The 2,000,000th post game

Okay here are some tips:

1. avoid roll ups and paraphenalia at all costs, only smoke king size straights like JPS or Windsor blue
2. Avoid smokers as much as you can
3. Keep track of how much you smoke and givee hand outs
4. Take off days
5. Try to drink a lot of sugary drinks like fruit juice or coke
6. Cut down from 20 to 10 to 5 to less than 5
7. Take frustration on other things, like throwing them away and bitching about wasting money
8. Excersize
9. Distract yourself by doing other things whenever you get cravings, but count it as a smoke anyway
10. Best one: the patch!

I don't need advice

But, thanks anyway, regardless

You're probably right about roll-ups: it's hard to quit when you have so many bits lying around, etc. But packets are too expensive.

some days are harder than others

The patch is most efficient for quitting smoking. But when you work from home, and so spend the whole day sitting in one place, not smoking becomes increasingly difficult.

literally everyone gets sympathy aside from me. ****ing unbelievable.

I really can see that nobody likes me. people don't even try to hide it anymore. what a joke my existence is.

All I'm worth is occasional pity. and **** that. I don't need it.

some people were born to suffer

I tried so hard to help out building this community. being kind to people, being welcoming and understanding. why do people hate me so much? what makes me so repulsive?

I've never figured it out, but at least I know now not to try anymore.

at least now I can act as if nobody is watching, which is fun. I tried so hard before not to step on anyone's toes, or offend, often stifling my own personality to please. no need to care about that anymore!

If I'm going to be hated for no reason, despite all of my trying, I may as well just do whatever I like

if my 16 year old self could see me now, he'd be like "wtf. do I really go nowhere from here? is this it?"

tbf, I'd shoot back like, "hey, at least I'm cuter than you were. otherwise yea"

although 16yo me was actually liked here

So the sequence of events was that Bash bullied when I was weak, until I broke; then my friends sided with him, and laughed at me; then they said they were happy I was leaving; now they like Bash.

that's what happened, and it's astounding. **** this world.

they know who they ****ing are, as well.