Wow. I have had the best spring break of my life. 😱
I'm sure y'all are wondering about s_b and I's time together. s-b has promised to post, but I'll tell you some things now...
Tuesday was the day I freaked out and panicked and posted all that nervous stuff in tig party, and I thank you laurie, tassie, fire, storm, meggy, eezy, thor, lg, and everyone in tig who helped calm me down...you guys were right about everything...It all fell into place when I met her, and all the nerves disappeared when I was with her.
I could hardly believe my eyes when I first saw her. I had been waiting a while, the flight was delayed, and I was sooo nervous at the time I couldn't sit down, so I walked around the parking garage 47 or so times to pass the slooooow passing of time.
I saw her coming through the security gate thingy later, but she didn't see ME. (muhaha) and for a few seconds I just sat there in silent admiration and awe and I was frozen in my seat. I couldn't move, I just sat there watching her walk towards the escalator....I got up and started to run after her, but she had a head start and she was quickly out of sight, I saw her sister hand her the cell phone, and realized she was about to call me! I looked at my phone and saw it light up, I answered and said:"I see you!" and she started laughing and saying lots of things....
I ran down stairs to bagage-claim, and couldn't find her...We were still on the phone so she said, I see you!
haha, well SHe told me she was outside, and I went out the sliding glass doors, and looked to my right and saw her standing on a bench smiling at me....she was far away, and I could only here her through the phone, but as I walked towards her, and as we got closer, I realized I didn't need the phone anymore and I just hung up, and pulled the phone away from my ear, and she did the same. And readers, I can't tell you how amazing it was to just speak to her for the first time like that, without a huge distance between us. We hugged immediately and she jumped off the bench in my arms...lol
And then I died.
*but then Solina brought me back to life and SAVED ME! oh babe, you SAVED ME! I'm forever in your debt.😄
😱I Met her!!!!!!!!! she was in my arms...I had her, and I held on, it was like nothing I could ever have imagined, It wasn't like my dreams or fantasies...-it was so much better! Holding her hand. Holding her in my arms next to me, so close to me, I could feel all of her pressing up against me, It was the most amazing feeling I've ever felt, to finally be close to the girl I love so much, the girl I've loved for the entire past year...there in my arms...I finally had her.
It did take me a little while to first reach for her hand in the car though....😮, But I was only shy for a little while, and soon neither of us had any inhibitions at all.
We had a great time that day, and we had many firsts that night.
the next day was great. In the morning I thought s-b would never wake up!! lol, but she did, and we spent most of the day walking and talking in the woods behind my house, and in my room...
We went to watch 'Sin City', and btw Elijah wood is amazing in it!! even though he's a serial killer. but for some reason I had trouble paying attention to the movie...😖
Taco Bell's open late, so we fed each other casidillas in the car....haha
S-b, gave me her watch before she left, and it's set to California time always. Before she left, My Family cooked a feast for us, and we ate,
And Solina sang for everybody!!!!!!!😱 PEOPLE! she is the best singer on the face of the globe! Iv'e never heard a more beautiful voice, I am now convinced that she's an angel sent from Heaven above, to dominate the earth with her captivating voice of angelic beauty, an elf-angel-mermaid-princess-girl, that all who look upon her beauty fall under her spell for the rest of their lives, with the spell landing the most heavily on ME....Obviously she's held in highest honor in the heavens, being the chief of the holy choir, and in charge of all engagings of the mind, all things beautiful, and everything complex and amazing. Sent here by the other angels to take the form of a human and fall in love with ME!😱
Mission Accomplished.
shock Omg, I've gone waaaaaay off topic....erherm*
And so the time came for her to leave🙁
We promised each other we would see each other again, and I carried her bag, and my throbbing heart into the airport.
There was nothing so hard, as to watch her go through that damn security gate, where I couldn't follow. I kissed her goodbye, as long as time allowed, and watched her leave....the security people just stared at me smiling, and the old woman security guard started fanning herself and said:
"It's gettin' hot in he-uh!"
lol, the guy asked me if I was going to L.A. and I told him I wished. I waved goodbye. and watched her leave out of sight, I forced myself to turn around and leave the airport.
