Yes, I've been on and off through this, and have felt suicidal twice in my life, but never acted, once in 7th grade, because it finally hit me that I had become very heavy, and constant bullying, I thought suicide was the answer, but I just never did it.
There's a few of you who know the 2nd time, if anyone else is curious, and that I am close to you and feel I can trust you with it, and not bring it back to the board, because it also involves people who come/used to come here, and I am NOT having names blown out of proportion.
Yes, ever since I turned 18 May 24th, I've felt a lot horribly than fun, through some events happening, and a man who I have been friends with since I was 12 years old, and was my best friend from 12-14, had just gotten arrested for driving intoxicated/destroying his vehicle, and what hurt even more and made me feel worse is, I never got to hang out with him through high school, I only talked to him in home room and saw him at his job, and now...well...who knows...since we all know how courts are...he probably will be completely inbetween court/prison/freedom for atleast a year before going to court...and yes...he is 18 along with me...so I don't know what is going to happen, so this news surely hasn't helped how I've felt lately, but I care more about my friends and family then my own life, so I just don't take bother to it, and just remain alone and bored, and help my friends when they need it, hang out, laugh and the such, but they know, and I'm sure my mother does...I know my grandmother does for sure.