i don't know why she is sorry either. in one of my previous pms with her(sorry, didn't save that one), we talked about the pic i drew of her. i added a small bit of info in a pm i sent her describing what a person she is. nice and kind. but it seemed to me she was also sad and lonely. she told me i was the only one who has seen that side of her and that it seemed everyone either knew it was there and didn't react, or didn't know it was there at all. if i'm the reason she left, i truly do apologyze. she is a very special person, and i don't alienate anyone (or at least i don't try to). she has been very sad that past couple times i spoke with her in pms. i guess its just i have trained myself to notice stuff. sometimes i over-notice. she is a great friend and a very nice person. it would be a very sad day when she leaves, if she does. i truly hope she decides to stay. she has a lot of friends here.