" when my brother was dying.. he said 'kaze... do you know the difference between the worst fear and fearing the worst...?' i told him no, and cried as he layed in my arms. he said. 'dont fear the worst for me.. because i am not afraid... and i think i shouldnt fear the worst for you.' i still dont get it.. but i think he was trying to keep me away from feeling lijke this.."