okay, this is what i wrote him:
if this is not working, at least have the courage to tell me. and to be perfectly honest i am getting a little mad. i understand you have school, that you're busy, and that you even have a life outside of KMC, but so do i. i'm taking advanced spanish, advanced physics, advanced pre-cal, college level english, and college level history, not to mention that i have tons of homework when i get home. i even have tennis practice everyday. god, you have no idea how stressed i am right now. english and spanish are a pain in the ass. but despite all that i still manage to hang out with my friends on the weekends and get online from time to time. i'm not saying that you constantly need to be online when i'm online (which would be an absurd request) but it would be nice to hear from you. i send you pms and you never reply. it doesn't even take that long to write one, not even 5 minutes (well this one is taking more than 5 minutes but that's b/c i haven't talked to you in a week).
i don't mean to bring up scott, but he always replied back. we don't talk on a regular basis anymore, but we still talk. he at least sends me several pms a week, you know just to say hi and things like that.
i hope i don't sound needy, b/c i'm not really that type of a person, but it would be nice to hear from you. i don't mean to blow things out of proportion and i hope i'm not taking things out of context here, but right now i don't know what's going on.
just pm me when you get this.
oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY! its tomorrow right? the 5th? well, i just wanted to say happy birthday just incase i don't hear from you or that i might not be online tomorrow.
oh, and btw (if you're still keeping track) the 6th is our one month anniversay. that is if you still wanna be a couple. sorry if i sound cynical or sarcastic, i'm not trying to be.
talk to you later.
FJ, Neo, LF, sounds like you guys could use a vacation. Please support the house boat trip. We need some more peeps so we can set sail ASAP. There's even a 'love raft' so you can all make up and get away from this place. Take a break! I'm not asking you to abandon the Condom Shop, just take a break from it for a moment. 👆
All I know is this: Love Is Blind, by PULP.
[shrieking & wailing] Oaw / Give me the city / Give me the sea / Give to me everything I need / The future is shining / like a giant metal beast / It shines so bright tonight / with its legs open wide / and love is blind / falls in love with itself again / like it never should / the way it always can / and she is mine / but the world is much bigger now / Oh tell me / should I hold her hand / and give her love / or take her heart / and throw it far away? / Oh now is the time / to jump into it all / I'll just hold my nose / and try not to fall / To seek and to find / instead of walking around / with eyes glued to the sky / I turn them down to the ground / Oh and I used to think / that maybe one day / I'd find the love of my life / Oh but it's so far away / Oh I don't know why / Oh but I / I want it all tonight / and love is blind / falls in love with itself again / like it never should / the way it always can / oh and she is mine / but the world is so much bigger now / Oh tell me / should I hold her hand / and give her love or / take her heart / and throw it far away? / We held hands / and we looked out of the bedroom window / We could see all the buildings collapsing around us / So we kissed / and we laid on the bed / and we waited for the ceiling to fall in / But it never did / In the morning it was all still there / the spilled milk and the dog-turds / in that grey ashtray morning light / I could hear thousands of people / and they were all singing this song: / La lala lala... / Hey butcher! / Oh, oh, oh hey butcher! / What's your name? / Oh hey butcher, what's your game? / Ah, you take all their love / and you suck out their eyes / and then you rip out their hearts / and you eat their insides / Yeah, then you just walk away / with a smile on your face / Hey butcher / hey butcher / I've seen your face before / La ladadow da lalala... / And love is blind.