Originally posted by Inspectah Deck
Are you not flamboyant yourself?
no, actually, I'm not flamboyant at all. Most people in the "real world" don't even know I'm gay. You might need to get past your engrained stereotypes. The only reason I dwell on it here on KMC is because I feel the need to defend myself as well as other gay people, from people who like to talk out their ass in regards to homosexuals. (no pun intended)
Originally posted by blood_ninja
so then who do u like? mb it will be easier
#1: This topic was not about whom SpellJammer has a crush on or a lack thereoff, it was a simple question on what was love like. How you personaly would express it in words..
#2: This thread was not about homosexuality, don't knock it, don't rock it, leave that for some other thread.
#3: WHY DO ALL OF SPELLJAMMER'S THREADS FAIL?! >_<
Originally posted by Spelljammer
...#3: WHY DO ALL OF SPELLJAMMER'S THREADS FAIL?! >_<
I think that you have over stated this. I don't think this thread has failed. Your artistic style is unsettling to most people. They try to help you, but don't know what you want because they don't get a connection with you. When I talk to you, I feel like I am talking to an interpreter or a go between who I don't know. I suggest, if this third person artistic expression (as you put it) is to continue, define the interpreter. Let that be the person who we are talking to about Spelljammer. Give him his own opinions, and he doesn't have to agree with Spelljammer all the time.
It might be fun. 😄
Ah, SpellJammer gets it now, you want to get to know the real "me" not some persona put on for amusement. Makes sense..
Well, despite reffering in the third person for fun, I can actually be quite a serious guy. I don't like to argue, I don't like people to suffer, but I also am a very emotional person. So alot of times, in the moment, I do, you dig? Wizard of how/King of the now..
My name is Brian, which is a gross peversion of everything I feel I am..
#1: It means leader of God or one who leads others to God. I'm no leader, and hardly close to God by any means. Infact alot of the reason I'm so upset is because I'm very spiritual and yet could be in a room of people and feel completely abscent and disconnect. You can diagnos it as depression, I call it a punishment.
#2: Brian Adams the rock singer I was named after. A crappy rock singer who bad too many bad love songs.
#3: Mom's highschool sweetheart who died. I supposedly act like him and even have the same limp in the same leg. Not only is that creepy on SO many level, but the notion that I come back the same as when I left isn't very reassuring, I havn't grown, I'm still every flaw, every suck I was before.
That's why I am always so stuck on religon. It pains me, nay, ANGERS me to see people, who have so much potential to do so many great things, waste it on stupid shit because they don't want to believe that somewhere inside them God resides. Just waiting to burst out and create something special. I don't see that in myself, so I can only do the next best thing and "unlock the doors" of other people. That's why I offered to teach Jennifer about witchcraft, that's why I go to church with Amanda/Ashley so they keep having faith, and that's probably the only reason why I havn't tried injecting myself with insulin so I slip and die. Because I have made it my mission to see God in every man, woman, and child. Wether they want to believe in Him or not.
But It's not like I don't have hobbies. I love to write, I love to tell jokes, I love to entertain. It amuses me and them, and I'd rather be laughing, then thinking about the disconnection. I don't know if anyone else feels like that, they probably do, but try to immagine a void, a void that has no beggeining or ending, it's so dark you can't even see yourself and when you yell, words don't even come out because the space is so vast. I think alot of people try to fill this void with alchahol, sex, drugs, this is obviously what happens to those seperate from God, and I'm left asking myself, why me? Why them? Alot of people deserve suffering and they never get it, alot more people don't and get it anyway. It isn't fair, it isn't right.
So I entertain. I don't want to be some awe inspiring philsopher, I don't want money, or looks, or even for liberals to stop exsisting. (Though it'd be damn nice. 😛 ) I just want life to not be so empty, and for other's to be too. I have more compassion then I want to admit, because I blame that compassion for making me feel like shit. And most of all I want a family, a wife, some kids, maybe a bulldog who doesn't do shit and just grunts alot and if a burglar comes i trip him and the dog sits on his face..
