i got cheated on, like a million times and THEN he tells me he loves me, obviously it's a lot more complicated than that but that's the shorthand. I love him so much, my heart is shattered into a million pieces, i can't stop crying, i have been shopping but having expensive taste i am approaching bankruptcy fast. i cant eat, can't sleep, although am going to bed soooo early and getting up late in an effort to not talk to him, but that just means i lay awake thinking about him. Then the reason i feel like this pops in my head and i'm ok for like 10 mins, which is when i want to put his balls in a blender, but then i remember how sweet he could be, but then after all the cheating, that was probably all a load of horse sh1t.
anyways that's the shorthand, minus messy details
thnx for the hugs btw
still hurts though right! if i wasn;t in the state i am in now, i would have thought the same, but i love him, but i can never be with him. You know i had a near perfect NYE. It snowed and it NEVER does that here, at midnight everyone went outside to listen for the church bells, it stuck midnight and we sang and drank champagne, the snow came down, i made a snowangel, and it was just missing that perfect kiss, like at the end of BJD, hmmmmmmmmm