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You broke me from the stillness, from my silent world.
Hurtled me into the rapture of this unknown.
You opened my eyes, gave me the ability to see,
Introduced me to another that I had hid inside of me.
Yet I became afraid, I grew petrified
I knew not what I should do with these brand new eyes.
So out of hatred, out of comfort did I make myself go blind.
I silenced this bleeding heart, I hushed my singing mind.
But out of love you gave me life
And in return I introduced you to my vengeful spite.
But now looking at the spot that you once gracef'lly occupied
I now realize in your absence that a part of me has died.
I call your name, please come back!
I see the errors of my ways etched in regretful black.
I know the fool that I was, the idiot I have been.
Be merciful on me, let me repent for my sins.
I pray don't go, don't let me be.
Instill me with the love that was inside of me.
Open the eyes that once were shut, set free the silent mind.
Hurl me back into the world, please don't leave me far behind.
Oh woe is me! I rule the day
That I cruelly took your heart and threw it away.
If I only had one chance, just one button to restart.
I'd go back into the past and I'd shatter my own heart.
To let you down, I'd rather die.
I would throw myself to death then watch you cry.
I would rather feel the pain of a thousand empty moons.
Then go through another moment with the emptiness being true.
So hear me now, be not deaf to my prayers.
Do not avert my eyes into a loveless stare.
That river that once flowed is now a dried up river bed,
Grant me respite from this insanity who now cruelly rules my head.
For they run loose, my maddening thoughts.
These are the things I feared that I once talked about.
The anarchist society that has corrupted all my dreams,
of my soul flying away, now I'm longing to be free.
I beg of you, look in your heart.
I ask of your forgiveness, nothing else to part.
You wont have to say much, not even look at me at all,
Let me go, set me free, from your grace then shall I fall.
But here it'll be, by my own accord.
I will take my vile self, from you I'll soar.
I wont plague you with me sight, I wont bother anymore.
I will even let you be when, with age, your beard is hoar.
Yet listen hear, I know the truth.
I can not live in a world empty of you.
So I've sailed on this black ship, upon these pale sails.
To look out to the starless sky and forever shall I wail,
~~~~"Oh monstrous faith, why so harsh?
~~~~?Shall I sail forever on this darkening horse?
~~~~?Will all who look upon my sight gaze at me with hate?
~~~~?Or will they instead pity me and pity me for my state?
~~~~?Oh listen world hear my cry, do not let the heart that loves you so cruelly die.
~~~~?Give it mercy, give it goodness, in work, and thought and deeds.
~~~~?Do not treat one another as I did so treat he.
~~~~?Live and love, do nothing more.
~~~~?Kill the wretched illness that you harbor.
~~~~?Do not let it wiggle out, nor peep its head to see.
~~~~?For the damage that it will cause, you just have to look at me.
~~~~?So if you fear this horror's state.
~~~~?Stay close within your lover's grace.
~~~~?Do not push them afar, nor let them go astray
~~~~?For the hunter that shall hunt them shall steal your love away."
So I do sail, on these empty nights.
When the darkness of this world is my own respite.
When all the pain that I carry wishes to unfurl.
I throw it overboard onto a darkening world.
So now you see, my once beloved.
How I suffer in the name of that once was.
How I carry this my pain, how it burdens me this way.
Yet I look upon your face, and my burdens lift away.
One day I hope, you'll look at me.
You will smile and your smile will fill me with glee.
You brush away my chains, you will break away my bonds.
You will take me from this ship, and in your mercy shall I fawn.
So pray thee be, be not long.
For the nights I gaze upon remind me of my wrong.
And I assure you I have learned, I will not so err again
I will show the world your kindness, in this oath I shall not wane.
So will you come, and rescue me?
You whom I still love so passionately?
Will you raise me from my bondage, will you love me once more.
Shall I feel the silky sands upon your loving shore?
Will I see the glowing sun upon your gentle face?
Will it radiate throughout me with agape grace?
Will it enkindle within me, that love that made me see?
Will I once more live the life that I had hidden within me?
Do you hear the call, the trumpet sound.
Oh it marks the calling of my burial ground.
My love I've let you go, where I'm going you can not come.
It is the humble resting place were your love I shall be numb.
Better for me that I should be.
Within this resting ground sleeping silently.
Devoid of all your love, your hurt as well as mine.
At least here I can not plague your heart or make dead my thoughtful mind.
Where you'll look and see, not remembering,
the fate that the devil placed so thoughtfully.
You will look with amnesia's eyes, you will gaze upon a stone.
You will not think twice before my grave your eyes would have flown.
And in this sadness, now I know.
Best it was to never think or have thee so.
In my death you will be free of ever knowing me.
And I will never suffer of ever hurting thee.