I sure do... sadly. I started when I was 16, then gave up the first time when I was 19 for a year and a half. Took it back up when I had a really shitty job that eventually broke me down. Been stuck with it since, although I've tried (and succeeded) to stop a couple of times, but just as I feel myself released from it, something comes along that makes me want to start again. I do plan on quitting for good in the next few years, whenever it feels appropriate. I might quit over Summer, I'll see how it goes I guess.
I wish you luck man, I am a bit of a fitness freak so I only drink spirits instead of beer and I rarely smoke. I dont usually need to suppress the urge to cough but I dont smoke in general
Being able to rarely smoke is a good thing, shows you don't have a natural tendency towards addiction to it. I can't smoke rarely, even just having one will often lead to me going straight back into full-time smoking. Being addicted to health and fitness is a much better option!
so you said you a bit of a cycle smoker, in the sense of if something crappy happens to you and I am sure you know your depression crap pretty well. what triggers this kinda stuff for you?
Tough to say, I guess I see smoking as a self-destructive act, one that I can use regularly. I act self-destructively quite a lot, not really sure what the underlying reasons are behind it, but smoking is better than actual self-harm for me personally
I usually just stick to drinking and smoking, I already can't wear a short-sleeved shirt and it really bothers me. I guess it all depends on one's own self-perception – for example it's a really good thing that you can find people you trust with these problems, people that won't freak out about it or judge you. Personally I am too terrified to talk to girls as it is, but now even if I meet one I get along with and enjoy talking to, I'm too worried to go anywhere with it in case they see my scars and react badly to them
They aren't that bad overall but they're definitely going to be with me for life
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