im wondering if there's something genuinely wrong with me
i mean, on top of the whole list of other things wrong with me
but, like, it seems, that the only time i can sleep, is when im so tired that it feels as if im teetering on the brink of madness
even if i feel physically and mentally drained, i still can't sleep. i just lay there for hours trying to fall asleep, but to no avail
ive tried everything
sleeping pills, sleeping with the fan on, sleeping with the fan off, sleeping with my lamp on, sleeping with it off, listening to music, laying in complete silence, i even read, i think it was the other night, i can't remember. i don't even know what today is, right now. but i read and read and read until i found that i had finished the book completely and when i started, i was only a third of the way in.
im kinda scared, to be honest. cause even though i really want to sleep, and i feel really tired, i can't get to sleep until im at the verge of passing out walking to my bedroom
just finished cleaning off the shelves and stand behind my bed 😄
used to be cluttered with all kind of stuff, now i got those books i bought at the last library sale on it and a few other things that needed moved around on it 😄
plus, NO MORE NASTY DUST!!! eekw00t
now i need to sweep the floor and possibly wash my sheets cause of all the dust i kicked up whilst cleaning mmm