I went in town to just escape the trick or treaters coming to the door lol and ended up locking eyes with my ex of 7 years sitting in a car with her mom as I walked through the parking lot to the store and like..her eyes became wide and a "ah ****" quickly escaped through my lips as I shoved my hands deeper into my pockets and adverted my gaze as if I encountered a medusa, I quickly hastened my pace in the other direction while pulling the fur around my hood up around my neck.
I thought I've healed but it shook me to the core as, my heart started beating faster than it has in awhile. She moved states away after she ended things this year but of all the people I could see.. Life always throws us in each other's path..this isn't the first time it's happened but it's the first time since this last break up, which was serious.
Funny thing is I was debating on drinking but it inspired me not too? Like to continue bettering myself, to be able to be proud through success ^^;. I'm not sad I mean, kinda a bit emotionally confused...it was nice to see her face again and I'll always love her..all I can do is focus on bettering myself from here on out and starting a new chapter in life, that's better than any of the previous ones before it! If she comes into my life, that's perfect, if not, I will continue to strive for my goals and self improvement constantly setting new heights ^^. I feel eager if anything...that sounds like such an anime thing to say *cue typical finger under nose with cheesy grin shounen hero pic*