help me! i like to feel the pain! i like to cry, i like to be upset, i like it all! if my dad upsets me (which, if i talk to him, is every night) i beat myself up. not fully of course....but i punch myself places where people won't see, so they wont question (such as my thighs, my hips, my upper arms etc) until i bruise! or ill burn myself with the hair straigtner...all thos stuff!
and sometimes......this is the worse bit......sometimes i wish people i love will die so i can cry and cry and feel so upset. i mean, after i think that, i tell myself to stop it...but it still scares me that those thoughts even enter my mind! it's not for attention....i like to be alone when im upset.....and frankly, im upset quite a lot whats wrong with me?
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Last edited by misha on Jul 15th, 2004 at 01:37 PM
how old are you?
i heard this on loveline on the radio, if you are like 14 thru 17, its normal. but if your cutting or burning yourself then you need to see a therapist or talk to someone you know. dont tell your parents or they will freak out and think your a raging ball of screwed up hormones, so just talk to one of your close friends and see what they say.but whatever you do you need to stop. o where you ever abused when you were younger?
A Masochist is somebody who likes pain. Perhaps that is "what is wrong with you." Not that there is anything wrong with that... just dont take it too far.
@ spicy - im a day younger then you
no i wasnt beaten up when i was younger...at least i dont THINK so!
id never tell my parents coz im not close with em!
and my friends....well theyre another problem in my life....i cant tell them
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Last edited by misha on Jul 15th, 2004 at 02:03 PM
ok guys i really need help with this!
spicy was born 23 may 1990
i was born 24 may 1990
that makes him a day older then me .................................... right?
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???? If these are indeed your true feelings, then you need to get some help. Inflicting pain upon ones self for pleasure points towards some serious issues that need to be resolved.
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I don't want to sound perverted or disturbed, but sometimes a little pain is enjoyable. I'm not saying go mutilate yourself or deform your body for pleassure. At a young age is not really good to hurt yourself. I suggest to seek other ways to release your feelings. Pain is something we all experience, but don't use pain to hurt yourself. It's just not a good thing to do.
hmmmm ... my sister kinda strnage with pain ... she has cuts and bruises all over her arms and legs and she keeps proding them and she says she enjoys the pain it makes when she soes it ???
hun, I had the same prob as you but I learned to controll it.
you need disaplin, do you take a martial arts or a yaga class? If not I suggest it. It does wonders to the self confidence and to the self mutilation thingy.
And those thoughts you have, your not the only one. who hasnt thought of their parents dying when your mad/distressed/or gennerally upset.
I'm gonna be 18 in a couple of months and I've only in the past year gotten over the self mutilation, tough I've traded it for a job that does it for me LOL
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Please seek profesional help for your problem, asking this all to people who have not the correct education for this (or any at all in some cases) here on KMC, is not how it can be solved
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Oh dear, Misha mate, you need to be locked in a psychiatric unit for 27 years, until you are fit to be released into society once more. You are evidently a loony nutball, I would be extremely afraid if I ever came across you in real life.
I now fear for my life
JUST KIDDING GIRL!!!
Nah, seriously, I know exactly what you mean. We've all had dark and disturbing thoughts about people dying, and then reacted in a terrified manner at what we've just imagined. And then we wonder how our minds can let us think like this, and enjoy it. It's perfectly normal, it just means that you've got an overactive imagination and waaaaay too much time on your hands. Get a hobby, find something to keep your mind active and FFS, stop hurting yourself. What is it actually doing to benefit you? I self harmed for a long time, but kept it to myself, and when I look back I actually think it's more logical to do it for attention, at least that way you can say it had some point to it. If you're keeping it low, why the hell are you doing it? We all enjoy pain to some degree, IMO it's just a heightened form of pleasure. For example, ice is refreshing, nice and cool, and a pleasurable feeling, but were your leg to freeze and fall off it'd hurt like hell. Therefore the pain is just an extension of the pleasure, it just depends on limits and how far we, as individuals, choose to take them.
I hope I've helped sweetie, and come to me if you really need a chat xxx
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