Hmm it turned out a lil ........... different...... kinda like a letter i guess
I just want my pain felt. If anyone needs or wants to hear more details dont be shy to ask 😄
Well here it is 😮
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There are so many things I could say
There are so many ways I could say them
For a whole year I have been thinking of a way to up what I feel into words.
How do I feel?
Happy, sad, mad and alone
That’s confusing to feel so many ways at once but I do.
Happy, because I finally have my own life!
Sad, because I miss being a part of your life.
Mad, because I can’t understand why you could hurt the people closest to you
Alone, because it’s hard not having someone there to count on 24-7.
I don’t know where to begin.
We gave you love, a home, food and safety and all you do is steal, use us and break our hearts!
Why?
You know what else is on my mind. I know you will never admit to it even on your dieing day. But I know and will always remember and I know you will always remember. Because you know you wanted it because every time we said we should stop it never did. A secret love is hard to ignore you know it is.
Don’t turn away now.
Love as strong as ours was, you were able to break it..
Remember that chain that we always said was unbreakable?
Where is it now? Now that we don’t speak to one another,
After 8 years! And this is what happens?
A part of me does miss you but the other is saying “Good bye”
I guess I’m writing this to manly get this pain off my chest
But I can promise you one thing my love, that you will never find anyone else or any other family who is willing to deal with as much as we did. You will never find someone who loved you as much as I did!
Never again will I sacrifice so much for you!
I am done with the pain
I am done with the lies
I am done!
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