well here goes
8 days ago i get a chest infection which turns out to be pnemonia
Elyse (a close friend of mine) had a triggered derpressive episode due to her other close friend leaving her to go shopping with a guy instead and she cut to deep, after a 1 hour conversation of why i shouldn't know what makes me hurt her i just couldnt deal with her stubborness and decide to give her spac. she hinted she still had feelings for me which really really hurt.
flash backs and nightmares to when i was serverly bullied as a child had occured and now stopped (thank god)
i had a triggered episode and passed out a few times after cutting
my laptop had a black screen of death with no cursor and i lost all of my school work due in 3 days which i now need to memorise and perform as well as do a seperate test for
i burned my arms again
my sister has left home after a massive arguement with my mum when she was drunk and i am helping her where i can but its been so difficult emotionally and physically
Aamie has cut her legs and been dealing with more stress at work
and to top it all off i get to try and sleep at night in my cold, wet room whilst my parents get drunk and start saying all kinds of crap about me, themselves, giorgia or anything that comes to mind whilst they get piss drunk they pass out after spending 120 dollars on wine and beer.
i just dont even want to be here you know, i just want to give up.
i cant thou, i have aamie, i need to help elyse, i have to finish year 12 and i will be ****ed 6 ways from sunday if i dont give life a ****ing thrashing and everything i have.
Gens-man, don't give up. You're going through hell, there's no two ways about that, but you've shown yourself to be a damn capable person, especially considering your age. You're on the cusp of 'adulthood'/just fully starting it now and you're already taking on so much – you're a strong guy, super-caring: we need people like you in the world.
I know sometimes it seems hopeless, but in the right hands, it isn't. You won't have to tolerate those ****nut parents for much longer, you can get out of there and start life proper after school. You can do whatever you like then! And you'll have great friends to support you, both in your physical life, and us humble lot, too.
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Jul 24th, 2015 12:40 PM
