now.
This space between us is keeping us apart
And i wish i could be at your side .
You make me smile with your voice on the line.
When you speak you make my heart beat faster.
You took me when i was down on my luck.
You changed everything over a phone.
You opened your heart you opened your mind,
I know theres miles between us.
But absence makes the heart gro founder.
I wrote this out of care and waiting for my girlfriend to come to the U.S.
Mother why?
I tryed to be who you wanted me to be .
But i cant control my heart.
My mind is set
Can't you see I'm happy,
With who i want to be.
I want to be free
I want to love.
Just because i like both genders.
Doesn't degrade me.
I stand so tall , i stand strong.
Mother you where always there for me.
You turned your back , i can see.
I can hear your re-marks i can feel your deadly glairs.
People don't like it, it's hard on me.
The person i want to turn to, is ashamed of me.
Mother i why ?
I love you , i love her.
Why can't you just let it be.
Mother i need you , please don't give up on me.
I'm sorry for who i am ,this is destiny.
I can't fight fate, i can't control what happens around me.
Mother why ?
Why are you doing this to me.
You know how i get.
When you come around.
When your eyes lock mine.
I know i show.
You take a look at me and try to apologize.
Your late you had ruined are plans.
You give me a hug a kiss goodbye.
I watch you walk right by me i want to
call you back just to have you at my side.
Your leaving for a week , you seem to be everything to me.
I fake it at school so i can go home to try to talk to you.
I only want you to know i love you.
But i think i might scare you.
For its starting to be fall, love is rising in the air.
Everyone leaves with out saying good bye,
I don't want you to go without my heart tied at your side.
I start to cry, your about to leave.
You sneak out to see me.
I smile so big, but the tears have shown.
You give me a hug,and a kiss that wouldn't be forgotten.
We talk for a bit, i let you go.
I can only wait for you to return back home.
Days and days, i feel the void.
Days by days i wish i could hear your voice.
But when you arrive i jump into your arms.
I secretly love you, that's for sure.
It sucks but i believe that when i write it from the heart, its probably the best poem.I hate the past,and broken hearts ):
For these tears can't show as much pain inside.
I know this is a mistake a dream at first.
But i want to wake up and run to you my dear.
To hold you agen and kiss you one more time.
If i knew tonight would be the last time spent.
I wouldn't ever go to sleep , lay there staring at you as you slept.
And tell you how much you truly do mean to me.
I can't hear your heart
I can't feel a pulse, i woke up and your gone.
It can't be true, please wake up.
Some body help me, he's dying.
But the truth is, your already dead.
When you walked out the door,
I would call you back just to hold you agen.
If i knew this would be the last moment shared.
I would sing your favorite song.
And wish you luck.
If i could i would switch places.
And just let you live.
But it's all gone now,your to far gone.
May angles lead you home.
May you find peace in your heart.
And may you always be set free.
Reach for the sky and just remeber me.
-Cammii-
Most pain is to wake up to someone you love dead.
KMC Community Forums
Jun 9th, 2009 05:24 AM
Wow... I can really feel what your talking about. Great job! 