And that's about everything...It was too short, but every second was paradise. Solina has made me the happiest guy in the world...She's so special to me, and I wouldn't trade any of our time together for the world. I miss her, and I love her.
-Babe I love you so much...I hope I made every moment memorable. I love you. And I know we'll see each other again....🙂
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Ad and Aurora, if your reading this, you are an inspiration to me...Solina and I have remembered your words for the longest time, and they were so true:
"As long as you both are willing and the desire is there, who's to stop you?"
Exa & Sauron/Chris
Thanks for being great friends to both of us, we luv y'all a lot...
Woah…I haven’t posted anything in aaages…and nothing’s better than going back to recount what happened during the best spring break in the history of the universe. 😄
Anyway, let me just say that 2005 has been one of the best years of my life, and this spring break will remain as one of the best and most important events that has ever happened to me and I wouldn’t trade any single second that I’ve ever spent with Joshua/Smodden for anything in the world. Everything went so great and perfect. Everything was sooooo good and right. Now I feel so silly for being so damn nervous weeks before the trip, lol. Everything was so much greater than anything I’ve ever imagined, dreamed or hoped for, and it will remain as the best experience of my life.
April 5, 2005 was the day. It was the day that the countdown in Smoddy’s sig was referring to; it was one of the days that will never be erased from my memory. I woke up early after barely being able to sleep the night before and got ready for the trip. Everything went so smoothly at first, me being with my sister and all. We went to Burger King and bought some French toast and drove off to the freeway all the way to the airport. We were listening to some songs when my sister just started freaking out and suddenly pulled over on the side. The car broke down!!! I was freaking out, I was upset ‘coz my sister said we should be canceling the trip because we were gonna be late for our flight. Now that I think about it, it might have been around the same time Smodden was freaking out in Tig Party, lol. I can’t even describe to all of you how awful I felt during the time. I wanted to call Smodden to break the news that the trip would be canceled…AGAIN (long story) but I didn’t because I couldn’t bear disappointing him again. I wanted to wait until I was surely at home incapable of changing the situation. My sister’s car got towed, but thank goodness her friend called and said he could pick us up from where we were and take us anywhere we wanted. Then I had some grain of hope restored. But then my sister was still kinda persistent to cancel the trip because she said by the time Donald (her friend) gets there, it will be too late. So she called the airport to cancel the trip but the girl on the other line offered a later flight. So then we took it! ( I wouldn’t go into whole detail, lol, because I think I’m getting boring. The important thing is we made it! )
So at 1PM, we were at the airport, with the boarding pass in our hands, then I called Josh to inform him that the flight was gonna be delayed but we were DEFINITELY coming. LOL, it was amusing to hear Smodden’s voice on the other line. I could feel that he was so nervous and freaking out but very excited and happy at the same time. At 1:38PM, we boarded the plane, and I couldn’t believe it! I was actually going to Mississippi! To see the love of my life…Joshua…Smodden. We’ve waited a looong time, and it was actually going to happen! By the time I got to Georgia, I called him again, lol…and he was on his way to the Baton Rouge airport where he was gonna pick us up. Then we said, “see you in an hour and a half.” It sounded so great, lol. I was so happy and calm and collected at the time. Then I started freaking out when we got to Baton Rouge all ready to land! My heart was beating so fast, I was having butterflies, my whole body was shaking, I thought my liver and kidneys would climb up to my throat, lol. shock I was very nervous but sooo happy and excited too. When I got off the plane, I tried to calm myself down, convincing myself that everything will fall into place and I’ll have the best time ever. I calmly walked around the airport, trying to find Smodden, lol…and I swear I didn’t see him so I asked my sister for her phone and called him. Then he started saying, “I can see you…” in a mysterious, stalker-ish but very sexy way…😛 I felt like I was being watched by someone that I so badly wanted to see and watch and touch and feel and taste and everything for the longest time. So I went out of the airport and like he said in his previous post above, it was his turn to be stalked, lol. Before we met, we described to each other what we were gonna wear, lol…so as soon as I saw the guy in the green shirt, I knew it was him! IT WAS HIM!!! 😱 I couldn’t believe my eyes, lol…I wanted to run, not away but towards him, but I just found myself all frozen while standing on that bench, lol…and when he finally came out, I just smiled really big and waved at him, then he started walking up to me! I swear I can’t remember what exactly I was feeling at the time, lol…I was having a sensory overload, and all I managed to do was hug him really tight for the longest time not wanting to let go, lol. I couldn’t believe it. I was actually touching him! I was hugging him! I was with him!!! It was the happiest moment of my life.