But I don't know if I'll ever get those things, so damnit, I'm going to entertain..
Oh, and if you call me a loser, or someone who needs medication or something else offensive. I will report you. I'm crazy, not blind.. 😉
Originally posted by Capt_Fantastic
Any artist would have gotten the joke. And most girls hesitate to date artist, as they think they're gay.
And SpellJammer's threads fail for the same reason they failed as Big Evil--he's a mentally...abstract person who makes these threads about emotions and crap and he obviously has some sort of emotional instability that he needs to deal with. Probably beginning with the fact that he refers to himself in third person.
Originally posted by FeceMan
So you're agreeing?Wasn't expecting that one.
That's the problem with alot of people (Yourself included.) you're quick to judge others and point out thier flaws, but you don't want to take a look at yourself, you SAY you do, but do you REALLY? It's painful to have to look at yourself, you know every thought that go's across that little head of your's. Every sin, every mistake, every emotion, you know everything you've done, might've done, and probably will do.. And boy must it SUCK to have to judge that.
So you know what man? Don't. I can tell you from exprience, it will **** you up..
But don't go judging other people, it only makes them feel worse, and you know what that makes you? An *******. I'm not trying to insult you, I'm trying to help you. Do you want to be an *******? You're well spoken and seem nice enough. (albeit probably liberal, but again, trying not to judge.. 😛 ) but you got to get over this whole judging thing. It really holds you back..
Oh, and I'm sure the me blaming the liberals for why polio exsist thing bugs alot of you. Well, everyone needs a scapegoat. Besides, it always makes me giggle to treat liberals as like the peverbal Satan. It's almost to me as if saying a wizard did it. So whenever some wierd shit happens that defies logic and is something horrible, a liberal was at fault.
Notice I don't make conservatives out to be heroes or anything. I just don't like liberals.. Hell, I'll admit it right now, I don't know why conservatives hate terrorists, they're just like them..
Originally posted by Spelljammer
Ah, SpellJammer gets it now, you want to get to know the real "me" not some persona put on for amusement. Makes sense..Well, despite reffering in the third person for fun, I can actually be quite a serious guy. I don't like to argue, I don't like people to suffer, but I also am a very emotional person. So alot of times, in the moment, I do, you dig? Wizard of how/King of the now..
My name is Brian, which is a gross peversion of everything I feel I am..
#1: It means leader of God or one who leads others to God. I'm no leader, and hardly close to God by any means. Infact alot of the reason I'm so upset is because I'm very spiritual and yet could be in a room of people and feel completely abscent and disconnect. You can diagnos it as depression, I call it a punishment.
#2: Brian Adams the rock singer I was named after. A crappy rock singer who bad too many bad love songs.
#3: Mom's highschool sweetheart who died. I supposedly act like him and even have the same limp in the same leg. Not only is that creepy on SO many level, but the notion that I come back the same as when I left isn't very reassuring, I havn't grown, I'm still every flaw, every suck I was before.
That's why I am always so stuck on religon. It pains me, nay, ANGERS me to see people, who have so much potential to do so many great things, waste it on stupid shit because they don't want to believe that somewhere inside them God resides. Just waiting to burst out and create something special. I don't see that in myself, so I can only do the next best thing and "unlock the doors" of other people. That's why I offered to teach Jennifer about witchcraft, that's why I go to church with Amanda/Ashley so they keep having faith, and that's probably the only reason why I havn't tried injecting myself with insulin so I slip and die. Because I have made it my mission to see God in every man, woman, and child. Wether they want to believe in Him or not.
But It's not like I don't have hobbies. I love to write, I love to tell jokes, I love to entertain. It amuses me and them, and I'd rather be laughing, then thinking about the disconnection. I don't know if anyone else feels like that, they probably do, but try to immagine a void, a void that has no beggeining or ending, it's so dark you can't even see yourself and when you yell, words don't even come out because the space is so vast. I think alot of people try to fill this void with alchahol, sex, drugs, this is obviously what happens to those seperate from God, and I'm left asking myself, why me? Why them? Alot of people deserve suffering and they never get it, alot more people don't and get it anyway. It isn't fair, it isn't right.
