cry OMG dudes...i just found a pic of Charlie going through his withdrawls... I'm sitting here with tears rolling down my cheeks... cry
My poor baby is hurting...and no one can make him better....cry
Oh my heart hurts for him.... I got some Driveshaft pics too...of Charlie singing and playing his bass guitar...i'll post them...cry
I love you Charlie...it'll be okay....cry
Originally posted by Kellawhen you going to Michigan?? i live in Windsor... across the Detroit river... you could come see me 🙂 lol nah just kidding... im really giddy right now and i dont know why... probably because i ate a whole chocolate bar and a box of candy hehe 🤣 💃
Grooveh...I hope it makes sense. If not...PM me and I'll give you my number or I can call you...whichever. 😄[B]Here's a quick peek into my mind...just for the heck of it....
😑Ugh...my head is pounding. I got my chick music on...I tried to write, but I got nothin...damn writers block...i'm hungry...I ate all my twizzlers and I'm contemplating driving up to McDonalds to get some food or ice cream...both sound good....ice cream sounds better....ooh I like this song....Sarah McLachlan kicks butt.... where did I put my LOTR magazine...dammit...i made a new DMAG tee shirt design...I gotta get in touch with Miss Chris and see how much it would cost to get them made...hopefully by christmas....I'm spending too much money...ugh...should I put online nicknames or real names?...can't make up my mind....i need to download that awesome song from DoubleTake...who sings it....would that DVD even play in my gay DVD player....i want some chocolate milk...i need to wash my clothes....i should have gone to Summers house for CJ's first birthday...why does my car have to die all the time....grr....stupid piece of junk.....i can't wait to go to Michigan...and then i have to save up to go to England to see Mel!...YAY!....i hope she doesn't think i'm any more odd than she already knows i am...and she is too....ha ha ha ha....we have the greatest conversations on the phone....ha ha ha....I wish my Mawmaw still lived in Hawaii...in Oahu to be exact...I could be on the same island as Dom...oh and I would definitely learn to surf...I would probably even see him around from time to time...hmm....i need to add the rest of the stuff to Dreamlife...I need to make the changes I need to make...I'm just not wanting to right now....but I don't have any other time to do it....dammit! [/B]
I like the T-shirt idea, Kella. ✅
Originally posted by Kella
I gotta get in touch with Miss Chris and see how much it would cost to get them made...hopefully by christmas....I'm spending too much money...ugh...should I put online nicknames or real names?...can't make up my mind
I think you should put both our online nicknames and our real names...😕 😛 I dunno...
Great pics! 😱 Sexiness! Yes, Driveshaft does rock! 🤘 Do you know which episode of Lost it is that they'll be showing Charlie's flashbacks with all the Driveshaft stuff? 💃 I can't wait!
I think Charlie's episode is about 3 or 4 episodes away. I can't wait either! 💃
AFO...we love you. Stop being mad that we don't respond to your every post. You're taking it too personally. I haven't seen Ladder 49 yet...I want to, but I haven't. Three times you've seen it...three times you've cried...I love those kinds of movies...when I go see it I will share the wonders of it with you. Okay? 😄
I'm thinking of putting everyone's KMC nicknames on the back under the picture and their real names on the front right side. I haven't decided yet. I need to get in touch with Miss Chris. 😄
I have to admit something...it may be something that you guys may find hard to believe. 😮
I'm losing my obsession with Dom again. 🙁
I have been trying to keep it going. I really have. I just...with being constantly hassled about it and put down for it...and the stress of building up the site...and then writing a story where I don't get to be with him....but my best friend does... ugh...I'm fighting for it...I really am.
Hard to believe huh? My Mawmaw didn't believe me either. She rolled her eyes and said, but Dom is everywhere...he's your whole life.
Yeah...he kinda is...which is why I am fighting so hard for it.
Mel helps me to stay enthusiastic about it when I talk to her on the phone. I haven't told her yet. I only seem to be able to call from work. I can't talk about that there....I would get teased and picked on.
😑 I get teased and picked on for not obsessing over someone...weird.
Anyways...I just thought I should confess this to you guys. 🙂
Originally posted by Kella
I thought she might....Hey....This is my new idea for the back of the DMAG teeshirts for those of us that are on the DMAG crew...😄
What do you think?
I'm listening to Rammstein very loudly....I friggin love these guys. 🤘
I love the t-shirt idea Kella..so cool..and yes..add the nicknames on the back and real names on the front..if possible..if not just add the real names on the back 😄
OMG.. NOOOOOOOO!!! Your obsession for him is disapearing again!..To be honest..i wish mine would calm down..it hurts like hell to want someone so bad..and it's driving my family mad when i talk about him constantly 😠
I try not to..but he's in my mind most of the day 😮 interrupts with my normal life 😮 I will keep on keeping busydoing other things now..hopefully that will help.
But i still LOVE U DOM 😆
I'm doing better today with it. I started writing a Lost fanfic last night. I read what I had of it to my Mawmaw and she nodded her head and said, "That's plagerism. You can't publish that or put it on your site. You'll be sued." And I rolled my eyes and said, "I can put it on my site. It's a fanfiction. That's the whole point of writing it. As long as I have a disclaimer on it there is no reason there would be any trouble. It's all in fun."