Then yeah…he already told you guys about some of our happenings so I wouldn’t repeat them because it will be very redundant. 😛 All I can say is that I will never look at a blue bedroom and woods and movie theatre and front yard and a backseat and living room and bathroom and porch and airport the same way again. 😖hifty:
The hardest part of the trip was when I was about to go home, back to my old, boring life here in California, without the guy I’ve always wanted to be with. I felt like I was Gimli as he was leaving Lothlorien. cry In fact, I’m still kinda in shock right now and I can’t really think that well, so I apologize if this post sounds a bit lame for some people. It’s just that…everything that happened while I was in Mississippi, with Joshua, is very hard to describe, and no word could ever give justice to how happy and contented and secured and peaceful and in love I felt during every single second I was with him. The trip was very worth it. Joshua is worth it. He deserves all the happiness and love in the world, and I feel so happy that he’s the person I love so very deeply.
Babe, I know we’re gonna see each other again, and it’ll be very soon. I promise I’ll be with you again. You made me the happiest person in the world, and every moment I spent with you will always be in my heart and memory. You’re worth the wait, you’re worth and deserve everything. You’re the most wonderful person I’ve ever known, and being with you has been the greatest gift I’ve ever received. You’re great, and you surpassed all my greatest and wildest dreams. 😉 Your family has been very great to us too, and I can’t thank them enough for letting us stay and making us feel that we’re such a part of the family. I’ll always remember Spring Break of 2005, the days I started to recall what true happiness and love and being alive truly meant again.
You’re the greatest person I know, and you have no idea how much I miss you. I love you so much. cry
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To everyone, thank you so much for the support and being there for us. You have no idea how much it means to us to share all these wonderful things to the people who care so much. We luv y’all!
Wow!!!!!!!! A.D. and I are soooooooooooo happy for you!!!!!!! Congrats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I also want to thank you both for reminding me of the feeling of our first meeting.... at times I forget that wonderful feeling, but I never forget the love that we had and have now.
I think it is cool that you guys met almost exactly one year later than A.D. and I, March 26th. We wish you guys all the best and we love you both!!!!!!!
Holy cow ! Smodden I was hoping that one day that this would come true for you...and it seems that it finally has. I am so happy for you and SB that words cannot do it justice !
A year ago it seemed that I would never find love, and now look at me...I hope that you too have found what it is that you have been looking for !
Congrats and I am so happy for the both of you !!!
Jeez, I was just reading the first page again and I couldn't get over Smodden's post, lol, so I had to post it again. It's just so true and I got excited while reading it. 😛
Originally posted by Smodden
one day your not in it and tomorow you are....and when love catches you it dosn't let go with out a fight.....it throws you up in pillowy clouds and bounces you to far off places it guides your true match...
a match that everyone knows was right for you
everyone knows was perfect for you....and was waiting for you all this time....all the past dosn't mater cause for this one instant, this one moment you and her are all that mater....you take her in your arms and you don't want to let go....ever....and all you want is to fall back and lay for eternity embracing eachother....and for that one moment you streth out into a minute
to a hour...to a year...to 10 years....to the end of your life...and beyond....because now love has you...and you have love.
Your words were very right, babe. That's exactly what I'm feeling now. Thanks to you. I love you so much. 🙂
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AD and Aurora!!! 😱 Thank you so much. 😊 You guys have been great inspiration to us, and we feel so happy to see you again and share our happiness. 😄
Tassie, don't leave or I'll slap you. 😐
Joking. 😖hifty: 😛 Tassie, thank you so much for always being there for me. You're such a good friend. hug