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Ocean waves.

Listening to the waves,they speak the truth.
Biting my lips that that once was sealed.
Hiding my heart thats wants to heal.
Trying to move on but im stuck here.
Left on the shore,where we crashed.
You probable don't understand this,
You probably don't care,thats why you left.
With out any tears.
The summer nights,the midnight drives.
The smokey air,filled are lungs.
Holding close,like i was stuck.
We took the waves we meet up on the shore,together agen,got me sprung.
But we took a turn some where it shouldn't.
Are love crashed.
And now since where gone.
I learn how to grow.
Im stronger now,i beet you are too.
No more tears,and all my fears are gone.
The ocean waves crash at my feet and the sunsets comes.
Now since the day is gone,this seems like a new yer.
New life goals,and your not the one.
-Camille-

Every momment,Has is story
Every word,has its meaning.
Every life,has its purpes.
Every smile,has a hiding.
Every baby has its death.
All the years has a broken past.
Holding onto memmories,that wont last.
Is like holding onto to sharp broken glass.
Teenagers dont grow,some dont make it .
Milk turns to beers,and lolly pops turn to cigrates.
Every good deed brings 10 horribul things.
Nothing fixed
nothing pleased.
Love is broken in half,.
Sex is just a trick.
Life is just a fool.
To much risks are taken,and not enof gained.
And where shaming the world.
And the people who live in it.
So think before you do it.

-Camille-

No one knows what i think deep inside.
What i show is just a trick for your human eyes.
Listening to the wispier behind my back.
Portending i didn't hear those hurtful words.
Rumors start, friends will leave.
But that just shows they don't care about me.
I live my life not a bad deed,just the way i want.
People look,people stair,guys want,but they don't dare.
Dirty minds,trickily words.
This is what my life revolse.
I don't do anything,to shame my name,girls do what ever boys say.
People hurt others, people stab other.
Anger rises,and pride has died.
What did you learn when you looked me in the eye.
You learn nothing,you can careless, look where you wound up.
Look at your mess,you help no one ,your selfish greed.
You had it all but you fail to see.
The life you live isnt what you need.
Studied mistakes leave marks,some that make history,some that are gone.
Whisper me something,nice and sweet.
Look me in the eyes,and hold me once agen.
Take back what you did.
Earse the mess you made.
Give back the life you stolen.
And be that honarol student.

-Camille-

As she lays upon the floor,she holds her chest wishing for more.
Gasping for air,the pictures of him flashing through her head.
Tears burn as they slide down her checks.
Wondering where he can be.
A broken past,a blurry future.
She wished for the the world ,but she fell apart.
She took a chance on this this guy.
Wishing on the stars,falling from the sky.

Love is a drug,thats killing her inside.
Wanting more,addicting inside
She knows its eating,deep inside.
Isnt this what love is like.
Crying every night,And being alone at night.
Scream me something sweet,
hold me tight,leaning to the left where your warmth used to be .


chorse.;
Days go by as she crys.
Leting the people who she love slow fade.
Losing the grip of her life.
She crys
crys
crys.
Needig more,more,more.She cant handle this pressure.

End of chorse;


Living life with out him,watching him sway side to side.
Some girl with him,is killing her inside.
Step by step she is losing her sight.
The tears clog her bodys soar.
Leaving her life,in the past.


-Camille-
Still working on it.

Brought tears to my eye's. Beautiful, although some issues with spelling and a few mistakes tarnish the quality of the poems, a transient effort that gets and deserves the highest remarks. Well done! If you like, ask what Jacob thinks of me (Jedireaper) Best wishes!

Thanks =],that lifted my spirts,i needed to hear a good comment from some one,ya i do spell check allot,but it doesn't catch some of the words,or i spell them right but in a different meaning.But im working on them.And thanks =]

Trying to move forward,just to know i can still breath.
Holding on , but slipping down.
I can't hold this up anymore.
This game is a punishment,these thoughts brake me down.
You got every one watching when i hit the ground.
Looking at you,you pierce right through me.
You turned into something,that wants to hurt me.
Is this a show,is this what i deserve.
I remember a foggy night,when you held a flower.
And your hand on my heart,you start to cry.
You told me you loved me,you needed me by your side.
So i gave you kiss,a lovely smile,took your hands.
And placed them in my fingers.
That's a far memory these days,i miss the smokey air,the loving eyes.
As i sit on my knees with a black eye,i look up in tears.
Hoping to die,you yell and scream ,and blaim me.
I lie to the police say i got into a fight.
I love you,but i guess I'm blind .
My parents know I'm lying,there telling me there going to leave me behind.
Before i know it your warm hand touches mine,soft and gentle.
But soon turn painful.
I'm bleeding her ,crying my eyes.
You hit me one more time.
I'm laying on the floor dying.
Don't worry about me ill be just fine,as you leave,I'm left here dying.
You soon hide,when the cops find me I'm left dead on the floor.
My parents sob,my friends are heart broken,I'm a little girl.
I didn't make it into the big world.
My dreams are shattered,my said story told to the world.i sit there as my ghost form,watching them carry me.Done to the grave,they put me in,where i must lay.
I didn't get to finish high school,or even go to collage.
I cant start a family of mine,and have a loving husband at my side.
I never got the chance to go to that concert.I never got to join the track team.
I could never sing agen,to my crying eyed sister,who had a nightmare.
No more will i hug the people i love,smile one more time.
Death shouldn't be sad,its getting out of this world.

Screaming out
into the night air
the fresh air,filling my lungs.
Holding back what i half to say .
But I'm holding you my dear.
I look at you as you look away.
You know where this is going to go,I'm sorry my love.
But igeuss are love has fa-id.
We fight and yell.
Cry and scream...siting on top of this roof top,screaming out to you.
Wouldn't make you care any more.
Looking at you,i know its gone,..i found reasons...to move on.
I don't want this to end i don't, need this to be sad.
Leaving wount hurt..ill make it quickly in.No matter what you'll be in my heart..i left a mark.

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja


Trying to move forward,just to know i can still breath.
Holding on , but slipping down.
I can't hold this up anymore.
This game is a punishment,these thoughts brake me down.
You got every one watching when i hit the ground.
Looking at you,you pierce right through me.
You turned into something,that wants to hurt me.
Is this a show,is this what i deserve.
I remember a foggy night,when you held a flower.
And your hand on my heart,you start to cry.
You told me you loved me,you needed me by your side.
So i gave you kiss,a lovely smile,took your hands.
And placed them in my fingers.
That's a far memory these days,i miss the smokey air,the loving eyes.
As i sit on my knees with a black eye,i look up in tears.
Hoping to die,you yell and scream ,and blaim me.
I lie to the police say i got into a fight.
I love you,but i guess I'm blind .
My parents know I'm lying,there telling me there going to leave me behind.
Before i know it your warm hand touches mine,soft and gentle.
But soon turn painful.
I'm bleeding her ,crying my eyes.
You hit me one more time.
I'm laying on the floor dying.
Don't worry about me ill be just fine,as you leave,I'm left here dying.
You soon hide,when the cops find me I'm left dead on the floor.
My parents sob,my friends are heart broken,I'm a little girl.
I didn't make it into the big world.
My dreams are shattered,my said story told to the world.i sit there as my ghost form,watching them carry me.Done to the grave,they put me in,where i must lay.
I didn't get to finish high school,or even go to collage.
I cant start a family of mine,and have a loving husband at my side.
I never got the chance to go to that concert.I never got to join the track team.
I could never sing agen,to my crying eyed sister,who had a nightmare.
No more will i hug the people i love,smile one more time.
Death shouldn't be sad,its getting out of this world.


Wow, that took my breath away, a brilliant but sad ring that, I thought, would be perfect as an Eminem song. In fact these are all rather good and sad. Is there any reason for that... Anyway... very good. Much better than what I could probably write but please read some of my poetry sometime, in the end. Jacobs a lucky guy. To have you at his side. ((Matter of interest: Gangland troubles?))

Thanks i like your poetry my self.I write alot of poetry im slowly geting my time back for kmc,im busy alot and icant type it when im in school because read it and jugde it so ya.Im trying to wright a poem once a day now maybe 2.





