I speak from my lips
But my hearts the director
My minds the producer.
And my hands are the healer.
My bodys the keeper.
And my legs are the holder.
And my eyes are the teller.
Watch me as i go
For only i am only leaving a trail
Leaving my mark.
And im hiding in a mask away from you all.
For only i cant exsplain
Why i half to hide
I look in the mirror and feel the truth over lap the lies
Only if i could be the person i wish to be.
Maybe if i try harder.
Maybe my strive will reach.
For its you that holds me togather
For its you that makes me stronger
For its the love and pain that keeps me whole
For its your forgivness that makes me weep
I've done you wrong
I did you dirty
I cant take it back , i feel pityed.
I feel like trash
To be kicked to the side.
I feel the kidness of you swollow me whole.
You dont know what i have done
I riped this family to peices
My inteshons never came to that
I can never take it back,
You look at me and say thanks for staying true
But your eyes are riping me from the inside out.
I cant take lying to you.
But i cant lose you
Because if i do, ill lose me to.
I went agenst my word
my better jugdement
hes my ex
but inside i love him its deep with in
I have our child
growing from with in.
I wear your ring, that i am going to marry you in.
So all i can do is cut your name
deep in my arm.
Try to forget it
And this time never forget
that what i did was wrong
and never do it agen.
I love you so much
I dont want to lose you
For it has only been minutes
To the fatal hand counted down.
Till the last beat of your heart
To the last race of thoughts.
Till no second chances, no going back.
One leap to your death
Or step back to live.
To the memories and pain
To the smiles and cheers.
Much more to come
But the fall will end it.
One last call , no goodbye
No regrets no sorrows just fate taken place.
Laying down the picture
Laying down the ring,
You step forward, your back to the falls.
The air pushing on you, your body smashing agenst the waves.
Instent black covers you as you fade away.
No goodbyes, no sorrow,
Just fate taken place.
To the last beat of your heart
To the last racing thought.
Laying down the picture
The ring aside.
Moments till the end
Fate has come, and you are now dead.
I can recall, that night far ago.
When you knelt on one knee , asking me to marry you.
Only so young, and underage.
I know this is true, it couldnt be clearer.
I smile and put the ring on, your ring matches mine.
Simbol of love, a simbol of trust
Not to long after that
I have gotten pregnet,and i am carrying your child.
For it is honor that makes me happy.
But the fear of death coming closer.
Knowing it will kill me.
Im only so young.
But knowing ill be giving life is worth the risk.
I have fallen
Deep in love.
I cant get up,
im fallen and brused.
And im happy with that.
So it's been a year
So its been a while
Since i last held you in my arms
And seen your smile
I couldnt forget the nights spent togather
Are dreams and hopes crash onto the floor
That night wasnt fair
To neither of us.
Your life taken, and me left to gather the peices.
Though we where single.
But i never stoped loving you.
You never gave up on me.
Your wife to be.
For i can only cry
For i can only remeber
As each passing day goes i find out i miss you more.
For it wasnt fair
It wasnt right
Your dead now
And everyones leaving you behind.
But i stand here not leaveing
I wont ever leave
They will have to drag me away
Before i take anouther step.
I wont go down without a fight
I loved you to damn much
To forget you and leave you out of my mind.
May you rest in peace.
Its been a year
I can still feel you in my arms.
I can still see you standing under the mapple tree.
I can still hear you in me.
I miss you to damn much to forget about you.
Ill see you soon , when its my turn to die.
Blood sweat and tears do you know the feeling.
Pushing your self to the hardest but never reaching.
Giving up more than you should for someone you care.
Trying to help out but giving your self in the end.
**** that tonight i call it ends.
Its to the point im about to snap.
Loose self control, lets go from there.
The lights fade,and the horror starts.
I can't hold this anger back its grabbing me at my best.
Worked to the bone.
And my lungs collasping.
To be told this isnt enough .
**** that, I worked like a dog for you.
And this is how i get payed, with a smart remark, and disrepct.
Your nothing any better, im to young for this.
I wanted the best for your son, yea the ones thats struggling.
I opened up everything for you, but you let someone in.
And destroy what he has.
I shouldnt be so open minded, **** that im closing up.
Because your son has a child.
A knee in the fleash.
We work so hard to get rights over his son.
