you have the power to become anything you want. damn did i just sound like a parent or what. your young. you got your whole life to be loved,respected and gain wisdom. Power is an overated illsuion. you got the greatest power any human can have, and thats the power of choice. the more you despair on things that you arent and dont have , more of your life will pass by, and you will get older and realize all the missed oppertunities. this wil fuel an even greater cycle. the past can hurt,but doesnt matter. I am sure you are liked. You are smart, you seem sharp. Respect only massages your ego It doesnt effect your being or what you can do withyourself.
It seems you want everything that everyone wants. I think maybe you may have been a bit sarcastic, but do you really think you dont posses any of those things?