Free as a bird,
Looking at the sky,holding you hand,while people walk by.
I smile at you,you smile right back.
You give me a hug,a simple kiss goodbye.
As you leave istart to cry, i know your going to dye.
As your ca-mo suit covers your scars.
Your going back to war,you barley make it out alive.
You said its right,to fight for your country.
But this is riping up my heart.
You know i love,i send you my luck,i send my hopes to you,my courage on your heart.
I wait months at a time faithful to you.
Getting letters every week from you,I'm scared and I'm worried,every single moment,the phone calls perice.
I don't know if there going to call ,saying your dead.
As one summer night i sat with my friends leting the time pass by,i got that call.
I been dreading,you where shot up.
And you where left to die.
Your not supposed to leave some one behind,your supposed to help your firmly,even if theres knifes.
The memories of you flash through my mind.
You told me this is whats going to happen,i half to suck it up.
You died for your country you died in pride.
Ill miss you my dear,no matter what you'll be at my side.

''You half to suck it up?" Good wartime poem from the home point of view. Yea I remember when you got frizzle over me messin with Dead Walk RP. lol I sent you a few PM's back then This is good, I will read as many of your poems as I can and write one dedicated to you soon. The Screams poem series is based on Hazmat RP by Jacob and Vampire RP with other inspirations... Good work 10*'s

How do you pronounce your name? Cam-ill-e

Thanks well i like your poems ill read them all soon in like a hour or so I'm just checking up on kmc before i go to Zack's house agen.I do remember you very well,when i was rping,i don't have the time right now to RP..stupid job,and I'm making plans for Jacob to come over to New york its his turn to come to me.I went to alabama for like 2 weeks fun. But i lost touch with you,I'm sorry =

I sit on top of the world looking down at the street lights below.
In hailing the sent,i once knew.
Baby we where un touchable.
But i guess those three words chased you away.
I miss your beauty,i miss your smile.
I miss the those winter night,where we sat there as the snow fell.
I was raped in your warmth,your strong arms held me so close.
But things fell apart and ,i guess we started to fail.
We started of best-friends,i wish i could have that back.
The silly games,the funny faces.
I just fell in love.
When the moment i came to say it.
You got scared and ran away.
Ill be stronger now,ill be better now.
Knowing you never felt the same.
But baby your time worth spent.
-Camille-

When you have no light to guide you
And no one to walk beside you
Just know ill guide you.
No need for tears, no more hiding,come with me my dear.
Ill show you a new side.
Ill take you from this world,yes I'm your angle.
I wanted to help you,but god made me stay behind.
Baby this is your fate,your not a bad girl,your only 5.
Sweetie look at me in my eyes,when you walk alone in the dark,ill guide you back into my arms.
Your parents are wrong they'll burn in hell.
Sweetie I'm sorry you didn't make it into this world.
As you go up you leave your friends behind,your story is told to the world.
This a sad story of a little girl,who only loved her mommy,and looked up to her daddy.
She wanted t osit on top of his shoulders,the highest place in the world.
And run to her mommy to hold her in her arms.
All she got was a beating and being tossed.
Locked away,crying and alone.
They spit nasty cold words,to this little girl.
There drunk and cant take the blame.
there selfish in every way.

As they lay you done in your new bed,they toss dirt over your casket.
People speak about you,as they remember you.
A sweet little blue eyed girl,oways wanting t oforgive.
She wanted to change the world.
She is gone now,shes siting in heaven,she didn't get the chance to live.
She didn't get the chance to feel.
All she had was pain and suffering she loved her mommy and daddy till the end

Your name is beautiful, Camille. Another batch of great poems, I think I'll review your poems as and when I can but I havnt had time to write any of my own really, might write one tonight. You live in NY? That place is cool. I'm from London. So how did you and Jacob meet?

Thanks every one loves my name but i dont really like it =\
Me and jacob meet on kmc a while back like a year or so ago,and been dating for like near 9months.
New york isnt really what people think of it,its a horrible place, i mean to much gangs and bullshit.Im from Alabama which i wish i still lived there but err =

Nope, gangs and drugs are everywhere here... I've written two new poems. Anyway I really love your poetry, its really brill. Would you like to read a story by me? visit http://www.fanfiction.net/~jedireaper please leave a review, Gloomy Ninja!

Well i geuss gangs are every where to then,god this world is a sad place.I read half of your story its really long ill read the other half when i come back its just i got to go now,but ireally like it =].

Oh, regarding your sig. I used to be famous on myspace... I just havn't been thee in a while. lol see ya!

Lol i got alot of friends in real life and on the computer i meet people from there.But since problem from last night has popped up i might not be on for a while.I'm being stalked by a young male,i mean i have stalkers,but this guy did some weird stuff last night.I have police and friend in other states notified and there coming to help me.I'm worried sick he knows where I'm at on he Internet..this is getting freaky so i might not be on for a week.

As you lay there sickas a dog.
You look for help,this is what you done.
I couldnt help but look away,this is what you made your fate.
I told you from the start,your a pretty young gal.
But you turned your head,in disgust.
I pull away from the room,tears fill my eyes,so does the pain.
Chocking on my air,trying to find away toget past this.
But i lost all hope,you lay there sick as a dog,you just broke down,the pills where your escape.
i want to take the blaim,of all your suffering and pain,but i blaim you my dear,only you.
You made your self sick for this petty game.
They didnt care about you i did,but no i half to look away.
Grabing to my neckless yoyu had gave me,i told you i wil lbe there till the end.
But i geuss this is the end.
Im sick and done.
-Camille-

Did this one really fast will fix it up

Stalker's

At every street corner,
In every major city,
They lay in wait,
Their beady eyes brooding under dark hoods.

An evil mind; twisted and insane,
Their motives unclear,
They watch, they see, they know,
Somehow they always know.

They see a young girl,
Follow her,
She panic's, runs,
Another lays in wait.

On the internet they are there,
Waiting,
Knowing,
Stalking. The physcological hoodlum.

They go through your trash,
They plan,
Their minds distraugt,
Looking for information.

"This world we live in, cruel. Unkind."
"The people we live with, vindictive. Evil."
"These cities, unforgiving. Wastlands."
"Death may be one way out. Don't be a fool!"

Death is an excuse for not owing up,
For the probelms we have caused,
Especially with this purgatory world,
The halfway point between heaven and hell.

The Stalkers they will always be there,
Nothing I can do,
Just sit and wait,
Despair, when they are there.

Stalker's.

-Kevin Traynor

I dunno if this is a good poem, but maybe it carries some meaning. Stay safe Camille, be safe.

Lmao thanks,its good =].
I am i got friends and jacob is coming to NF to keep me safe.
And i got a gun so lets see that stupied idote try.

I breath you in.
While you breath me out.
I take your hand,you pull out.
I try huging you,you make a excuse.
I tell you i love you,i stun you.
I told you i need you,you said you wanted me.
I told you your the only one,i wasnt the only one for you.

still working on it

Holding onto,a broken past.
Im screaming into this microphone i know you wount last.
Im crying out,into your ear.
I dont understand ,this not at all, this world is spining..out of control
As i drift out into my mind,your making me dizzy,your hurting me.
Yell on top of your lungs.
Sing with all your forse.
Baby run,before i lose my grip.Im going to spit your blood,onto this concret floor.
I took you into my arms,you cheated you hate.
Everything did,made you worse.Why cant you just leav me aloun,
You nasty whore.
I took a chance on you,when the people screamed not to,
You stupied **** ,look what you did,you are a sad breed.
I hope something will make you bleed.
I love you ,you scream,screw you.
You stupied skeez.
As you lay on the floor i laugh it all off.
Closing the door.

Is done now

-Camille-
Violent for my taste but i am bi and ya i did datea couple girls,she knows who the hell she is that i hate.

I havnt wrote for a while,going to add more.

So when you grow the guts to come back home.
Know that im not going to be at your side.
We built are home we built are bed,you know what i mean.
When we where young, my mother said don't fall in love
my father called you a phase,my sister said your bad.
I didnt listen and reached for you hand.
When years past,when i layed my head down,i open to see you face.
You where my life,i felt like i was one with you.
But when i layed my head down one night,my eyes open to find you gone.
Your bags packet,your heart gone,you leaving no trace.
Every day i felt the pain grow more and more in me.
The home we made,feels like all walls coming down.
When you grow the guts to come back home.
Baby im all ready gone.

