Schizofrenia

Well... i've been thinking about starting this thread for a long time

basicly here i'm gonna discuss about my illness. i suffer from alot of mental diseases. schizofrenia, paranoia, depression, neurosis...i hear things all the time, i see shit that arent there, i meet and talk to people who doesnt exist...i had episodes all the time

yesterday morning when i woke up i saw a girl in my bedroom and i started a conversation with her, beautiful girl. 20 minutes later i realize she wasnt there. i was really pissed, i tried to ignore her but my mind wount let me. then she pull her eyes out, in front of me.
i freak out, i couldnt breathe i couldnt call my family for my pills. so i cut my wrist, i almost die yesterday.

this kind of things happen to me all the time.

so you can give your opinions...please this is serious, so, jokes wont be received well. if you have similar experiences can help too

My dad is just like that. I'm okay with it, but sometimes he doesn't even know I'm here. 🙁 Everything's okay, BE. Don't cut yourself.

You ever thought about getting yourelf checked in? Seriously. I've seen weird shit too and Use to cut myself. But nothing that serious. If what your saying is true you NEED to get checked into a hospital

Naz is right.......although what your going through isn't pleasant, cutting yourself just makes it worse.

i've been locked in mental institutions SO many times before

besides the cuts , i have MANY, MANY, MANY , MANY scars that i made to myself. once i burnt my face , i didnt have hair for a couple of months.

all this problems started with my mom

the feeling of pain isnt new to me

Yeah, I know you think death will make it all go away. It won't. I've tried. Personally, I think it would be soo much easier to have a mental problem. Just sometimes. I would have fun talking to people that aren't there. They're so much nicer than the real world.

But that isn't the point.

NAZ i dont think death is the solution, i dont...i have a daugther, wich i LOVE HER SOOOOO MUCH, but this illness is making it difficult for me to take care of her, icant even take care of myself. they even threated me to take her away from me.

i used to enjoy talking with this imaginary people , but not anymore... now i see mutilated people, mutilated babies, burnt people. f*cked!!!!!!!!

i cant take it anymore, but i struggle, or at least i try

it's my life and i try to cope with it

Do you turn to God?

Just a question...

You see, its your life and the life of your daughter that are keeping you going through this.....everytime you you hurt yourself or think that it isn't gonna get better, just think of them.

i know what you're saying...but sometimes it's really hard to resist myself from doing this things to me

Naz , i dont believe in god

It's cruel. I know, somehow the pain is deceiving.

it's not like i'm bored at home and i say "heyy, let me cut myself"

i have this episodes where i see people and other crazy sh*t!!!! , then i cant breathe and when i lose control, well...that's where things happen 🙁

Originally posted by Blind-Enemy
Naz , i dont believe in god

Okay. A lot of people don't believe in Him/Her because of this. But He/She is there anytime.

Just like me, if you catch me at the right moments. In a couple of years, I'm sure I'll be coming to you with many questions, BlindEnemy. My dad's illness may be genetic.

too bad to hear that naz

i dont want anybody to carry this burden...i'm 20 but i've suffer this since i can remember ( maybe 4 , 6 or 8)

you can ask me whatever you want... you too devalion

Well, do you hate it when the world moves? Like, you travel down the street or somewhere, and have to stop because nothing feels secure?

I do, and I don't know why.

never had that feeling... but you'll never know when bad things will happen to you... 🙁

I've a mild case of shizophrenia, but nothing that serious. not to joke around, but you need help