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ok...what happened to me was that I was with my baby Patty playing, and I had an schizophrenic episode 🙁 ...I havent had one in a week and a half. I got really scare, I freaked out, and I panic...I started to scream and cry for help, I was chocking, I couldnt breathe. Patty didnt know what was happening (she's a baby), she started to cry too...
after all was calm , I was still shaking. I wanted to be sure that my baby was fine. when I got near her she began to cry. I couldnt get near her for the rest of the night!
I feel so angry with myself right now...I actually have tears in my eyes when I think of what happened
I'm trying to calm down, 'cause if I loose control of myself right now...I swear I'm gonna kill myself this night, 'cause I cant take it anymore...JESUS F*CKING CHRIST!!!! in front of my own daughter...
NOT HER PLEASE, NOT IN FRONT OF HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

you cant kill yourself, you need to live, if nothing else, do it for her

Don't worry i'm glad you came online.

Originally posted by Blind-Enemy
ok...what happened to me was that I was with my baby Patty playing, and I had an schizophrenic episode 🙁 ...I havent had one in a week and a half. I got really scare, I freaked out, and I panic...I started to scream and cry for help, I was chocking, I couldnt breathe. Patty didnt know what was happening (she's a baby), she started to cry too...
after all was calm , I was still shaking. I wanted to be sure that my baby was fine. when I got near her she began to cry. I couldnt get near her for the rest of the night!
I feel so angry with myself right now...I actually have tears in my eyes when I think of what happened
I'm trying to calm down, 'cause if I loose control of myself right now...I swear I'm gonna kill myself this night, 'cause I cant take it anymore...JESUS F*CKING CHRIST!!!! in front of my own daughter...
NOT HER PLEASE, NOT IN FRONT OF HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

cry I'm so sorry...

Ya your baby needs you more then anything you can possibly fathom.

I took my sleeping pills and I'm waiting for them to kick in...hopefuly I'll fall asleep before anything happens

BE NO YOU MUST NOT KILL YOURSELF!!!!!!!!PLEASE NO! PLEASE!`......you daughter was only scared because she saw you hurting, she still loves you!!!! and she needs you!!! more then you will ever know!

I cant take it anymore... I cant smile and pretend no more

LIVE FOR HER

🙁 that sucks!

omg awe, don't kill yourself. please don't. like you said, she is a baby, she doesn't understand what is going on right now. just see what happens tomorrow. but please don't kill yourself cause that would scare her even more

BE. no your making me cry...........I want to help you so bad, but I dont know how, please tell me how I can help

Think about it BE... you kill yourself... she's gonna grow up without a father there for her... so DON'T KILL YOURSELF!

🙁me 2! i wanna help!

before the schizophrenic episodes were very kool and sometimes I used to enjoy them...but now I only see dead and mutilated girls...jesus!!!! dont know why is getting worse, I mean, f*ck!!! mutilated girls? WHY??

is getting sicker frame by frame

Originally posted by Blind-Enemy
ok...what happened to me was that I was with my baby Patty playing, and I had an schizophrenic episode 🙁 ...I havent had one in a week and a half. I got really scare, I freaked out, and I panic...I started to scream and cry for help, I was chocking, I couldnt breathe. Patty didnt know what was happening (she's a baby), she started to cry too...
after all was calm , I was still shaking. I wanted to be sure that my baby was fine. when I got near her she began to cry. I couldnt get near her for the rest of the night!
I feel so angry with myself right now...I actually have tears in my eyes when I think of what happened
I'm trying to calm down, 'cause if I loose control of myself right now...I swear I'm gonna kill myself this night, 'cause I cant take it anymore...JESUS F*CKING CHRIST!!!! in front of my own daughter...
NOT HER PLEASE, NOT IN FRONT OF HER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Dude whatever you do dont f*cking kill yourself! Think of how your daughters life would be ruined. She needs you very much and once she gets older she will understand the crap you go through. For yours and her sake dont kill yourself. It will ruin her life without a father.

I havent had an episode i over a week and I was feeling good, happy, calm... but then all went down the hill 🙁

Originally posted by Blind-Enemy
before the schizophrenic episodes were very kool and sometimes I used to enjoy them...but now I only see dead and mutilated girls...jesus!!!! dont know why is getting worse, I mean, f*ck!!! mutilated girls? WHY??

is getting sicker frame by frame

BE, its proably ( I hate to say this 🙁 )...because of you past Girlfriends 🙁

Please, please just live for your girl. Don't kill yourself. You need to live for her, let her know that you care for her

You have gone for counseling correct.