Re: An Atheistic Revelation
Originally posted by Lord Urizen
And in doing so, I learned that when I insult God, or insult a religion, or make sensationalist claims based on anger, personal bias, and lack of reason to beleive, that I only hurt the people I care about, and weaken my own power.No more will I dwell in anger or self pity, and spite a force that truly has done nothing to me....it has only done what I ALLOWED it to do...Christianity has only hurt me as much as I have allowed it to have....it served me well in my earlier years. My beleif in God helped prevent me from committing suicide at age 15....
That's all I have to say....Take from it whatever you will, think whatever you want...i dont care....I have a lot to work on. I have to make myself stronger, and remove myself from all the anger, hate, and negativity I have allowed to consume me.
I do not speak to the weak: they want to obey and generally lapse into slavery quickly. In the face of merciless nature, let us still feel ourselves as merciless nature! But I have found strength where one does not look for it: in simple, mild, and pleasant [people], without the least desire to rule—and, conversely, the desire to rule has often appeared to me a sign of inward weakness: they fear their own slave soul and shroud it in a royal cloak (in the end, they still become the slaves of their followers, their fame, etc.). The powerful [natures] dominate, it is a necessity, they need not lift one finger. Even if, during their lifetime, they bury themselves in a garden house!
– Friedrich Nietzsche, Nachlass, Fall 1880
Originally posted by chithappens
I remember when I first came through this though process. Honestly, it is hard to respect what others believe later even when you feel like you have this figured out because they rarely give you the same respect back.I attempt to respect others and their beliefs at all times but I slip every now and then. It's tough but it's good you can notice about that yourself. Most never bother to do a self analysis.
It is hard to respect another person's perspective when it seems completely unfounded, and on top of that is offensive to you. However, I find that people are a lot smarter and more reasonable than you know, and when you approach them diplomatically they will open up to you.
When you approach them in a hostile or antagonizing manner, it will only strengthen thier biases against you
Originally posted by FeceMan
Speaking of which, I find it hard to believe that someone would pay $500 for Urizen, even if he were the hottest piece of ass around. Maybe we ought to take a poll in the OTF.
I also find it hard to beleive....but it happened. Some loser actually paid $500.00 fkn dollars...the idiot....I met him at Chelsea in New York, a lot of Gay guys live there.
I am not going to explain the reasoning behind my actions...i did NOT enjoy it, trust me...it was humilating. I wouldn't do it again..but i promise you, I had reason to do it. That tuition excuse was a lie....
Everyone in the OTF hates me, more than they hate Smiter, so i'd rather not. They all think I look "too guido" and apparently that's a bad thing in KMC 🙄
Originally posted by Lord Urizen
I am not going to explain the reasoning behind my actions...i did NOT enjoy it, trust me...it was humilating. I wouldn't do it again..but i promise you, I had reason to do it. That tuition excuse was a lie....
Also, I didn't think you enjoyed it. The entire business of prostitution is degrading, as it turns a person into nothing more than an object for sexual pleasure...the person is robbed of his or her will...a horrible experience.
I know you probably think that I judge you for that, but I don't. I feel sadness that you had to go through such an experience.
Originally posted by FeceMan
Was he fat?
A little bit...which is why I charged so much...and he was Christian too..i mean come on....wtf was he thinking ?
Originally posted by FeceMan
Also, I didn't think you enjoyed it. The entire business of prostitution is degrading, as it turns a person into nothing more than an object for sexual pleasure...the person is robbed of his or her will...a horrible experience.
I agree with you 100%, and I would never wish that kinda humiliation on ANYBODY, not even my worst rival. People think that because I'm this over sexxed homosexual pervert, that I would easily do something like that for fun, and nothing could be further from the truth.
That was disgusting and one of the worst things I allowed myself to endure. It's hard for me to think anyone could respect me if they knew, much less respect myself.
And on top of that, it adds to my mental complex...that i have to be liked for my body to be liked at all...i know, im 21, and i have that kind of mentality..it's sad.
Originally posted by FeceMan
I know you probably think that I judge you for that, but I don't. I feel sadness that you had to go through such an experience.
Thanks
Originally posted by FeceMan
Well, it's good to know that I'm not the only one with mental complexes around here.
Trust me bro, every1 on KMC has a fkn mental complex....
I also don't trust many gay guys....thier some of the most judgemental ppl on the fkn planet....ive been used and screwed over a lot..i almost wish i was straight.