Lost, Broken, Confused

hiya....this is a good charlotte fic i wrote. please reply!!

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“NO! NO PLEASE! PLEASE! NOT HIM! NOT JOSH!”
*BANG*BANG*
“NOOOOOOO!!”
Kelly had tried not to cry, but thinking of his last moments, cowering in an alley, so helpless and scared, she just broke down. Ana put her arm around her and tried to comfort her.
They were at josh’s funeral. His mum and dad were sitting in front of Kelly and ana, both of them misty eyed. Josh had died 2 weeks ago, and at least three times a day Kelly was reminded vividly of his death.
She had a small wound on her arm where one of the bullets had grazed her arm. The murderer had tried to kill her as well, but missed and ran out of bullets. Everyday she thought “why not me? Why didn’t I die in his place?” it was only after her and ana had had a long, emotional talk that she had stopped trying to commit suicide.
After the funeral, she said a quick “I’m sorry” to josh’s mum and dad and ran out of the church. Ana ran after her. Kelly was in hysterics. She was crying her eyes out and there was nothing ana could do about it.
“listen! Listen to me Kelly! There was nothing anyone could have done. The doctors tried their hardest to save him.”
Kelly had been josh’s best friend. They had lived together and shared everything. Now she was in the process of moving into ana’s house.
When ana had finally got her home, Kelly said goodnight and headed to her room. When she got there she started frantically searching theough her bags, until she found what she was looking for. A sharp bread knife, wrapped in cotton wool and bubble wrap. She tore it off and held the blade against her skin, but stopped. she couldn’t do that to ana. Seeing the dead body of her best friend had driven her to suicide, and the last thing she wanted to do was be responsible for the deaths of two of her friends. She quickly scribbled a note and slipped it under anas door before running out of the house. She ran to foster park, down the road from the house. There was a group of guys hanging around, but she ignored them, hiding the knife up the sleeve of her hoodie. She hid behind a tree and bit her lip. She got on her knees and said a quick prayer before taking her hoodie off. She dragged the blade from her wrist to her elbow.
“OOOOOOOOWWW!!” she shouted, not being able to control herself.
“hey, hey what’re you doing? Get away from her!” the hooded figure stood up, and the girl he was threatening ran away crying.
“josh, please. just leave him.”
“Kelly stay back.”
“no! josh just leave it!!”
the man in the hood punched josh to the floor, before kicking him in the stomach, face and ribs.
“what the **** are you doing? Leave him alone!” Kelly pushed the man.
“Kelly….no” josh said slowly. He was obviously in pain. The hooded man slapped her to the floor and pulled out a gun.
“what are you doing with that? Put it away…please put it away!”
she stood up, only to be pushed down again. She heard the sound of a gun being cocked and panicked.
“No! whatever you’re thinking of doing, please don’t!”
now the gun was pointed at josh.
“NO! NO PLEASE! PLEASE NOT HIM! NOT JOSH!”
josh flashed her a look of pure helplessness. At that moment she heard two gun shots, and saw josh’s limp body lying in a heap.
“NOOOOOO!” she ran after the man, not caring what happened to her. she just wanted to make him feel as much pain as possible. She felt a searing pain in her arm and collapsed, screaming in anger and despair.

Tragic.....Nice story though

good story ya got there... but what does it have to do with Good Charlotte?

i'm getting there, i'm getting there...

