Let Out Your True Feelings

what kind of probation BBG? With the law or with your church? 🙂

well i have no idea what it mean ta be on prob from the church so im on prob from the law. im a bad bad person 🥷

Originally posted by PippinTook
Oh, no...PR's gonna blow up when she sees this stuff 😂 *hids behind computer desk and watches in enjoyment* Oh, drat, I can't watch now...I gotta go eat...Talk to you guys later 😛

Yeah, you're right, Kella 😛

why would i bother blowing up over a guy like orlando bloom?? now...tommy page......😍

^ 'Cause you've done that since I met you, PR...😕

Originally posted by Kella
It's a matrix thing I think... I dunno.

Okay true feelings....

I'm not obsessing anymore and I hate it! I like my fantasy worlds. I want them back DAMMIT!
I'm having issues with my church. I can't explain it, but basically my life is under a microscope and I can't be me anymore. I'm not supposed to write about the things I love to write about...and I'm not supposed to date or have caffiene and dammit I love my cappucinos and jsut all kinds of shit! 😠
I don't understand why this has happened. I've been on this probation for the last 10 months and I've been doing everything they have asked of me. I turned my life totally around, but it isn't enough. It's not enough for them!!!
Now I have to be on probation another year or more...bullshit! 😠
If I back out I will be excommunicated from my church...I can't allow that so I do this probation and I do everything I am supposed to do. I gave up all of my old ways and alot ofmy old friends...people that I love...i gave them up. And for what? For it to not be enough?! 😠
Now I have to give up my writing and my interests... To take away my writing is the worst thing that could happen to me.
It's who I am. It's what makes me sane. Now I can't do it anymore cuz it's a danger to my progress!!!
What do they expect of me?! 😠
I don't understand!
*crawls into a corner and sobs* 🙁

Wow, Kella 🙁 That must really suck. I know how much you love writing considering you talk about it and your stories constantly. It sucks for us, too, cause your probation is delaying the day we get to read your finished Dommy story ❌

I agree, BBG. I can't live without writing, either. I write songs/poety/stories/whatever practically every day or whenever I get the chance to...I can't imagine having to live without it.

i would rather draw...🙂

I agree with that, too. I'm obsessed with writing and drawing. ✅

you any good at drawing?

I'm pretty damn good, if I do say so myself. The few people who've seen my drawings say I'm really good...I'll have to go to the library to scan them and post them on here one of these days...Are you any good? Got any pics you can post? Or PM to me or something...

not at the moment...but i'll take some tonight and post here....i mostly draw fairys and elves and mermaids...yanno....fantasy

Cool. ✅

Originally posted by Kella
It's a matrix thing I think... I dunno.

Okay true feelings....

I'm not obsessing anymore and I hate it! I like my fantasy worlds. I want them back DAMMIT!
I'm having issues with my church. I can't explain it, but basically my life is under a microscope and I can't be me anymore. I'm not supposed to write about the things I love to write about...and I'm not supposed to date or have caffiene and dammit I love my cappucinos and jsut all kinds of shit! 😠
I don't understand why this has happened. I've been on this probation for the last 10 months and I've been doing everything they have asked of me. I turned my life totally around, but it isn't enough. It's not enough for them!!!
Now I have to be on probation another year or more...bullshit! 😠
If I back out I will be excommunicated from my church...I can't allow that so I do this probation and I do everything I am supposed to do. I gave up all of my old ways and alot ofmy old friends...people that I love...i gave them up. And for what? For it to not be enough?! 😠
Now I have to give up my writing and my interests... To take away my writing is the worst thing that could happen to me.
It's who I am. It's what makes me sane. Now I can't do it anymore cuz it's a danger to my progress!!!
What do they expect of me?! 😠
I don't understand!
*crawls into a corner and sobs* 🙁

so let me guess you are mormon? What happened with them that made them make you feel this way?

so let me guess you are mormon?

SHE HAS GOOD RESON TO FEEL THIS WAY! THEY TOOK HER WRITING,COFFEE,AND OLD FRIENDS AWAY,GOD I HATE JERKS....I WOULD FEEL THE SAME WAY IF IT WERE I.... 😠 😠 😠

Originally posted by trav6612
so let me guess you are mormon? What happened with them that made them make you feel this way?

Yeah I am Mormon. Since you seem to know...you're obviously one too or you've encountered us.

I love my church and it's ways, but I can't be expected to be perfect and that's what it seems like they want from me.

I went along with the one year probation to change my life from the sh*thole it was. So I changed and I don't do anything I used to do. I haven't been able to go to church cuz my car died and apparently I'm being punished for it.

I dunno...maybe I'm overreacting. But this is more than a trivial thing to me. This is my eternal future. I know that sounds lame, but it's how I feel. 🙁

it doesn't sound lame kella...i understand...and i'll be here for you...if you ever need me...you know what to do

Thanks Re... I need a hug. 🙁

Oh and I can't believe I spent $80 on a present for my friend's bridal shower.... The limit was $20....but that's me...blowing my money. 😠

She better like it.... or I'll feel dumb for spending so much. 🙁

*hugs kella* 🙂 i need someone to feel better...cuz i sure don't 🙁 that speech of mine got me to tears almost

Dude...Don't be sad. Just go with the flow and don't start fights. It'll be all good. I'm over our fight...I'm okay with you now. Just don't push my buttons during PMS week again and we'll be fine. 😄

**hugs Re back** 😄

Alright guys, Kes isnt here right now, but if she was im sure she woudnt let this go on, so im going to close this. Its way off topic anyway.

There are threads for Johnny Depp and Orlando Bloom, please discuss everything there.

Closing.