"A little guilt"...Ok, I'm sorry, but I am going to sound rude because I'm going to be blunt. That is the stupidest thing I have ever read.
Killing someone, especially a friend, is not something that one would feel 'a little' guilt over.
You've never killed a person, Savvy, have you? Therefore, you have absolutely NO WAY of knowing how that affects someone.
Do you even know anyone who has had to kill? Have you sat up nights with them while they shake and weep and mourn the loss of that person, even if they had no other choice BUT to kill?
Have you watched someone slowly kill themselves over the grief of taking another life? You don't need to know a name to grieve over killing someone. Sometimes, you don't even have to see a face. The mere fact that when you close your eyes you can play that scene over and over in your head, knowing what you did, even if you had to, is an enormous burden.
You make it sound like Elizabeth should be ok with killing a person, especially someone she called a friend. Her grief is true to what I've seen soldiers, police officers and paramedics go through. There's guilt, regret, pain, andthe thought that, "if I could just take it back, I would. I would bring them back."
Few of them knew the identity of the person they ended the life of, and I know that not one of them was friends with that person. Still, there is a deep regret and mourning for what had to be done.
Unlike real life, however, Elizabeth gets that chance to bring someone back. She can 'fix' things; fix the gaping wound in her soul that was caused by killing someone.
Elizabeth has pushed the envelope to get what she wants, and now, she's realized that she's gone too far. She doesn't want to kill; she never knew what price there was to be paid for murdering someone.
That price is her morality, her soul, her love of life (for who can murder and still say that they love life?). Being amoral, losing her soul, losing everything that is central to her existance...that's not what Elizabeth wants, and you're a fool if you believe it.
I realize that Elizabeth is a fictional character, but TnT have taken care to craft characters that we can all relate to, who are all human, and who have human responses to the situations that occur in their lives.
The authority of being responsible for life and death is an awesome, terrible burden to carry. How dare you make it seem as if it's something that can be easily brushed aside?
To say that the only reason you'd ever want to bring back a friend that you murdered because you might be in love with them is both callous and stupid. Only a little guilt...Take your Sparrabeth blinders off for five seconds and repeat the phrase "I would only feel a little guilt for killing a friend" to yourself, and envision you murdering someone who is dear to you, and then you tell me if you'd only feel "a little guilt".