I really liked it. It's so sad cry You have to write more!! *begs*

😄 i'm glad you liked it

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Kelly woke up in a hospital bed. She sat up quickly, only to feel a searing pain in her arm.
“Aaah!”
A nurse rushed over to her, telling her not to worry and that everything was going to be ok.
“Are you feeling well enough to take visitors?”
“Who wants to visit me? I don’t understand. I can’t remember why I’m here. I was in the park.”
“Well you have 6 young men waiting to see you. Shall I send them in?”
“6? Men? I really don’t understand. My head hurts.” She glanced down.
“What the hell happened to my…shhiiiiiiit!” she shouted when she realized why she was there.
The nurse tutted.
“Please keep your voice down. Shall I send them in?”
Kelly nodded slowly. The nurse went out and came back in, followed by 6 men. One cute one with a white tank top, one with a lot of tattoos and piercings, 2 blonde guys, a bald guy and one tall thin guy with a nose piercing.
“Uuh, Hiya. How are you feeling?”
“Absolutely sick. Who the **** are you?”
He raised his eyebrows.
“I’m Joel. This is my brother Benji; these are our friends Tony, Paul, Billy and Chris.”
“Why didn’t you f**king leave me??”
“Jeez, so much for gratitude.”
“I have nothing to thank you for.”
“How about saving your life?”
“Joel shut up!! Stop being such an ass.” Benji interrupted.
“Sorry honey. But we couldn’t just leave you to die. I don’t know what happened to you that you thought the only way out was suicide, but…”
“Do you have any idea how hard my life has been? Mum died when I was 2, dad walked out when I was 5. Moved from foster home to foster home. The only people I ever felt close to were josh and Ana. Josh had to get himself f**king shot. I have to call Ana.”
“Here, you can use my cell.” Chris said.
“Thanks. Hi Ana.”
“Kelly. Oh my god do you have any idea how worried I’ve been? I’ve rung practically everywhere! Where are you?”
“The hospital.” Kelly braced herself for the stream of panic that would follow.
“What?? Which hospital? Why are you there? What happened? Is it serious?”
“Ana…I tried to commit.”
There was silence.
“Ana! Ana!!”
She heard crying coming from the other end.
“Kelly. Stay there. Do not go anywhere!”
“Well I can’t really go anywhere.”
“I am leaving right now. Hang on.” She hung up.
“Thank you.” She handed the phone back to Chris.
“Are you gonna be ok?” Paul asked.
“Yeah, once Ana gets here. I still feel sick.”
Tony beckoned to Benji.
“Benj. We can’t stay here. Our gig starts in an hour.”
“Tone! One of us has to stay here with her!”
“But why? You heard her. Her friend is gonna get here and she’ll be fine.”
“Tony.” Benji sounded stern. “One of us has to stay.”
“Benji you don’t even know her!”
“Come on! If that was matt laying there you’d want someone there. If it was Paul or you or anybody I’d want someone there.”
“Yeah. I suppose. But who’s gonna stay?”
“I don’t know. Someone would have to fill in for the gig.”
They walked back over to Kelly.
“Excuse me. Are you Miss. Rodriguez?”
“Yes. Why?” Kelly was still snappy and pissed off.
“I’m afraid we have bad news concerning a friend of yours. A certain miss Ana caballero?”
Her eyes widened. If something had happened to Ana…
“She was on her way here, and her car collided with a truck. She went into surgery, but it was a very complicated procedure and I’m afraid her heart didn’t pull through. I’m sorry. Is there anyone you want to call?”
The nurse left the ward and Kelly ran into the toilet. The guys could hear gagging and choking noises before she came out again. She sat on the bed and burst into tears.

Oh my god!! Her last friend is gone!!!! You're so evil, now I bet Kelly will become even more depressed!!!

i'm not evil 🙁

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Billy sat down next to her and put his arm around her.
“Baby it’s gonna be alright.” She pushed him away
“If you had left me this wouldn’t have happened, you realize that? She would still be ****ing alive!”
“Honey, you wouldn’t be.” Tony said.
“So that makes it alright? ****ing hell!”
“Baby…Kelly calm down.” Joel said.
“Sweetie we have to go…I promise we’ll come see you tomorrow.”
“**** you.”
“listen, one of us is gonna stay with you, ok?”
”Fine. Can you just ****ing leave?”
“Bill, you ok staying?”
“Yeah, sure.”
They slowly walked out, trying not to look her in the face. Deep down they all knew she was right.

“Jere, you can play guitar for GC tonight, yeah?” Tony asked when they got back.
“What?” he looked up and took off his headphones.
“You gotta fill in for Billy tonight.”
“Why, where is he?”
“In hospital” Benji answered with a smile.
“Oh my god, what happened? Is he ok?”
“He’s staying with some chick. Long story. You can fill in yeh?”
“yeah, sure.”
“great. Cmon, we gotta get to soundcheck.”