So I entertain. I don't want to be some awe inspiring philsopher, I don't want money, or looks, or even for liberals to stop exsisting. (Though it'd be damn nice. 😛 ) I just want life to not be so empty, and for other's to be too. I have more compassion then I want to admit, because I blame that compassion for making me feel like shit. And most of all I want a family, a wife, some kids, maybe a bulldog who doesn't do shit and just grunts alot and if a burglar comes i trip him and the dog sits on his face..
But I don't know if I'll ever get those things, so damnit, I'm going to entertain..
Oh, and if you call me a loser, or someone who needs medication or something else offensive. I [b]will
report you. I'm crazy, not blind.. 😉 [/B]
First, head to the religion forum, there are some topics there I'd like to hear your opinion on...first of which is why you feel te need to "convert" people. God is one thing, your idea of him is totally another.
Secondly, you wanna know what being in-love is like. But, thats something you have to figure out for yourself. I could tell you what I think being in-love is, but that wouldn't be the same concept you'd discover on your own. For me, love is one thing and being in-love is another. There have been several people in my life that I have loved. I have loved them, but not been in-love with them. But, when I have been in-love, then I have known because I have put them first. I am a genuinly selfish person, but when I have considered anothers feelings, at the expense of my own, then I have truely been i n love with them. But, teh one BIG love of my life convinced me to open my eyes and appreciate the smaller things in life. The simple beautiful things that I am quick to not notice...or flat out ignore.
As I once heard, and believe with every fiber of my being: The biggest waste of time in life is thinking you truely know what another person means, when they say "I love you".
All you can do, is feel the way you do...and hope it's enough for the other person.
Originally posted by Spelljammer
Why not? Who am I? Fricking Jesus? We all have problems.. I could name a couple of your's, but there's no need too, you know them.. There your problem's, you deal with them.. I got my own bags to carry..That's the problem with alot of people (Yourself included.) you're quick to judge others and point out thier flaws, but you don't want to take a look at yourself, you SAY you do, but do you REALLY? It's painful to have to look at yourself, you know every thought that go's across that little head of your's. Every sin, every mistake, every emotion, you know everything you've done, might've done, and probably will do.. And boy must it SUCK to have to judge that.
So you know what man? Don't. I can tell you from exprience, it will **** you up..
But don't go judging other people, it only makes them feel worse, and you know what that makes you? An *******. I'm not trying to insult you, I'm trying to help you. Do you want to be an *******? You're well spoken and seem nice enough. (albeit probably liberal, but again, trying not to judge.. 😛 ) but you got to get over this whole judging thing. It really holds you back..
Oh, and I'm sure the me blaming the liberals for why polio exsist thing bugs alot of you. Well, everyone needs a scapegoat. Besides, it always makes me giggle to treat liberals as like the peverbal Satan. It's almost to me as if saying a wizard did it. So whenever some wierd shit happens that defies logic and is something horrible, a liberal was at fault.
Notice I don't make conservatives out to be heroes or anything. I just don't like liberals.. Hell, I'll admit it right now, I don't know why conservatives hate terrorists, they're just like them..
You are the most ignorant poster here if you think that I'm a liberal. Sheesh...your posting habits never change. Everything you post is pretty much a rehashed, reprocessed pile of "liberals are insane, they are bad people", "conservatives are neo-Nazis", and "I'm a moderate because I hate both sides of the political spectrum".
And I'm well aware that it sucks to look at one's own faults. That's why I take out my contacts before looking in a mirror.
Originally posted by FeceMan
Seriously...psychiatric counseling.You are the most ignorant poster here if you think that I'm a liberal. Sheesh...your posting habits never change. Everything you post is pretty much a rehashed, reprocessed pile of "liberals are insane, they are bad people", "conservatives are neo-Nazis", and "I'm a moderate because I hate both sides of the political spectrum".
And I'm well aware that it sucks to look at one's own faults. That's why I take out my contacts before looking in a mirror.