Ok pulled the triger,you felt a rush,you felt your heart sink
you felt like you did wrong.When you open your eyes,you
screen over the area.
Till you see the blood gush .
You see the boy gasping for air,hes reaching out for help.
But standing there watching,hes almost about done.
The feel of the gun,imprents into your skin,the smoke arrising.
What have you done,your eyes locked you body stiff.
You hear others come near you,crys and screams,lift into the air.
When things go south,you know what you done.
Pulling back you start to run.
Some one crys hes dead,the words peirce your ears,and you fall to the floor.
When the cops come they grab you tight..time passes everything ends.
What happens to when anger gets the best of you?

fell

For only tears are shown,only the pain that is hiden away.
A smile so broken , a laugh so fake.
Whats become of me dear,why am i so weak.
I can't breath, this air is making me sick to my knees.
I pull away and start to walk down the street.
Only your face is printed in my brain.
When love is so strong it brakes my heart even more then its shown.
When only memories remain,how do i forget the pain.
The loving grace,the warmth of you arms feels so strong.
The sent of your shirt,glues me to like a fly to a wall.
Am i only just your toy,that you like to play.
Or am i the girl you really did love at the point.
Are you stronger then me,at the point of no return.
Can you feel my heart beat,thats skiping the beats.
Or am i just a faded memorie pushed back in your brain.
Will you ever love me the same way,or am i just tossed away.
I love you more then you can think,but this friendship is town inbatween.
-Camille-


Sorry i know spelling might be off im not re checking it its hard to type when smoking a ciggerate,but just a quick poem. I'm geting more into the habbit of writing here agen.

I'm the one scarping your blood off the carpet.
Im the one crying over your shoulder.
Im the one holding you close,to try to feel you .
Im the one left and broken.
Im your best friend,left in the dark,
Im the girl who was siting at your casket.
And im the one wishing you hadnt.
Im the one stairing at the gun,.
Im the one wishing you never pulled it.
Im the one wishing i could of seen it coming.
Im the one wishing you where here.
Im the girl that lost her whole world.
-Camille-


R.i.p andy

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja

Every momment,Has is story
Every word,has its meaning.
Every life,has its purpes.
Every smile,has a hiding.
Every baby has its death.
All the years has a broken past.
Holding onto memmories,that wont last.
Is like holding onto to sharp broken glass.
Teenagers dont grow,some dont make it .
Milk turns to beers,and lolly pops turn to cigrates.
Every good deed brings 10 horribul things.
Nothing fixed
nothing pleased.
Love is broken in half,.
Sex is just a trick.
Life is just a fool.
To much risks are taken,and not enof gained.
And where shaming the world.
And the people who live in it.
So think before you do it.

-Camille-



Wow, this one really hit me. I saw exactly what you were going for but it gets hazy towards the end. Do you have any other versions of this poem? You should think about giving the last three lines a little bit of retrospective care. I think, this one is potent.

I did edit it for my book, theses ones are just sloppy copys but ill post the other one up, i did edit the ending when i seen it and i put more thought to it.

Originally posted by jinXed by JaNx
That seems a lot better to me. It feels more fluid. I think you should try to find yourself a budding editor. That may help you very much.

I'm no one to give advice but i really think you have a great great piece of work right there. You should keep working on it because, i believe, with the right amount of care this poem could flow effortlessly off the tongue.

Thank you ^-^,i did not to long ago found some one to look over my work and help me fix what needs to be fixed.

As are words fall short
And are eyes blood shot.
We have are backs to the world.
And we are talking about are pasts.
We had fallen short, and we fell through.
Nothing left but broken picture frames.
And are hearts filled with pain
-Camille-

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
As are words fall short
And are eyes blood shot.
We have are backs to the world.
And we are talking about are pasts.
We had fallen short, and we fell through.
Nothing left but broken picture frames.
And are hearts filled with pain
-Camille-


great poem

Thank you (:.

We sit at this old broken table.
Are arms crossed and are eyes locking.
The achohal is coming in.
And are emotions coming out.
If i could only tell you what is upon my mind.
Maybe i can change your mind.
But I'm not trying to kill this moment.
This is bitterest yet sweetest thing that's arising
We leave this table are backs turn to each other.
Walking away as nothing has happened.
No body knows what happen
Yet it left a mark upon this broken old table.
That knows everything.

The waves are crashing
The sun set lowering ,
The summer air rising.
The sand sinking in are toes.
And are hearts beat as one.
Are hands locked together.
Are lips intertwine.
What a perfect moment.
Can it be.
Love is in the air.

I cant go on living like this.
I'm tierd of your lies.
I thought i could be strong
And walk away but we just run back
And tell each other we love each other.
But i cant live like this any more.
I can feel the pain and love sinking in my bones.
If i showed you what you do to me.
You would turn your cheek
Your my heart your my life.
But i got to walk away.

Welcome to the world my dear.
May your life carry on.
I wish you the best of luck
Grow big and strong.
Don't ever give up hope.
I'll always be here for you.
I'll be your gaurden angle from the skys above.
May you grow to be something great.
Some one smart.
May you frind some one to love you as much as i do.
And may life treat you good.

Hello dear, how are you? Nice poemsss

Nice poems, I like the messages conveyed in them, a lot of tragic, but inspiring ideas.
Very nice work.

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
Welcome to the world my dear.
May your life carry on.
I wish you the best of luck
Grow big and strong.
Don't ever give up hope.
I'll always be here for you.
I'll be your gardian angel from the skys above.
May you grow to be something great.
Some one smart.
May you find some one to love you as much as i do.
And may life treat you good. Corrected a spelling mistake.

Originally posted by Jedireaper
Hello dear, how are you? Nice poemsss
Pretty good , just working on some stuff, how about you doll ?
And thank you .

Originally posted by TheMercurial
Nice poems, I like the messages conveyed in them, a lot of tragic, but inspiring ideas.
Very nice work.

Thank you darling, i write them from the heart, i try to mix up my work but tragic is where i can shine at.

So we sit on these rooftops, separated with this space between.
As are thoughts incline in time, are faith is declining over night.
Will we ever reach are destination , or will we drift apart.
The stars shine so bright so strong,separated by thousands of miles.
Just like us tonight.
Will you ever come home.
Or will you arrive dead from the gun shots.
As the war wadges on i get more upset.
But I'll keep my faith in my heart that you'll come back.

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
So we sit on these rooftops, separated with this space between.
As are thoughts incline in time, are faith is declining over night.
Will we ever reach are destination , or will we drift apart.
The stars shine so bright so strong,separated by thousands of miles.
Just like us tonight.
Will you ever come home.
Or will you arrive dead from the gun shots.
As the war wadges on i get more upset.
But I'll keep my faith in my heart that you'll come back.

i like this one a lot.. very very good

Thank you, i wrote it because of my friends that where shiped out there a while ago.

Friend?

Great poems hun. Very touching

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
Thank you, i wrote it because of my friends that where shiped out there a while ago.


Keep up the good work

Thanks you guys,it means alot, i been working on these.(:

We scream we yell we hate we love.
We look away and we walk away.
The line between love and hate is broken between us.
No matter what you say , no matter what you prove.
I will always love you, as i did from the start.
You say you can't stand me but the look in your eyes says different.
You say you don't care but you rush to my side when I'm hurt and cold and cant handle anything anymore.
You act so different try to hide everything.
While i try to fix everything.
No matter what you do.
No matter what you say.
I love you,I'm here for you.
And only you.

I don't need to promise to stay with you forever.
Because promises are one thing.
But i'll all ways stay with you.
I don't need to promise something that i'll always do.
Because i love you and that the bottom line.
You cant change that fact that forever and always.
It will always be me and you.

So she crys out daddy why do you do this to me.
'Im only thirteen'
But all she gets in return is a another beating,and suffering alone.
In the day time she has to forget the memories she had endeared.
The pain she felt, the shame killing her inside.
She doesn't understand she is so young so small.
For her innocents to be stolen her body so torn.
Only a monster can do this,it's only sick and wrong.
To hurt your little angle,to grow up to be so messed up.
Is this normal did i deserves this.
She takes what she is given,she can't say a word.
She lays there without a word, hoping it will all end.
She closes her eyes wishing it was a nightmare.
But when the morning comes and the pain says different.
She only a little girl, so broken inside.
Her mother doesn't understand doesn't believe her at fact.
She turns away and leaves her so she can suffer some more.
Nothing can stop him, he creeps in her room at night.
She closes her eyes,and wishes she was alright.

you write such great poetry..

Thanks,one day i hope i can gather up all my poetry get it edited for spelling and grammer to make a book like my friend has done.

