disturbing dream
I'm posting this because there's no one I can possibly talk to about this dream I had but it's very disturbing to me. I dreamed that my father "did it" to me, and that afterwards I pretended it didn't happen, but my father was satisfied.
You might think I'm really sick for thinking this, but I always feel uncomfortable when old men look at me in a way that suggests the like me, including my father even. Usually, I glare at these old men to stop them since I don't know them very well anyway and wouldn't care to know them, but I obviously can't do that with my own father.. so I just suppress how uncomfortable I feel. God.. my uncle is even worse, he looks at me like a dog salivating after its food. Does anyone ever feel the same way about their own blood relatives or do I just have serious issues?
And I guess this goes without saying but I'm usually on my guard when men try to approach me because I always suspect they do that because they are attracted to me rather than just trying to be nice. I'm very sensitive to hints and minor flirtations, so you can say that I'm definitely not one of those clueless girls who have no idea who her admirers are. You might think I'm being overly vain, but I think this is pretty common reaction for girls who are above average looking. Anyway, thanks for listening.. If I tell this to anyone in person they'll think I have a sick mind but this dream is just to gruesome for me to keep inside.