Well to make along long story short, I pushed him away because I was scared. I was hurt very bad in the past and I loved this man so much more then I ever thought I loved the one who hurt me. I was scared and pushed him away. He was pactient for a while but then I guess he couldn't handle it any longer. In addition he would confide in his mother and then she started to dislike me (he is a Mamas boy) and I think he let her influence him once we really tried to make it work. He is also the one who got me into Star Wars, which I am very thankful for. He will always have my heart and I hope he is doing well.