For only moments can tell.
For only moments till the end.
The burning is hurting.
And air is lacking.
I look over to see your face against the wheel.
No breathing , no moving.
I don't want to leave with out you.
I can't see the pain is swelling.
The sounds over whelming , people are screaming.
Are car lays in the middle of the street.
Flipped and bent and crushing us to death.
I slowly reach for your hand.
I won't leave you dear.
Like the words that are said.
Death do we part.

The clock is ticking.
The pain is kicking.
I look down , i made a mistake.
It is to late to take back what i did.
Foolish i was what have i done.
I take a look around to see who is left with me.
No one is here,I'm all alone.
I cuddle close to hide my self.
To see that it's almost here.
The child i was barring is about to come here.
I should of never had sex.
I should of known better.
He would leave.
My parents would not agree.
I was kicked out abandoned you can say.
I'm only still young.
My life is a mess.
I can't go a day without crying, i can't take this any longer.
So take the baby.
And leave me to rest.
I can't live like this.
I can't be a mess.

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
Thanks,one day i hope i can gather up all my poetry get it edited for spelling and grammer to make a book like my friend has done.

that would be very good.. you are very talented

cry Wow... I can really feel what your talking about. Great job!

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Originally posted by BruceSkywalker
that would be very good.. you are very talented

Thanks for the support (:.
The only thing i don't know how to do is how to form a poetry book.Or find someone to edit it for me and everything.

Originally posted by ~Bun Bun~
cry Wow... I can really feel what your talking about. Great job!

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Thanks that ment a lot to me, thats what i been working on the most. Trying to get people to understand and feel what i am saying.

Forever you said.
It hit me harder then anything.
The tears it brought , the feeling that filled me.
I looked up to you as if you where the best thing in the world.
The moments we has shared.
The Passion we had felt was bacily felt unreal.
I couldn't think how love had felt till you walked through the door.
Into my life , and took my hand into yours.
You speak words so smooth so sweetly.
But the truth be hind them is shattering.
How you lie so perfect, you seem so amazing.
How i can't get enough of you, how your touch makes me shiver.
I guess forever meant only for a little while.
I guess i was wrong on the definition of forever.
Forever you said.
What a perfect lie to be together.

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
Thanks for the support (:.
The only thing i don't know how to do is how to form a poetry book.Or find someone to edit it for me and everything.





no prob..

Betrayal she whispered.
This couldn't be.
It hurt so much it was killing her inside.
Everything they where everything they had done.
All the love shattered, all the pain coming.
He stood so tall she wanted him back.
Best friends with a knife in her back.
She felt the air chocking her to death.
He kept his eyes locked straight a head.
Moments passed before he spoke agen
'I'm sorry i had to tell him'
With anger and rage the words spilled out.
He stood there in shock as she let it all out.
'How could you do this to me i ****ing love you'
The pain was killing them he had already made a mess.
She wanted it to be fake,she wished it wasn't real.
Her stomach was killing her ,and her head felt detached.
They stood there in silence, with a hurt face that showed alot.
The shadows covered them, the wind pushing through them.
He told her the truth knowing it was killing her more.
But the pain he had he couldn't hold in any more.
It was better to tell her right here then later.
After he was done he walked with her.
They turned there backs and gave each other that glance.
Knowing this friend ship was done, knowing they couldn't go back.
Lovers at first then friends at last.
They tryed to keep it together.
But it couldn't last.
They both walked back to back more away.
She glanced back with tears in his eyes.
He didn't look back he kept walking
As if he wasn't hurt.



^Long i know,lost a best friend,that i had dated and loved so long, had to let it out.I know this probably isn't as good as the others,but i put my pain and my heart into it.

Amazing!

Thanks i mean i put all my feelings into it.
(:

If i could i would take it back.
I feel so weak ,so broken i made a mistake.
My heads spinning my stomach is aching .
My skin feels numb i can't see straight.
I didn't know i would disappoint you.
I didn't know i could hurt you.
I've been sober now but tonight I'm being riped right open.
So pass me the bottle ill drink to the pain.
Cheers to the pain and cheers to no hope.
If i could i would fall to pieces just to show you.
Everything i am and nothing that you want.
I'm only so young i don't know wrong from right.
Mommy open the door I'm freezing out here.
I can see you and daddy talking and your crying out your pain.
Please I'm your little girl i cant make it out here alone.
I love you i'm just a little kid.
So please let me back in.

Yea anouther one i wrote.I gave up achohal because of writing this,and the story behind it,i got kicked out for drinking when i was younger.Pretty much sucked.

Well i have alot of time now,because i broke my ankle and my foot,so I'm going to be writing more.

I don't know whats the point of loving you.
I don't know why you have that vibe you give off.
I don't know why you draw me in with your charm.
How you got me under your spell.
Where you can brake me .Where you can destroy me.
Then i relies it's because you love me.



Short, i might work on this later ,i have no clue , tell me what you think (:

I never wanted to say good bye
I never wanted to be the one who walked away.
This want my intentions, i swear.
I just can't hold back these tears.
You pushed me to this point .
I can't back up anymore.
If you could just see whats going on.
Maybe you would understand a little more.

I only speak the truth
I can not tell a lie.
Girl i fell head over heels for you.
I know we arnt togather right now.
This space between us is keeping us apart
And i wish i could be at your side .
You make me smile with your voice on the line.
When you speak you make my heart beat faster.
You took me when i was down on my luck.
You changed everything over a phone.
You opened your heart you opened your mind,
I know theres miles between us.
But absence makes the heart gro founder.




I wrote this out of care and waiting for my girlfriend to come to the U.S.

Mother why?
I tryed to be who you wanted me to be .
But i cant control my heart.
My mind is set
Can't you see I'm happy,
With who i want to be.
I want to be free
I want to love.
Just because i like both genders.
Doesn't degrade me.
I stand so tall , i stand strong.
Mother you where always there for me.
You turned your back , i can see.
I can hear your re-marks i can feel your deadly glairs.
People don't like it, it's hard on me.
The person i want to turn to, is ashamed of me.
Mother i why ?
I love you , i love her.
Why can't you just let it be.
Mother i need you , please don't give up on me.
I'm sorry for who i am ,this is destiny.
I can't fight fate, i can't control what happens around me.
Mother why ?
Why are you doing this to me.

Aww wow really good one! You'll make it through

Thanks doll for the support(:

You know how i get.
When you come around.
When your eyes lock mine.
I know i show.
You take a look at me and try to apologize.
Your late you had ruined are plans.
You give me a hug a kiss goodbye.
I watch you walk right by me i want to
call you back just to have you at my side.
Your leaving for a week , you seem to be everything to me.
I fake it at school so i can go home to try to talk to you.
I only want you to know i love you.
But i think i might scare you.
For its starting to be fall, love is rising in the air.

Everyone leaves with out saying good bye,
I don't want you to go without my heart tied at your side.
I start to cry, your about to leave.
You sneak out to see me.
I smile so big, but the tears have shown.
You give me a hug,and a kiss that wouldn't be forgotten.
We talk for a bit, i let you go.
I can only wait for you to return back home.

Days and days, i feel the void.
Days by days i wish i could hear your voice.
But when you arrive i jump into your arms.
I secretly love you, that's for sure.



It sucks but i believe that when i write it from the heart, its probably the best poem.I hate the past,and broken hearts ):

For these tears can't show as much pain inside.
I know this is a mistake a dream at first.
But i want to wake up and run to you my dear.
To hold you agen and kiss you one more time.
If i knew tonight would be the last time spent.
I wouldn't ever go to sleep , lay there staring at you as you slept.
And tell you how much you truly do mean to me.
I can't hear your heart
I can't feel a pulse, i woke up and your gone.
It can't be true, please wake up.
Some body help me, he's dying.
But the truth is, your already dead.
When you walked out the door,
I would call you back just to hold you agen.
If i knew this would be the last moment shared.
I would sing your favorite song.
And wish you luck.
If i could i would switch places.
And just let you live.
But it's all gone now,your to far gone.
May angles lead you home.
May you find peace in your heart.
And may you always be set free.
Reach for the sky and just remeber me.
-Cammii-
Most pain is to wake up to someone you love dead.

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
You know how i get.
When you come around.
When your eyes lock mine.
I know i show.
You take a look at me and try to apologize.
Your late you had ruined are plans.
You give me a hug a kiss goodbye.
I watch you walk right by me i want to
call you back just to have you at my side.
Your leaving for a week , you seem to be everything to me.
I fake it at school so i can go home to try to talk to you.
I only want you to know i love you.
But i think i might scare you.
For its starting to be fall, love is rising in the air.