“Are you ok?” Billy had his arm around Kelly again. This time she didn’t push him away.
“I gotta get some stuff from home.”
“No, honey. You can’t go anywhere. You need to stay here.”
“For ****s sake! I’m not a child you know. I can do things for myself.”
“I know that. I just think that because of your arm…”
“It’s fine! It’s just a scar. I’ll be out of here by tomorrow.”
“I’ll bet it’s still painful though.”
She gave a frustrated whine and picked up a piece of paper.
“Got a pen?” he handed her a chewed up biro. She quickly jotted down some things and an address on the paper.
“Here’s the keys. If you’re so adamant about me staying, you can go.”
“He smiled. “Now that I can do. Are you sure you’re ok though?”
“Yes!! Go!” he signed and walked off. Kelly wandered into the toilet again. She realized how bad she must look. Her green streaked black hair was tangled and knotted. Her eyes were red and puffy from all the crying. She lay on her bed and slipped into a troubled sleep. When she woke up, Billy was standing over her.
“HOLY SHIT!!”
He laughed and she smile, but still pushed him away.
“Here, I got your stuff. Benji rang as well.”
“Who? Oh…yeah.”
“He says he’s gonna come down later with Joel.”
“You know, they sound so familiar but I just can’t put my finger on it.” He shrugged and switched the radio on. My immortal was playing, making Kelly burst into tears yet again.
Billy embraced her and she cried into his chest.
“I’m sorry…so sorry for everything.”
“Ssh…none of this is your fault. It’s gonna be ok.”
She hugged him tightly before lying down again.
Just at that moment Benji came in, followed by Joel.
“Hi. Are you feeling better?” Benji asked.
“My head hurts.” She said.
Joel stepped towards her sheepishly.
“I’m sorry for being such an ass earlier.”
She shook her head.
“Um…well I was just thinking, when you’re able to go home, you could come stay with us.”
“I have my own house. I’ll be fine…really.”

ok, ok....you just acted evil for that chapter 🙂

😛

😄 😂

A tad depressing there. Suicidal and death related things are never cheerful.

That's for sure. At least Kelly's got a bunch of boys that are attempting to comfort her...

🙁 sorry if it's depressing....

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“Ok…Miss Rodriguez? You’re free to go but the doctor has given you this prescription for anti-depressants, and he recommends you book an appointment with a counselor.”
The nurse handed her a sheet of paper.
“Well, we have to go…I really hope you get better soon.” Benji and Joel hugged her quickly before leaving.
“Billy? Can I borrow a couple of dollars?”
“What for?”
She made a face.
“For ****s sake I have to get home!”
“Jeez…I’m giving you a lift.”
“What?”
“I’m giving you a lift to your house and I’m sleeping on the couch.”
“Excuse me??”
“I’m not leaving you on your own like this!”
“Why is everyone treating me like a charity case? I don’t need your sympathy.”
“I know that. Look, I’m not gonna pretend to know anything about you or how you’re feeling right now. I’ve never lost a best friend, let alone 2, but I wanna help. I understand if you don’t want me to stay with you, but I’m giving you a lift.”
He quickly scribbled something on a piece of paper.
“Here’s my number. If you need anything…anything at all, just call.”
She sniffed and nodded before hugging him and climbing into the car.
“Which house is it?”
“Oh, just on the left here.”
He pulled up and they both got out.
“Bye. Thanks, anyway.”
He nodded and gave her another hug before driving away.

Yay! Another update! Go Slashwrist!!!!

lol...i have a scary nickname, huh?

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As she walked in the door, she had another flashback to josh’s death. It made her feel faint and she leant against the wall. Silent tears rolled down her cheecks as she walked past ana’s room.
After having a shower, she put her hands in her pockets and pulled out billy’s number. Just as she was about to call him, there was a knock on her door.
“benji?”
“yeah. Hi. Listen, I have to ask you something. This might sound like a stupid question, but where have I seen you before? I had to come over, or it was gonna drive me to sui--.”
He stopped and bit his lip. She shook her head to say ‘forget about it.’
“I really don’t know. D’you wanna come in?”
“uh, sure. Wow, nice place.”
“yeah. Ana bought it when she came over from spain. That was….3 years ago.”
Kelly started crying again.
“oh shit! What is wrong with me?” she shouted at herself.
“nothing! Baby, your best friend just died. You have every right to be upset.” He leaned forward and let his lips brush against hers. She was surprised, but started kissing him back. He deepened the kiss, making it more passionate. He slowly slipped kelly’s top off, and she did the same to him. Kelly moaned against his lips and unzipped his pants. He groaned and continued to undress her, still keeping his lips locked against hers. Now they were only in their underwear.

Yes you do 😂

u gave it to me! 😆

I know 😄 Slashwrist!

its a good story keep going!!!