RK that really is tragic news,I'm very sorry for your loss.
try not to feel that everyone hates you..because it's not true. remember when when your in pain it creeps in every aspect of life,and you'll become depressed and view everything in a negative light,it happens to almost everyone who is grieving.
people love you.reach out to them.
you'll be in my thoughts and prayers..if you need talk some time feel free to pm me.