So, if everyone knows he's been banned before, and he even admits to it...why the hell has no one banned him again?
Originally posted by Spelljammer
Ah, SpellJammer gets it now, you want to get to know the real "me" not some persona put on for amusement. Makes sense..Well, despite reffering in the third person for fun, I can actually be quite a serious guy. I don't like to argue, I don't like people to suffer, but I also am a very emotional person. So alot of times, in the moment, I do, you dig? Wizard of how/King of the now..
My name is Brian, which is a gross peversion of everything I feel I am..
#1: It means leader of God or one who leads others to God. I'm no leader, and hardly close to God by any means. Infact alot of the reason I'm so upset is because I'm very spiritual and yet could be in a room of people and feel completely abscent and disconnect. You can diagnos it as depression, I call it a punishment.
#2: Brian Adams the rock singer I was named after. A crappy rock singer who bad too many bad love songs.
#3: Mom's highschool sweetheart who died. I supposedly act like him and even have the same limp in the same leg. Not only is that creepy on SO many level, but the notion that I come back the same as when I left isn't very reassuring, I havn't grown, I'm still every flaw, every suck I was before.
That's why I am always so stuck on religon. It pains me, nay, ANGERS me to see people, who have so much potential to do so many great things, waste it on stupid shit because they don't want to believe that somewhere inside them God resides. Just waiting to burst out and create something special. I don't see that in myself, so I can only do the next best thing and "unlock the doors" of other people. That's why I offered to teach Jennifer about witchcraft, that's why I go to church with Amanda/Ashley so they keep having faith, and that's probably the only reason why I havn't tried injecting myself with insulin so I slip and die. Because I have made it my mission to see God in every man, woman, and child. Wether they want to believe in Him or not.
But It's not like I don't have hobbies. I love to write, I love to tell jokes, I love to entertain. It amuses me and them, and I'd rather be laughing, then thinking about the disconnection. I don't know if anyone else feels like that, they probably do, but try to immagine a void, a void that has no beggeining or ending, it's so dark you can't even see yourself and when you yell, words don't even come out because the space is so vast. I think alot of people try to fill this void with alchahol, sex, drugs, this is obviously what happens to those seperate from God, and I'm left asking myself, why me? Why them? Alot of people deserve suffering and they never get it, alot more people don't and get it anyway. It isn't fair, it isn't right.
So I entertain. I don't want to be some awe inspiring philsopher, I don't want money, or looks, or even for liberals to stop exsisting. (Though it'd be damn nice. 😛 ) I just want life to not be so empty, and for other's to be too. I have more compassion then I want to admit, because I blame that compassion for making me feel like shit. And most of all I want a family, a wife, some kids, maybe a bulldog who doesn't do shit and just grunts alot and if a burglar comes i trip him and the dog sits on his face..
But I don't know if I'll ever get those things, so damnit, I'm going to entertain..
Oh, and if you call me a loser, or someone who needs medication or something else offensive. I [b]will
report you. I'm crazy, not blind.. 😉 [/B]
First of all, faceman go away this is not the time for your cr*p.
I don't think you need medication (maybe a beer but that's all) and I will only joke with you, it is a sin for me to slander anyone. If you have ever been offended by anything I have said to you, let me tell you now, that it was not intended to hurt you in any way.
I think you have it right. you have the important things in the right place. As for the empty place, I get it, I am the same way. I suffered for many years, but I have found my answer, you have to find yours. I am happier than I've ever been in my life, because I have fully realized that I'm ok just the way I am. We can live in hell or we can live in heaven, the choice is ours to perceive this fact.
It's nice to meet you my friend. I wish you great happiness. Pm me any time...
They un-banned me out of sympathy. They keep me un-banned because I havn't done what I was banned for.
Which was and I quote "being abusive to other members and being a general problem"
Another words, I don't seek out to bring people down. Which sounds increddibly like what you're doing. But frankly, I have better things to do then worry about wether you think I'm a troll or not. Like worry about making troll npcs for that Fable game i advertised in the rp section..