Everyone leaves with out saying good bye,
I don't want you to go without my heart tied at your side.
I start to cry, your about to leave.
You sneak out to see me.
I smile so big, but the tears have shown.
You give me a hug,and a kiss that wouldn't be forgotten.
We talk for a bit, i let you go.
I can only wait for you to return back home.

Days and days, i feel the void.
Days by days i wish i could hear your voice.
But when you arrive i jump into your arms.
I secretly love you, that's for sure.



It sucks but i believe that when i write it from the heart, its probably the best poem.I hate the past,and broken hearts ):

Originally posted by Gloomy Ninja
For these tears can't show as much pain inside.
I know this is a mistake a dream at first.
But i want to wake up and run to you my dear.
To hold you agen and kiss you one more time.
If i knew tonight would be the last time spent.
I wouldn't ever go to sleep , lay there staring at you as you slept.
And tell you how much you truly do mean to me.
I can't hear your heart
I can't feel a pulse, i woke up and your gone.
It can't be true, please wake up.
Some body help me, he's dying.
But the truth is, your already dead.
When you walked out the door,
I would call you back just to hold you agen.
If i knew this would be the last moment shared.
I would sing your favorite song.
And wish you luck.
If i could i would switch places.
And just let you live.
But it's all gone now,your to far gone.
May angles lead you home.
May you find peace in your heart.
And may you always be set free.
Reach for the sky and just remeber me.
-Cammii-
Most pain is to wake up to someone you love dead.


these two are very beautiful

Awie thanks doll(:
That made my whole day
=D

Wow, amazing love. And what you speak is so true.

I stair at the floor
I look at light.
I see the pain coming over me.
I feel my heart brake.
My stomach in pain, the ink goes deep.
Gay pride it shines,it is true it seems.
But your the only guy that has ever took my heart.
Later that night achohal sinks into my veins.
Poising me, i can't believe. The room is spinning.
Faces blurrying, you walk in the room, i feel the tears.
I know we where both single, but you told me you loved me.
I thought we would be together, i thought you wanted me.
She seen us together, holding each others hand.
When i left she kissed you,how could that be.
Rumors have it you wanted her to, you held her close.
Replaced me.
I can't breath i cant accept you broke me in half.
You wont listen to me.
You yell you scream, say you care about me.
But now i think your just playing with me.


Ahh, the pain of love.

these poems are what happened to me ,a couple days ago..they go in line in what happenOriginally posted by Gloomy Ninja
I stair at the floor
I look at light.
I see the pain coming over me.
I feel my heart brake.
My stomach in pain, the ink goes deep.
Gay pride it shines,it is true it seems.
But your the only guy that has ever took my heart.
Later that night achohal sinks into my veins.
Poising me, i can't believe. The room is spinning.
Faces blurrying, you walk in the room, i feel the tears.
I know we where both single, but you told me you loved me.
I thought we would be together, i thought you wanted me.
She seen us together, holding each others hand.
When i left she kissed you,how could that be.
Rumors have it you wanted her to, you held her close.
Replaced me.
I can't breath i cant accept you broke me in half.
You wont listen to me.
You yell you scream, say you care about me.
But now i think your just playing with me.


Ahh, the pain of love.



We been friend for year or so now.
You can feel my tears press agenst you chest.
You tell me to forget him, hes not worth the pain.
I can't beleive you would give me more achohal.
I had enough , i feel so sick so weak so dead on the inside.
I cant sleep here to night, my brothers passed out and high.
So i go into you room i layed my side.
Tears flooding you rock me at my side.
I feel the numbness come over me.
Its starting to get dark i pass out at your side.
Alone laying there passed out drunk.
You start to touch me in places you shouldnt.
You tart to come in side,im trying to wake up and cry.
After you finshed i was awake,scared and broken.
Are friend ship means nothing.So when you fall asleep i get up and run
My heart is pounding my lungs collapsing.
I run to my brothers aparment right next door.
I scream for help i collaspe at the door.
Wake up brother i just got raped.
Im going to have a panic attack im going to die on the floor.
You pick me up carry me in , you calm me down
And hold me so strong.
Your girlfriends talking rubing the tears away.
You make me in hail the ciggerate, so i can calm down for a second.
You lay me on the couch, say its five in the morning .
I need sleep im starting to get sick.
You made me fall asleep but i woke up on the couch right next to your bed.
You tell my friend what happened he started to flip.
And grabed me tightly.
You start to cry you ay your sorry i should of stayed with you last night,
He went for hi knife to cut up the mother ****er who did this to me.
I told you i needed you,the pain is killing me inside.
So you just hold me never let me leave your side.
Are fight is gone.
Your asking for me back.
Im scared to take you back.
But i want you so we are going to work things out.

Just pray you can find me.
Passed out on the overpass .
When you come across me don't walk the other way.
You did this to me, you broke me.
I walk around this town like i own the streets .
I took the road of broken dreams.
I can't look back , because all i would see is my past.
I got to move on ,and i got to keep living.
When you lay your head down do you dream of me.
Because i dream of you.
Mother and Father do miss me.
Because i miss you.
Terribly.


Two of those line in there are lyrics to a song, by brand new

I walk a thin line between broken and repair.
Steady as i go , before i brake down right here.
Watch the tapes of when i was younger.
Two front teeth missing, and me learning as i go.
Being forced to grow up wasn't fair to me.
I haven't even reached eighteen.
The static of the tape brushes over, the smiles and laughter
Grow more distanced then ever.
Don't ever let go ,because i will fall and never return home.
I sit here all alone, with a bottle of vodka to drown my thoughts.
And the other hand holds a cigarette to in hail my mistakes.
I got a face full of tears and heart that is braking.
I lay back and watch these tapes.And just drink everything away.
I walk a think line of broken and repair.
All i do is sit is watch the clock to collect my thoughts.
I was made to chase dreams.
But never reach.

With a cry and a scream
With a smile and joy
Life was given.
Pure of the soul
A baby was born.
The suffering and the hardtack.
To hand your child away.
Into the hands of another parent.
To watch them carry on with out you there.
Your blinded by the walls.
For the family to watch them grow.
As your life Carry's on with a empty hand.
You child is growing up, faster then you would think.
Starting school and making friends.
To be growing up to live the life as a teenager.
Not long till she finds some one to settle down with.
To start a family and forget her child hood past.
You gave your child up for better reasons.
To give her life you couldn't give her.
Your heart is broken but yet repaired.
Knowing shes sleeping in the arms of a family that cares.
Just like you do.
Giving her everything she needs to grow up and be happy.
She cares for you no matter what.
No matter how many time you see her.
Or hear her voice.
Its love either way.
She calls you dad, acts like your with her.
Tells you everything that is going on.
And you play a part in her life.
And she knows you love her.
And shes happy for your sacrifice.


I wrote this for my father , Being adopted is fun yet hard.You have to familys and it puts alot on you .But knowing they love you is the best part.And knowing the reason why im adopted im very proud of my parents.

Count your blessings
Your still breathing baby.
You took it for granted , and you where left shattered.
They broke you and destroyed you.
Riped you piece by piece.
They smashed you and tasted your blood.
And they couldn't stop.
They cut you and stabbed you.
Your blood spilling like a alcoholic.
You can taste death , and you cant take it.
You want it to end , just to lay there dead.
They kick you one last time and run off.
Your losing your mind, and your rushed to the hospital.
You cant hold it back the pain is making you scream.
You should of took a different way .
You look around nerves.
I'm here but I'm disappointed.
What where you thinking ?

hug

I really teared up reading these.

Great!

Thanks hun,i been very poetic lately.

I know what you mean. Just lately for me my mind hasn't been very clear which makes it hard, for me at least.

Yea i know how that shit is.
I went through it, but then it all just came to me.

Now that your gone.
The pain is the only thing holding me.
The only thing i can do is lay here with tears.
There's no going back.
No last chance.
No fresh start.
No more 'love you'
No more late night calls.
No more open arms.
No more holding hands.
The kisses that made me weak at my knees.
No more breathing.
No more steady heart beat.
That plays my favorite song.
You didn't leave.
Life took you away.
The pictures that hung on my walls.
Lays smashed on the floor.
Your shirt is riped up , and the pillows smell like you.
Everything you mean to me means nothing.
Now that your gone.
There's no more tomorrow.

