I'm 19 and my best mate convinced me to see what a prostitute would be like to have sex with. Apparently i had shown a bit of self-esteem issues? in geting girls (I've had girlfriends before by the way, actually i had one up until the end of january this year, though no sex). I said i would only scope out the brothel or escort service place where i we were going (i had no idea what i was getting myslef into, it was spontaneous/exciting/thrilling/scary to say the least before hand) I groomed myself and picked my mate up on the way up, not knowing what to make of this encounter. we assured each other we would be the same before. Long story short. since then we haven't hung out since and he felt terrible afterwards like his morals had been broken. i didn't feel bad afterwards, just different i guess. then it hit me and i felt so unclean and dirty and couldn't understand why i lost my virginity to a prostitute. it didn't help that the prostitute said i was very good for a virgin. it plays with my mind and heart and i was already starting to like another girl the experience, its just very weird. like i feel like a whore with no love to give anymore. i would give anything to go back to how i felt before or just the whole experience altogether.
Originally posted by muabesosSo did the whore give you crabs or what?
I'm 19 and my best mate convinced me to see what a prostitute would be like to have sex with. Apparently i had shown a bit of self-esteem issues? in geting girls (I've had girlfriends before by the way, actually i had one up until the end of january this year, though no sex). I said i would only scope out the brothel or escort service place where i we were going (i had no idea what i was getting myslef into, it was spontaneous/exciting/thrilling/scary to say the least before hand) I groomed myself and picked my mate up on the way up, not knowing what to make of this encounter. we assured each other we would be the same before. Long story short. since then we haven't hung out since and he felt terrible afterwards like his morals had been broken. i didn't feel bad afterwards, just different i guess. then it hit me and i felt so unclean and dirty and couldn't understand why i lost my virginity to a prostitute. it didn't help that the prostitute said i was very good for a virgin. it plays with my mind and heart and i was already starting to like another girl the experience, its just very weird. like i feel like a whore with no love to give anymore. i would give anything to go back to how i felt before or just the whole experience altogether.