From the ***** who gave birth to him , is now hiding him.
Your a selfish little whore, money over your grandson.
I can carless of who i show to you.
Because im not the problem right now.
I give your son love and attechen, shy him away from his past.
Hold him during the night, take his suffering and tears away.
With that i fall madly in love.
I dont need your approval of who i can love dear.
It just happened to be your son.
Many females can give a damn about your son.
Just want him for his money.
Im the one standing behind your son, giving him the support he needs.
Pushing him to be his best. Work harder than he ever has.
To make something of him self, so he doesnt waste in this damn town.
I care for his son, just as if im the one who gave birth to him.
I dont need anything from your son, just love that hes been giving me.
Because like it or not, we are geting married, and having are own kid.
And keep pushing me hun , ill ****ing kill you.
Sorry i know not my type of poetry, just really stressed out over somethings.Love of my life father of my child , his mothers giving me hell.I been helping the love of my life try to get rights over his son, and try to give him something he truly wants. Memories with his son. I mean he has two bum ****s living with him, that doesnt pay rent threatins me and him. And where are friends, till they didnt like me and my love togather. My love cant kick him out because my loves mother owns the whole building. She cares about money over seeing her grandchild. Yea long story but just exsplaining alittle why this ones more violent.
Mother i hate you.
To the roaten core of you.
You call your self a mother.
But you really are not.
Starving your kids, for days on end.
So weak, we are shaking at the tips.
Are stumichs are growling, and are heads are spinging.
Protecting are selfs from your fists.
Laying down crying, this isnt right.
Fathers out of town, and we half to suffer.
Child hood shouldnt come like this.
We shouldnt feel this yet.
Mother i hate you.
Down to your roaten core.
For it was only harder to speak
But easyer to think about it.
Pregnet, at fivthteen , what the hell am i doing.
The feelings in my stumich are filling.
I'm so proud , but that cant stop my hands from shaking.
But the father holding onto me,telling me it will be ok.
A family being born, something i wanted all along.
Maybe waiting would be better, but it's done.
A little baby, a little life, i cant be prouder.
Silence runs, but telling my parents was a regret.
With out tears and yelling, arms being held open
The life i have is done, but a new adventcher is opening up.
And with the support and love.
I can stand on my own two feet.
And be a parent , its my fate.
You sleep like a angle.
You sound so small.
Your fingers grasping, only for life.
Holding onto every second.
Hoping to grow stronger.
But the pain you have tooken, is growing more my dear.
For a kid so young, a baby at fact.
You took so much, and you couldnt escape.
Laying in the bed, with a little mask.
Your eyes closed shut, and your heart beat shows.
But day after day.
Hour by hour, your growing weaker.
If we only knew what she did to you.
But your to young to speak.
I promise you baby ,your mother will pay.
Don't let them lie to you.
Think before you act.
This is your fault, this is what you have done.
Your a whore at fact, your price you half to pay.
Your geting out easy.
By killing your kid.
Don't let them lie, your baby can feel pain.
They know whats happening, they cant escape.
You know babys can feel pain,they move but they cant get away.
Did you know when you kill your kid inside your womb.
That when they inject the poisn.
Your baby grabs onto you.
Did you know it fights to live.
Your kid is smart.
But yet you make it pay.
Your mistake, by laying down, not protecting your self.
And your leting your mistake effect your kid.
Your not a mother ,your a killer.
And you will suffer, by the choise you made.
Sorry im in a baby mood, i am over two months pregnet, and I'm so happy, but i have been reading sick ,and sad reports about mothers geting a aborshon. And i learned babys do feel it when you kill them, they hold onto you, and they can move from the pain.But since they are in the womb they cant get out . So they enject this liquid which poisens the baby and kills it, but doesnt effect the mother. It's sick you know, i wouldnt ever bring that pain to my kid.
For the moments in life i can't get back.
For the laughs and smiles i can never see agen.
For the moments i missed.
I missed out on alot.
I grew up fast, didn't go out to play.
Didnt go with the girl on the friday nights.
I never went on double dates.
Or dyed my hair ,or go to the spa.
I really missed out on alot, child hood memoires are all a blurr.
What i half to do now is love every moment.
I cant regret what i have done.
All i half to do is keep going on.
Enjoying the life i have made.