Lay down the fire arms.
Walk through the speeding bullets.
Lay down your fists.
And walk through the fight.
Fall into my arms,and return home.
These streets is where you will die.
If you carry on here.
Return home, i can't sleep.
You been gone for a while now.
Dope isnt what you should eat.
Come home your driving me crazy.
When i see you, your facing four walls.
I raised you better then this.
Where did i go wrong.
Come home.
I can't stand this.
Lay down the fire arm.
And rest.
Because your driving me crazy.
Your so close to death you can taste it.
Hun you dont need this.
I love you.
Stop this fighting.
They dont care
They will use you for your life.
This is driving me crazy.

It's so real, I love it!

These are fantastic, Cam. I'm very impressed.

Thank you (:
I'm happy that im geting some where with my poetry.

With a touch
With a glance
To a kiss to the fake love.
To the pain to the heartbrake
The feelings the pleaser.
The heavy breath
The holding on
To the lies, With the wrong inteshons.
To a one night stand relshonship.
With questons un asked.
Summer nights are the biggest mistakes,
With every sip your saying yes.
But with a sober heart you say no.
But your drunken mind says yes to your heart tonight.
You cant take back the mistake.
Scars heal but never fade.
So breath easy girl.
This is just a mistake.

The reason why i keep writing is because of all of you, With all the support i have from you guys keep me going.Feel free to tell me what to work on , it will help a lot. And i respect your opinons.

My biggest support is from my soon to be husban. (:
And are kid is on his or her way soon , i hope .So ill be working more on my poetry i need some tips.
I need to get a couple more hundred poems to finsh my book.
And im looking for intresting topics.
So please feel free to talk about some

You call him your god.
You call him your savior.
But i refuse to look at it that way,
He might of died for us.
But i never asked him to
When i was girl i looked up to him.
But now i just look away.
You turned on me.
So i will do the same
You tooked my loved ones
Did i ever do the same?
I fail to see that i have.
So why do you do,
The pain and suffering the struggling and tears.
All i have done you never helped me,
I believed i prayed, i got on my knees
I never called you on anything, just one thing
To keep my loved ones alive, to end there suffering.
You didn't help me when i was laying in the street.
Broken , hurt, and raped you seem to ignore me.
You didn't protect me to the thugs and whores, calling after me.
To leave me bleeding and near death.
What did i ever do to deserve this.
I preached your word, spread it sea to sea
But you'll never be there
So your existence is fake.
If your so loving
If your so kind.
If your so forgiving
Then why bring the pain.
**** the word
**** the bible
Ill be on my own.
If i burn in hell let it be.
Because i never counted on you.
And ill turn my cheek.


I know allot of miss spelling to lazy to edit , will do later.

This is not to offend anyone that believes in god , first poem of god.

For only i knew
That the last time i seen you
Was when you walked out my door.
For only i knew the last words i said
Was i hate you and for you to leave
For only i knew
That the last time i got to hold you
Was a couple night before.
For only i knew the last time i felt you
Was when i smacked you.
For only i knew
That the last time i said i loved you.
Was when i watched you fall asleep.
Was the night before.
For only i knew.
That today was your last.
I would forgive you for everything.
Drop to my knees and weep.
For only i knew what your intentions were
I would tell you to stay.
If i knew you would fight that night.
I would take the bullets and the pain.
For only i knew that you die,
I would gave you my life instead.
For only i could.
Tell you goodbye one last time.

I speak from my lips
But my hearts the director
My minds the producer.
And my hands are the healer.
My bodys the keeper.
And my legs are the holder.
And my eyes are the teller.
Watch me as i go
For only i am only leaving a trail
Leaving my mark.
And im hiding in a mask away from you all.
For only i cant exsplain
Why i half to hide
I look in the mirror and feel the truth over lap the lies
Only if i could be the person i wish to be.
Maybe if i try harder.
Maybe my strive will reach.

For its you that holds me togather
For its you that makes me stronger
For its the love and pain that keeps me whole
For its your forgivness that makes me weep
I've done you wrong
I did you dirty
I cant take it back , i feel pityed.
I feel like trash
To be kicked to the side.
I feel the kidness of you swollow me whole.
You dont know what i have done
I riped this family to peices
My inteshons never came to that
I can never take it back,
You look at me and say thanks for staying true
But your eyes are riping me from the inside out.
I cant take lying to you.
But i cant lose you
Because if i do, ill lose me to.
I went agenst my word
my better jugdement
hes my ex
but inside i love him its deep with in
I have our child
growing from with in.
I wear your ring, that i am going to marry you in.
So all i can do is cut your name
deep in my arm.
Try to forget it
And this time never forget
that what i did was wrong
and never do it agen.
I love you so much
I dont want to lose you

Nice poems.

Its heartfelt melancholy is haunting, the broodiness and sadness of some of your poems I can totally relate to.

I like these, nice job, keep up the good work.

Thanks guys (:
This means alot .

For it has only been minutes
To the fatal hand counted down.
Till the last beat of your heart
To the last race of thoughts.
Till no second chances, no going back.
One leap to your death
Or step back to live.
To the memories and pain
To the smiles and cheers.
Much more to come
But the fall will end it.
One last call , no goodbye
No regrets no sorrows just fate taken place.
Laying down the picture
Laying down the ring,
You step forward, your back to the falls.
The air pushing on you, your body smashing agenst the waves.
Instent black covers you as you fade away.
No goodbyes, no sorrow,
Just fate taken place.
To the last beat of your heart
To the last racing thought.
Laying down the picture
The ring aside.
Moments till the end
Fate has come, and you are now dead.

Inspirational.

I can recall, that night far ago.
When you knelt on one knee , asking me to marry you.
Only so young, and underage.
I know this is true, it couldnt be clearer.
I smile and put the ring on, your ring matches mine.
Simbol of love, a simbol of trust
Not to long after that
I have gotten pregnet,and i am carrying your child.
For it is honor that makes me happy.
But the fear of death coming closer.
Knowing it will kill me.
Im only so young.
But knowing ill be giving life is worth the risk.
I have fallen
Deep in love.
I cant get up,
im fallen and brused.
And im happy with that.

So it's been a year
So its been a while
Since i last held you in my arms
And seen your smile
I couldnt forget the nights spent togather
Are dreams and hopes crash onto the floor
That night wasnt fair
To neither of us.
Your life taken, and me left to gather the peices.
Though we where single.
But i never stoped loving you.
You never gave up on me.
Your wife to be.
For i can only cry
For i can only remeber
As each passing day goes i find out i miss you more.
For it wasnt fair
It wasnt right
Your dead now
And everyones leaving you behind.
But i stand here not leaveing
I wont ever leave
They will have to drag me away
Before i take anouther step.
I wont go down without a fight
I loved you to damn much
To forget you and leave you out of my mind.
May you rest in peace.
Its been a year
I can still feel you in my arms.
I can still see you standing under the mapple tree.
I can still hear you in me.
I miss you to damn much to forget about you.
Ill see you soon , when its my turn to die.

Horribul mood so im going to write.


Blood sweat and tears do you know the feeling.
Pushing your self to the hardest but never reaching.
Giving up more than you should for someone you care.
Trying to help out but giving your self in the end.
**** that tonight i call it ends.
Its to the point im about to snap.
Loose self control, lets go from there.
The lights fade,and the horror starts.
I can't hold this anger back its grabbing me at my best.
Worked to the bone.
Sweat draining.
And my lungs collasping.
To be told this isnt enough .
**** that, I worked like a dog for you.
And this is how i get payed, with a smart remark, and disrepct.
Your nothing any better, im to young for this.
I wanted the best for your son, yea the ones thats struggling.
I opened up everything for you, but you let someone in.
And destroy what he has.
I shouldnt be so open minded, **** that im closing up.
Because your son has a child.
A knee in the fleash.
We work so hard to get rights over his son.
From the ***** who gave birth to him , is now hiding him.
Your a selfish little whore, money over your grandson.
I can carless of who i show to you.
Because im not the problem right now.
I give your son love and attechen, shy him away from his past.
Hold him during the night, take his suffering and tears away.
With that i fall madly in love.
I dont need your approval of who i can love dear.
It just happened to be your son.
Many females can give a damn about your son.
Just want him for his money.
Im the one standing behind your son, giving him the support he needs.
Pushing him to be his best. Work harder than he ever has.
To make something of him self, so he doesnt waste in this damn town.
I care for his son, just as if im the one who gave birth to him.
I dont need anything from your son, just love that hes been giving me.
Because like it or not, we are geting married, and having are own kid.
And keep pushing me hun , ill ****ing kill you.



