thank you all....his fiance told me that he didnt suffer, he was complaining of stomach problems, but it wasnt that painful....he had internal bleeding, he bled out in 15 minutes, doctors didnt do any thing about it and they wouldnt have been able to stop it anyways...so its hard, everything reminds me of him....the songs "you've got a friend" by james taylor was played, along with 'kiss from a rose" by seal, so i downloaded them....the song 'you've got a friend' is a relly good song to play at his funeral...you should listen to it...then you will know how i feel.......
every one here is being so nice....well....not EVERYONE.......but not even my 'friends' where i live are this understanding, i have only gotten one phone call since this all happened, now, if one of my other friends were dead, Adam would be callin me every morning, afternoon, and night....so yeah, i guess i know the truth now...
I'm sorry, I know what it's like to lose someone close to you 🙁
But remember, honey, it's natural to feel that way when someone close to you dies, and he was a good friend to you.
I always asked people 'How come it won't stop hurting?...,' and to tell you the truth the pain never really went away.
If you want to chat you can always PM me 🙂
sorry about the lost, I have 2 dead freinds,
One killed himself, and the other was killed by a drunk on the road,(Dont drink and drive evey one I beg you please)
Still hurts when I think of them after all these years, I guess I never truly get over there deaths, but I lived with it. I guess you can do the same. Thats all I can say about advice I guess. Try to rebember the life you share with the freind, and not too much on the death.