Regulus A Black
Elder Mormon
Why do I choose to believe in religion? Why do I choose to believe in God? Why do I believe what I believe? What do I believe?
I choose to believe in religion and I choose to believe in God, because I have seen God's presence active in my life, I have felt his presence all around me. When I was younger, I believed because my parents believed, and it was always easy to answer what and why I believed because of that. But as I got older, things within me started to change, I no longer believed because my parents believed, in fact I didn't believe at all. I am a very scientific person and have always wanted to be a scientist. I looked for evidence proving my parents beliefs and found nothing. Then shortly after giving up on everything, everything in my life went wrong. I lost everything I had known, everybody I had loved. My family had fallen apart and being the youngest nobody listened to me, talked to me, I just dwelt on the fact that nobody in my family paid attention to me, I had no friends whatsoever at school. I was tired of nobody listening to me, including those who were suppose to help me, such as my teachers, nobody would challange me to do my best do become the best I could be. I decided if nobody wanted me around, if nobody loved me, if nobody even noticed I was there, I wasn't going to be there any longer. I attempted suicide many times, and if I had been older, or had access to better weapons, I would have succeeded. Finally one time before I was about to do attempt suicide again, I felt something I had never felt before, there was nobody around me, but I felt a strong presence, a strong loving presence. I immediately dove into studying religion and coming to my own conclusions. So shortly, why do I believe in God is simply because he was there for me when nobody else was even when I didn't believe in him, when I didn't ask for his help, he showed his love for me. I believe in religion because I believe in God. Why do I believe what I believe, because thorugh my study, when it was just me and God, asking him for help anytime I needed it or had a question. I finally found what I was looking for, what the truth was. I KNOW what I believe in is true. I KNOW that God is there. I have felt him, I have seen the effect he has had on my life. I am so thankful for what he has done for me, and since my discovery, I have become a better person, I am no longer as selfish as I once was, I can't say i am selfless, because it is human nature to be selfish, but I tend to place others before me. I'm always willing to lend a helping hand to those who ask, and to offer a hand to those who I feel could use it. I am a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, and I KNOW what God has said is true, and I KNOW that he has called prophets today. I KNOW I believe, not because I'm scared, not because it makes me feel better about myself, but because it IS true, God IS there, and has helped me through the hardest times of my life when I didn't ask, want, or believe in him.