Sorry i know not my type of poetry, just really stressed out over somethings.Love of my life father of my child , his mothers giving me hell.I been helping the love of my life try to get rights over his son, and try to give him something he truly wants. Memories with his son. I mean he has two bum ****s living with him, that doesnt pay rent threatins me and him. And where are friends, till they didnt like me and my love togather. My love cant kick him out because my loves mother owns the whole building. She cares about money over seeing her grandchild. Yea long story but just exsplaining alittle why this ones more violent.

Mother i hate you.
To the roaten core of you.
You call your self a mother.
But you really are not.
Starving your kids, for days on end.
So weak, we are shaking at the tips.
Are stumichs are growling, and are heads are spinging.
Protecting are selfs from your fists.
Laying down crying, this isnt right.
Fathers out of town, and we half to suffer.
Child hood shouldnt come like this.
We shouldnt feel this yet.
Mother i hate you.
Down to your roaten core.

For it was only harder to speak
But easyer to think about it.
Pregnet, at fivthteen , what the hell am i doing.
The feelings in my stumich are filling.
I'm so proud , but that cant stop my hands from shaking.
But the father holding onto me,telling me it will be ok.
A family being born, something i wanted all along.
Maybe waiting would be better, but it's done.
A little baby, a little life, i cant be prouder.
Silence runs, but telling my parents was a regret.
With out tears and yelling, arms being held open
The life i have is done, but a new adventcher is opening up.
And with the support and love.
I can stand on my own two feet.
And be a parent , its my fate.

Nice, I like the last one.

Thank you (:

Originally posted by Cammii
For it was only harder to speak
But easyer to think about it.
Pregnet, at fivthteen , what the hell am i doing.
The feelings in my stumich are filling.
I'm so proud , but that cant stop my hands from shaking.
But the father holding onto me,telling me it will be ok.
A family being born, something i wanted all along.
Maybe waiting would be better, but it's done.
A little baby, a little life, i cant be prouder.
Silence runs, but telling my parents was a regret.
With out tears and yelling, arms being held open
The life i have is done, but a new adventcher is opening up.
And with the support and love.
I can stand on my own two feet.
And be a parent , its my fate.

its been a while since i've read your poems cammii, but this one is very good

Thank you, im working on it, i wrote it before i left my house that day, its kind of sloopy.

You sleep like a angle.
You sound so small.
Your fingers grasping, only for life.
Holding onto every second.
Hoping to grow stronger.
But the pain you have tooken, is growing more my dear.
For a kid so young, a baby at fact.
You took so much, and you couldnt escape.
Laying in the bed, with a little mask.
Your eyes closed shut, and your heart beat shows.
But day after day.
Hour by hour, your growing weaker.
If we only knew what she did to you.
But your to young to speak.
I promise you baby ,your mother will pay.

Don't let them lie to you.
Think before you act.
This is your fault, this is what you have done.
Your a whore at fact, your price you half to pay.
Your geting out easy.
By killing your kid.
Don't let them lie, your baby can feel pain.
They know whats happening, they cant escape.
You know babys can feel pain,they move but they cant get away.
Did you know when you kill your kid inside your womb.
That when they inject the poisn.
Your baby grabs onto you.
Did you know it fights to live.
Your kid is smart.
But yet you make it pay.
Your mistake, by laying down, not protecting your self.
And your leting your mistake effect your kid.
Your not a mother ,your a killer.
And you will suffer, by the choise you made.

Sorry im in a baby mood, i am over two months pregnet, and I'm so happy, but i have been reading sick ,and sad reports about mothers geting a aborshon. And i learned babys do feel it when you kill them, they hold onto you, and they can move from the pain.But since they are in the womb they cant get out . So they enject this liquid which poisens the baby and kills it, but doesnt effect the mother. It's sick you know, i wouldnt ever bring that pain to my kid.

I might be having twins i cant wait to find out.

For the moments in life i can't get back.
For the laughs and smiles i can never see agen.
For the moments i missed.
I missed out on alot.
I grew up fast, didn't go out to play.
Didnt go with the girl on the friday nights.
I never went on double dates.
Or dyed my hair ,or go to the spa.
I really missed out on alot, child hood memoires are all a blurr.
What i half to do now is love every moment.
I cant regret what i have done.
All i half to do is keep going on.
Enjoying the life i have made.

Please dont say no more.
I think I'm going to brake.
Please dont mean that.
My heart feels like its craking.
All i wanted was to stay togather.
But you want to fall apart.
You said to always hold on, but i guess you didnt want to anymore.
I never seen it coming i never really thought,
That i see this day.
When we go are own ways.

Brother oh brother
Why do you play these games.
Brother oh brother
Do you still care for this family.
Please don't leave,
If you do my heart will brake
Brother oh brother
why do make things a mess
Will you ever grow up
Or just keep playing these games
You know i love you
I wish you felt the same.
I'm tierd of chasing you
Geting the same old thing.
When things get hard
you tend to leave.
Brother oh brother
Why stab me in the back
Didnt i help you when you down and alone
Didnt i fight for you enough
To show you do mean something to me
Though you made mistake
Ruined your life
You should always try to make things better
Brother oh brother
why do this to me ?

I smile
I laugh
I hold hands, I tend to have a blast.
With friends at my side
Seem to make life some what easyer
To forget about the past
And make more memories to look back upon.
You always half to move on.
Make life worth living for
To make every moment feel like it's your last.
Live it up, Make a mess.
Say to hell to the people who make you feel bad.
And just live your life
It's yours to live.

I can't keep on living
While the world is turning black.
Where everyones in black and white
No happyness, Just work.
I can't stand where this has turned.

Very nice!

Scythe i never knew you came to the poetry corner .! =D

And thank you very much.

Originally posted by Cammii
Scythe i never knew you came to the poetry corner .! =D

And thank you very much.

Every once in awhile, I do. I only comment on stuff that I like though, so keep up the good work, mhmm.

Lets run.
As far as are legs can take us.
Spead the word
And yell it at the top of our lungs.
Lets change this place
Maybe shed some light
To the people who has nothing to guide them.
Lets stop this hate
Stop the crimes.
Save some lives
Shed some tears
And show some smiles.
We need to save people.
Before everyone dies out there.
Because times runing short.
And people are giving up.
We need to save this place
Before it faids away

Remember when you held me
That other night
When you said your going to take me home
And ill be all yours agen
You dont know how much that touched my heart.
I want to remind you ,i loved you at first sight
Your smile makes me want to smile right back
Your eyes take me to place i can never reach on my own
Your lips take my breath
And you hands hold me closer than i can ever get.
One day after all these problems go away
We will be happy once agen.
Like we used to be under the stary night
Just you and me
Agenst this world
Keep us hushed
Till the morning light.
Where we can meet agen
Under the tree
Just for a moment
Where no one can see
That we are lovers
Ment to be.

So meaningful, i love it!

With your jacket around my shoulders.
Me holding on tight.
I'm not saying a word,I want to keep hearing your voice.
You grabing me from behind kissing my cheek.
Laughing in my ear makes me smile a little more.
With you walking me home
Under the street lights
Hand in hand
We might not be togather
But all these moments make my life more worth it.

Can you blaim me for caring for you.
For falling in love with you.
When all i ever did was put my trust in you.
Cover my eyes cover my ears.
So i cant see nor hear you go behind my back.
It will save the heart brake it will at least let me keep my peace.
So i can sleep, with no pain killing me.

Ive been writing alot of quotes lately .


Have you ever wondered why things fall apart, why you get crushed,pushed , and left broken.When you feel so low, there is one person reaching out there hand to help you back up. When things fall apart there are things falling together.Fighting fate is like fighting god, a endless battle that you will never see the end of.-Cammii

Your heart is always fighting with head.Your always taking one step forward yet it feels like ten steps back. Love is something your always getting lost in no matter how strong you are, you always lose your grip, slip and fall, and crash to the floor,and when you stand back up the persons already out the door.But every time you see your self, you know your always getting stronger.With little light to guide you are making it though you cant see it.-Cammii

Blossoming flowers grow in time.
Growing to the sky holding there head up high.
Though we never stop to look how there beauty really shines.
Rain through sun nothing will rip them.
They sink there roots in, they hold there ground.
For if i could be just like those flowers.
Maybe for one day everything will go alright.

