Melani,
Life's not supposed to suck, but sometimes it just does, and we wonder why. I've been in a similar place as what you describe (not to the extent that I wanted to kill myself...but I was really depressed). One thing that helped me a lot was learning that other people love and care for me. You should really think about the good things in your life. Think about Middle-earth! Think of Pippin! Think of us here in KMC! 😄
I am glad that we can provide you with some comfort here. Just hang in there... I know life can be tough sometimes (can't tell you how many times I have tried to wish myself to another world - Middle-earth, perhaps), but there are people out there who really care for you. Look to them, they will really help you out. WE WILL help you out.
You can PM me anytime you want. I WILL help you as best as I could. I wouldn't try...I will.
You are a wonderful person who makes all our lives much better for knowing you. 🙂
Often, I have felt sad,
and all around me was bad.
Life had no meaning,
that was my greatest feeling.
But someone I knew said,
that I should forget
Because there is many people yet,
to love, no certain amount is set.
Hold your head high through this trial,
you are loved by us, to that there is no denial.
I know it isn't that good, but remember the last lines. 🙂
We love you, Melani. ✅ 😄
(aacckk!! Smodden is influencing me!! I have never written a fanfic or a poem before!!!) 😛 😂
Originally posted by shadowy_blue
Often, I have felt sad,
and all around me was bad.
Life had no meaning,
that was my greatest feeling.
But someone I knew said,
that I should forget
Because there is many people yet,
to love, no certain amount is set.
Hold your head high through this trial,
you are loved by us, to that there is no denial.
Discos - 's band in background band
given how quickly everyone has jumped on here, suggests (quite strongly) that there are people who do care.
firstly, I grew up with one parent, and then tried the other for a while...
I'm affraid in house where love has been interupted, there are ALOT of unnhappy times. and I did alot of very distructive things over the years...
I know you feel trapped right now, and this wont help much, and will seem a little useless, but you won't be in this situation forever... and as intense as this is right now, you will move past it.
another thing to bear in mind, is that your mother is probably quite miserable being on her own at the moment, and i'm pretty sure she doesn't mean the things she says and does but is reacting to frustration, anger and her own depression... she will eventually realize she's hurting you. so hang in there.
this all too familair territory to me, so I know what i'm talking about.
also, stop cutting yourself!!! (i emplore annyone who is geogaphically closer to you on this board to slap you on the hand the next time you try!!! - it's a bit of a stretch from Aus.)
your too pretty, too intelligent, and dare I say it too cool, to be scaring yourself. (but remember, half the reason you're cool is 'cause you know me 😛 ) but, seriously... find something else (preferably non-chemical, I've been there aswell). this will sound stupid, but i recomend Kung Fu.
it gives you focus, and some of things they teach you will hurt, but be good for you - it sounds dumb, but it helps me.
finnally, don't worry about the friends you have around you, especially if there all from school... the best friends you will have in life are the people you meet after school (by after school i mean ine years following, not from 3pm onwards). none of my friends are people i went to school with... I had nothing in common with those people! I know it might seem pathetic, but we're all your friends, and you know we'll always be here for you... (unless our computer crashes, then you might have to wait a day or two).
so hang in there, I know you feel very alone right now... but you'll pull through. but stop cutting up your arms, trust me you don't to have to explain it to people when they notice... i used to make really long cuts all the way up and down my arms, it got embarrasing after a while.
but to summorise, we all love you... so everyone else can go to hell! 🙂
ah sorry for my cheeky posts earlier Mel
gees, i never knew you were in this state of mind. Why didn't ya tell good ole Uncle Discs sooner?
You are 1 in a million ya know, i fairly enjoyed looking at your pics and because of you i went searching through every last page with shadowy to find them (ask her its true 🙂)
Hope this problem can be resolved and hopefully you understand the full meaning of what we are all trying to say
Discos - we luv ya ✅
mel i no u probably don't no me but i just read these two pages and my heart is broken........ take this advice every time u want to hurt yourself ...pray tell God your problems because he always has an open ear. and he cares so much about u .....read the bible that's always a comfort . so take mi advice as well as everyone elses. we all care about u and we don't want to see u hurting ok.🙂
Mel,
I know i don't talk to you all that much, but i really do care about you, I love you 😍 and i don't want you to hurt yourself 🙂
I've been feeling really depressed lateley too (wont go into details here though) and been feeling like noone liked me 🙁
Feel free to PM me any time...
Talking really does help, trust me, i know from experiance. We all love you here on this forum, and i hope you can see that...It took me a while to realize how much i was loved, but i see that i have a huge family of loving people here...so lean on us, cry on our shoulders, we're here for you..
I love you 😍
Hey jude, don't make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.
Hey jude, don't be afraid.
You were made to go out and get her.
The minute you let her under your skin,
Then you begin to make it better.
And anytime you feel the pain, hey jude, refrain,
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders.
For well you know that it's a fool who plays it cool
By making his world a little colder.
Hey jude, don't let me down.
You have found her, now go and get her.
Remember to let her into your heart,
Then you can start to make it better.
So let it out and let it in, hey jude, begin,
You're waiting for someone to perform with.
And don't you know that it's just you, hey jude, you'll do,
The movement you need is on your shoulder.
Hey jude, don't make it bad.
Take a sad song and make it better.
Remember to let her under your skin,
Then you'll begin to make it
Better better better better better better, oh.
Na na na na na ,na na na, hey jude...
the meaning is the same if the words are somewhat out of context to what you're going through... 🙂
I wrote a poem in spanish today (actually i wrote a bucnh...i was depressed, and thats when i do my best work 🙂 )
Starting Over
With a bang
The trees begin to fall
Crushing life
With a crash
The earth begins to rumble
Destroying life
Wiht a splash
Rain begins to fall
Washing away
Making clean
So we can start over
With a blast
Sun comes pouring in
Bringing hope
And new life
It’s time to be happy
It’s time we started over
Its the least depressing of hte lot....though you might like it 🙂