Well...Nothing we can do now, but hope for the best for everyone...maybe this happend for a reason that none of us can see right now, because we're too blinded by pain...
Everything's my fault and I should be ashamed to even post here. So this is gonna be the last for the entire forum. For any nasty posters out there that might be reading this thread, this isn't supposed to be a self-pity post, so back off my case.
I took Feanor's post as negative and the fact that Smodden agreed with him made me blow things out of proportion.
People should crucify me to the death.
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Last edited by shadowy_blue on Jul 4th, 2005 at 07:21 PM
first of all: it's not your fault
secondd: no one is gonna crucify you
third: i wrote that post because of many reasons, but mainly for what i was selfishly feeling at the time that had or has no value now, nor then and for the fact that a certain friend of mine was going through some serious crap with an ex gf....to which only one other knows the whole truth of it....
so i reflected on what i thought after seeing my friend being shattered to a million little pieces lying on the floor twitching like worms torn from the earth....and, gawd! because i thought fate had dealt a cruel hand to lil ol Feanor.....
it's like looking at the sword of Aragorn Anduril encased behind solid glass....you admire the workmanship, the beauty, the flow of the lines and the crafmanship at such a beautiful thing that there is no other like it....and yet to never wield such a thing of beauty, to caress it gently upon calloused hands, the way it glimmers in the sunlight or how it sings aloud when swung in a wide arc through the air
all this could be yours, say the man guarding such a precious thing but first you must get past the glass encasing 3 inches thick and all but impervious to harm or ruin....i know, an odd metaphor
but that is what i had felt....what i thought i was going through, but then i realised that although i had what little there was to have, it was more than what i had before which was none at all...
so i thoroughly appreciate what i do have and will gladly take it and keep it treasured in my heart more so than Feanor did so for the silmarillion....how can i not?
the decision was yours to make as to how each of you interpreted my post....but the die is not cast and hope still lingers in the hearts and minds of men as they face the horde before them and battle-joy enters into their eyes...
Last edited by Fëanor on Jul 5th, 2005 at 11:11 PM
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and leave them alone
ANGEL ~*~