Here i go agen, writing as i cry.
To vent my heart is not as easy as i say.
I just want to know how it is to have someone at my side.
To love and to hold.
Through all these stormy nights.
I want to open my eyes not to see the wall right at my side.
But to peer into eyes that are peering into mine.
I want to lay my head down,fall asleep to lovely heart beats.
I want to get lost with someone, and stay there for a while.
For my fingers to entwine with some one else.
I want to share my smiles and my joyful laughter.
I just want to know how it feels to love and to be loved.

For a first time in a while i am naming my poem , It's hard to understand you really half to know me to get it.

Bathroom Party's

So it's been a year my friends
Since we said are good byes.
Closing the door, and going on with our lives.
To never return to put a end to moments.
We will never share this agen.
So one last time raise your glasses and cheer.
To a dying group of friends, just living our lifes.
Hopeless as we are we found our place.
Restless teenagers , looking for a good time.
All i can see is just the five of us having a good time.
Crowding in ,and shutting the door.
We stay in the bathroom for hours on end.
Just doing nothing, just overly drunk,
Laughing are asses off, having a un believebul great time.
Achocal or not .
This is a place when the door shuts we have no problems
No worry's or fears.
So many things went down i cant put into words
But as i go on , i know you all remember
That place we used to call home.
Still beats in our hearts.

This is a poem i had to write in class, a topic of " I am" so im putting it up here (:.


I am a mother
I know about hard work and how hard it is to have a family.
I am strong and independent for my will is strong.
For i know how it is to lay in bed and cry my self to sleep.
But put on a smile around my child.
So he knows his mother isn't in sorrow.
I could fall asleep to beat of his heart,
I could just lay there in peace with his finger holding onto mine.
Forever stay in a stair peering into his eyes.
I am a hard worker, to work my self to the bone.
Just to make little money to feed my son.
I know how it feels to go hungry for days
So my son can fall asleep with a stumich full of food.
I am a fighter, to fight to keep my son at his best.
I am not someone that gives up easy , for my heart it keeps beating.
My son is my world, i will never let him fall.
For he is the key to my smile, the key to my heart.
Where he can feel my heart , and the love over welm him.
Where he can lay with peace.
And know i am there to fight to die for him, at any given moment.
I know how it feels to be lonely with no father to help.
I know how it is to play mother and father.
I know how it feels to keep going when my heart says enough.
I know how it is to keep pushing harder and harder
Just for my son.
I know how it is to be a mother.
A proud blessing it is.

-Cammii Lyin-

For the sun rise peeks over the hills, the winter wind brushes through the feilds sending chills.The heart beats lay soft , and childern fast asleep.For it's the peace and the stillness that makes everything perfect.Before the day begins we know we are enjoying peace.-Cammii

I did NOT write this my sister did, and this has inspired me in alot of ways,and felt i should share this.

Take me back to the time where , you all lived down the street from me . Take me back to when it was only the five of us , and that's all we really needed . Take me back to we would jump on my trampoline , to the point where all of us adventually got hurt , but it was always funny . Take me back to where we would sit and laugh for hours and have really long important talks . Take me back to whenever you sat there and IMed me all night long , because There was a bug in my room and I was scared . Take me back to whenever I was so scared of ghosts , you guys wouldn't let me sleep at home , regardless if I said I'm fine . Take me back to all of the long walks we had , even if it was around the same block about 20 times a day . Take me back to all the funny pictures . Take me back to laughing , screaming , and play fighting . Take me back to our ogga togga ceremonies . Take me back to the park we would go to everyday . Take me back to whenever we all smoked rolled up paper , instead of cigarettes . Take me back to my tree house . Take me back to our lemonade stand we had going for about 10 hours . Take me back to all of the times we went swimming . Take me back to whenever we sat on my trampoline , and threw huge pieces of nasty steak over my fence , into my neighbors yard . Take me back to sleepovers everyday in the summer , and every weekend whenever school started . Take me back to walking our rabbits , hamsters , and dogs everywhere on a leash . Take me back to the rabbit stroller . Take me back to the time where I had big bubba , and we all loved him . Take me back to that weekend , we stayed together the whole time , crammed up in my small old room . Take me back to daring eachother stupid things , like drinking deodarant , and fish water mixed together . Take me back to lighting everything on fire . Take me back to the candles in my treehouse . Take me back to all of the laughs where our stomachs hurt from laughing so much .
Take me back to the December night in 08 , so I can change everything , and make it all right again , so we don't have to live like this . Because it's killing me


Kathy Ballentine

I could take back the times where i only drank insted of study i would. If i could take back all the hurtful words i said to people i would , if i could fix my relshonship with my parents insted of lying to them i would.If i could step back and seen what i was doing i would. If i could take back the chances i took on people i would.If i could listen to what people had to stay insted of just hearing them i would. If i could fix all the shit ive did i would. If i could put the money back in my moms pocket that i spent on achohal i would. If i could just rewind time i would, if i could open my eyes i would.If i just stoped my self and just followed my heart i would. I would choose to walk away, but i left a mess that i can't clean. And now i half to live in it. I half to live with everything i did, everything ive ever done i would just earse everything. I half to wake up every morning know that ive hurt so many people ,and i can never make it right

-Camille Ballentine-

I remember holding you in my arms that night, waking up to a warm embrace and to a ciggarte . I can still remember the warmth of your body right next to mine, i can remember what your heart sounded like. I remember the time when you first told me you loved me. I remember when we went our own ways you moved i moved and we never layed eyes on each other agen. I wanted you to stay i wanted to keep you in my arms.But than you got in your car and left , promising me you'll return.But than you passed on, and i couldnt say goodbye.How do you leave and not let someone say goodbye ? How can you leave the one that you love behind ?

-Camille Ballentine-

If only tomorrow had a promise, If only i could see a head of time. If i could reach out to the kids that need help.If i could save the lives of people who are dying.If i could only have a second chance , If only i could stop my self from making a mess ,If i could take back the words i said.If i could say what i really had on my mind. If i could of saved my self for marrage.If i could of stoped my self from drinking , if i could of seen past the lies , if i could of seen the wrong and right. If i could of seen what i was doing to my parents. If i could of helped more , if i could only reached out . If i could of stayed in school , If i could of just talked things out , if i could of said no to cigarets. If i could of just listened, If i could of stayed home that one night. If i could of saved my self from a broken heart. If i could of seen my depression ,If i could of seen the light . If i could of never took a over doss, If i could of seen where i was going. If i could of , I would change everything.

-Camille Ballentine-

nice poetry

Thank you hun (: <3

It wasnt long ago when i sat in that room, in that chair. My eyes locked on you, and my heartbeat pounding every second.My fingers crossed and my breath geting shorter. My head fell down my eyes slowly closed my hands locked togather and tears started to show. Dear god i beg of you, i will take my freedom and lock it away if you just let him stay.He made a wrong move and he's already payed.I'll give anything just to keep him here with me.Please my lord, Be kind and soft, He is my bestfriend and you can see i love him more than anything.Please my lord don't take my bestfriend from me. That moment everything went silent i look up to see you looking back at me, i can remember that look in your eyes, screaming to help you. I promise i wont be leaving till they set you free.


-Camille Ballentine-

If only words can tell
If only I could show
Only if I had all the time in the world
How much I love you girl
People tell you things but put some trust in me.
I don't want you to leave
I don't want you to be hurting.
If you stick around I can promise you I'll love you as long as you need.

Good stuff, as always. I like it.

Thank you dear (: <3


With the beat of my heart
and my palms geting more sweat.
My face goes cold
And my breath gets short.
My eyes grow dark, and there are no thoughts.
Anger filling my throat.
And my body starts to tremble.
Not from fear from radge.
I put the gun down, and let a smile come upon my face.
You try to hurt my son.
Ill take your life.
Thats how i am.
Mess with a mothers child ,Your going to be in a living hell.
Try to lay hands on my baby , Ill make you suffer.
-Cammii


More of a dark side, Just somethings going on in my life.

(ocean waves) I love this poem. It draws me in and gives me a glimpse into a, what I would guess to be a dramatic teenage romance that ended yet lasts forever in your heart. Short but so much emotion compacted with just enough detail. Even the style of your line placement makes a symmetrical form that is pleasing. Very Nice work. Thank you for your posts.