So..my Mawmaw though it was good. 😑 When she calls something plagerism...and it's about something that she gave up her birthday party for on Wednesday night...she liked it. YAY!
Anyways...I should work on my paintshop today a bit since I only have 2 days left. cry
I got the awesome new Driveshaft pics...so I'll probably do something with that. 😄
Yeah...you're right...wanna read some of my fanfic? 😄
She opened her eyes. She was not where she remembered being last. She felt the rush of water over her legs. She was wet. The sun was blinding in her eyes, but as she looked farther up she saw the billowing of black smoke above her head. The sound of waves crashing began to kick in to the whirling of her mind. It did not take long for other sounds to begin to register. Then the pain filled her body.
She rolled over on her side and tried to pull herself to a sitting position. She hurt all over. Some pain was more intense than other pains. She looked up and saw the horror that lay before her.
Mangled wreckage and mangled bodies intertwined along a beach. People were running about and screaming. The scream of the engine was almost deafening when it would kick up. She watched frozen for a moment. Was this a dream? Where had she been before this? She couldn’t remember. Her head was throbbing and her body was pulsating in pain.
She pulled herself to her feet. People were calling out for help. Some were trapped while others were looking for loved ones. Her hands were cut up from whatever had happened to her. Saltwater was in her wounds making them burn almost unbearably.
She looked up and a little boy was sitting only a few feet away from her. He was hugging his blanket and crying. She saw no one around with him. She went over to him slowly.
He looked up at her. “Hi. I’m Kella. Where is your Mommy?” she asked him calmly. He pointed to a piece of wreckage not far from them.
“Wait right here. I’ll be right back. What’s your name?” Kella asked calmly.
“Cody.” He whimpered softly. She could barely hear him above all the chaos.
She nodded and went over to the wreckage. When she walked around it she found a dead woman still strapped in to her seat. She had a large piece of debris through her chest. She felt sick by this sight. She backed away trembling. She returned to the boy. She was shaking badly.
“Cody, would you like to stay with me for a while?” she asked gently. He shrugged his shoulders and then raised his arms up to her. She picked him up despite her pain and she carried him to where others had gathered.
Cody was so young. He couldn’t have been more than 4 years old. He held to his blanket tight. Kella trudged through the sand and debris to the group of survivors.
Okay...that's how I started it out. What do you guys think? 😮
Okay...here's another part with Charlie.
It's more of a fight scene than anything. It'll get better...I swear. There has to be tension before there are good things. 😄
Kella went back to the wreckage to help pull out more baggage. Charlie grabbed her arm and pulled her with him. He seemed mad. He pulled her into the line of trees.
“What did you tell him?” he snapped at her. “Tell who? What are you talking about?” she asked jerking her arm away.
“That old man. He came up to me and he told me that when I was ready that he would help me. I know he’s your friend. What did you tell him?” Charlie asked furiously.
“I didn’t say a word to him about you. He and I talk about Cody and our lives before we came to the island. I told you I wouldn’t say anything about your problem.” She snapped back at him.
“I don’t have a problem!” he said angrily.
“Fine! I didn’t say anything to him about your hobby! Maybe he can see it in your face. I mean, you don’t see what you look like, but others do. You’d have to be blind not to see that you have something going on in your head.” She said annoyed.
He looked at her bitterly.
“If you have a problem with people knowing about your habit…maybe you should quit. You won’t have a choice soon. You aren’t my problem though. Deal with it yourself.” She said coldly.
She turned and walked away. He came after her and grabbed her arm again. She turned quickly.
“You didn’t tell?” he asked again. “No…” she said looking at him sarcastically.
“I’m almost out. I don’t know what I’m going to do.” He said honestly as he backed up into the tree line even more.
She looked at him with pity in her eyes. “Why are you telling me?” she asked nervously.
“Well, you know about it already. It’s not easy to talk about. I guess I can still trust you if you say that I can.” He said a little ashamed.
“I’ve gone through it before. The withdrawals. I was addicted to painkillers and ecstasy. I’ve been clean for about two years. What is in that bag you have?” she asked curiously.
“Heroine.” He admitted hesitantly.
“Oh…you’re going to go through much worse than I did. Still, you can get though it. You’re going to suffer, but if you want me to, I’ll stick with you.” She said honestly.
“Well thank you for that Kella. I am frightened enough and you just added on more. Thanks.” He said sarcastically.
She smiled.
“You should be afraid, but you’ll get through it. I promise.” She said seriously.
He gave her a smile. “I would like for you to stick with me…if you would. I’m not sure if you want Cody to see it. If you can’t I understand.” He said seriously.
“I don’t want Cody exposed to that, but one of the other women can take care of him for a while. I won’t be with you constantly, so I can spend some time with him while you’re sleeping or something. Locke is a good guy Charlie. You should trust him to help you.” She said honestly.
Yeah...this is only as far as I've gotten. There is more between the beginning and this part here...but you guys can read that when I put it on the site. 😄