I am hating college so much right now.
I was so successful in Highschool. I even graduated with Honors and a Civic shield.
I made A honor roll. And got the most awards/scholoarships out of my entire 12 grade class on senior night.
I got my Pharmacy Technician license during school and volunteered from Sept 2004 till the summer 2005 in a Free Clinic. I also had a job during some of that time.
Now I am in my Freshmen Year of college and I am doing terrible and may have to Withdraw from some classes so a low grade won't go on my record. And if I do that it will almost be like my freshmen first semester never happened if i end up retaking most of my classes next semester.
God I hate this. And I really don't think I can do this. I had no idea that things would be like this. College is nothing but a bad experienced for me and my life plan isn't so clean and laid out in front of my anymore. I don't see myself achieving my lifelong goals or graduating college or anything. I am completely lost and don't know what to do.
Now more than ever I am terrified.
Highschool did nothing but build me up for disappointment.
I am disappointed in myself and I realize that I am not smart at all and can't do this. And probably won't be want i want to be in life and live the luxurious life that I had envisioned I could achieve my graduating college and going off to med school and then residency.
I don't know what to do or what will become of me.