Shattered
I gave you my trust when you gave me your word,
Did that cross your mind before you did all you did?
Did you consider how I might feel?
How could I forgive you after this betrayal.
I thought that you loved me, I thought that you cared.
But all of this time you were after my friend.
You held me, assured me, kept me safe from harm,
Then dropped me like a stone after a beckon from her.
Did it give you a high to strangle my heart?
Are you now deaf to my screams still heard?
How could you turn away from me when I gave you my love,
To smile to the world as you stabbed me in the back.
So go to her now, while my heart still is breaking.
Why should it stop you to know that my tears burn like acid inside me?
I am broken to shards.
Nothing remakes the shattered mirror of my soul,
only you can restore me, and you left me in hell.
Alone
I sit alone, within my thoughts,
You cannot find me there.
This is my final solace,
My final sacred lair.
My fragile mind is bursting,
Bursting at the seams.
Although you break my body,
You cannot break my dreams.
I watch you sleep, I cannot breathe,
I know that you will wake.
I love you still, but still I fear,
My peace will too soon break.
Dreams
Dreams are our playground,
Dreams are our cage.
Dreams are our childhood,
Our fortress, our stage.
In dreams we are loved,
In dreams we have wings.
In dreams we can say
We alone hold the strings.
I dreamed you don’t leave me,
I dreamed that you stayed.
I dreamed that you left
The wooden bed that we made.
I dream of the silence,
I dream of the noise.
I dream we are more
Than simply just toys.
Scream
Can’t you hear me screaming?
You turn away from me.
Am I so repulsive
That you can’t bear to see?
I know that I am worthless.
I know I fail to shine.
But these words pour from my heart –
You can’t take them, they are mine.
I’m calling for you, with no words
But I cannot tell you why,
When all that falls, from your sweet lips,
Is lie piled upon lie.
The blood that falls, from my white skin,
Leaves patterns in the dust.
I know not why I love you,
I only know I must.
Ailuj's Moor
I sit in my room,
Up in Ailuj’s Moor,
And learn of the Raven
Who quoth “Nevermore,”
I live in my dreamworld
And enter all ye
Who are seekers of knowledge,
Imagination’s the key.
I brush out my locks,
Like a girl in a tower.
I don’t have the keys,
And it’s nigh witching hour.
There are eyes all around me,
Above and below.
They’re landscapes I’ve drawn,
But they’re only so-so.
So-so is my nature,
So-so is my name.
I drift through my time,
But it’s not just a game.
I see the things that no one else sees,
The eye of my mind never rests.
Devils and demons, the angels above,
In my thoughts they are free as the birds,
Their chains and fetters in the dust far below.
If you open your eyes, you will see as I see,
The things that mere mortals can't find.
Give me yoiur hand, we will roam like the wind,
Through clouds, sweet heaven and more,
Til no one can find us, yet they seek for all time.
Through the eyes in my heart I see your sweet face,
It lifts me up in my times of great sorrow.
Just to think of your smile is all that I need,
You are there, I can see you, I reach out...
But you're gone.
I sit in my room, alone with my thoughts, and think of the void which has replaced my heart.
I scream without sound for my lost treasures, stopping my ears to the silence.
They call to me, to join them, to lose myself, to forget myself.
I cannot.
I cannot give up that which is me, all I have left is my individuality.
Let me keep my soul.
Sweet Light of Day
I feel the sweet light of day on my skin...
It gives me hope, where before there was none.
I breathe in the life-giving air...
It lifts me up, to where earth and heavens merge.
I see the sunrise in its pure brilliance...
It helps me see all things anew.
I hear the dawn chorus, softly, with gentle melody...
It reminds me that simple pleasures last on.
I smell the spring flowers, perfumes on the air...
It reminds me that beauty can come from despair.
I sense the tranquility, in all that is me...
I am centered, renewed. reborn... and free.