this is the last time this week that i am goin to be on her so im goin to make this post the longest 1 that i have ever made because it will be maximum characters only because i kno that this is my last post that i will do because i am only goin to be on here for a little while and right now i am not as far as i thought i would be because wat u think and wat things really r can be totally different and this is exactly that time and i have nothing better to be doin besides talking to myself which is wat most people who have seen this thread have gone away for is the fact that there is this 1 man, me, who is talkin to himself only to hope that in return some1 else might talk to him but they dont want to talk to such a man so they sit there quietly and dont say a word and watch as this poor soul cries out his heart in the only search for a friend that will be there to talk to him and help him in anyway that he can be helped. but until then i say that i will be strong and i call out to those who do just sit there and watch to come forth and talk to such a soul and to find out first hand that this person is not who they percieved him to be but only the exact opposite because in his mind he knos that he is right and knos that someday those people will come and talk to him and not be affraid just becaue he is tlaking to himself but instead stating his mind to whomever will listen and only wants to hear back from those who care and share the same sorrow as him. I am not even close to done right now but i am surely running out of gibberish to talk to u guys to talk to me. if u guys take the chance and talk to me u will see how great of a peson i can be and how cool i can be even though my friends will deny it but deep down inside they really wanna say how cool i am, right darinda/merkledin? and even though i may not have many friends on this site and i may not be or sound as cool as i state myself to be, but if u take the time and really get to kno me u will see that i can be a friend that u would like to have and not just 1 of those imitations that people say they r and cant commit themslves to but i am one man of his word and i will do all in my strength to help out my friends and give then the respect that they all deserve and the care that they all deeply desire. and if no1 here is willing to talk to such a friend than they dont deserve such a friend.