I'm helpless wihout her. The problem I have is knowing she was with me and I regret not being able to realize it on time. I felt better before because I didn't think I'll ever be with her even by loving her all inside of me. She said something about weight but she's always been kidding and I didn't believe it "candy bar" was what she said. This is not a game, it was a surprise to me that day. I even posted here moments after I got home. This is a punishment all taken by mistake from you, please believe me. I accept how she is and still love her. What wrong can it be to see me again. I'm not ashamed of her, I can talk to her. I can be with her, I'll do whatever it takes.